There's more I want to share. Racism is formative. It's taught--intentionally and unintentionally.
I was so young, I didn't understand.
We go back to giggling about our belly buttons.
I'm five, maybe. Parent reacts with vitriolic anger and fear.
But...
And my family faced their own discrimination in this country. However, they came here on their own free will
The South is different but not necessarily dumber or smarter--with race.
Family behavior reinforced that subtly and not so subtly.
If they're wise, they're still capable of growing, right? Let them off the hook for stuff that older people 200-300 years ago knew was wrong?
Being outwardly and vocally hateful was wrong and made your family look bad but being exclusionary for ignorant reasons, telling jokes, reinforcing racism behind the scenes was intentionally and unintentionally encouraged.
It's the source of gaslighting.
That it was ok to be friendly but not close to black people.
That black entertainers were exceptional and not the norm. Ring a bell?
I knew this wasn't true. Didn't change the emotional reactions I had from these being internalized. Sound familiar?