My recent outdoor photos have been vibrant -- I've been finding unlikely greens despite this summer drought -- but the canvas of my soul has been drab and disorganized. The undulations of a #depression...
...have evaded the consciousness of people exposed to me, but they do comment on my scatter-brainedness as if that is some kind of character flaw rather than a symptom of an illness. The people who probably need to see this don't follow me...
...on Twitter or Facebook, so this is going out to all of you who don't experience me in real life or via Zoom. I am not much of a direct communicator, so I don't state outright "Hey, what the fuck is wrong with you...
... can't you see that I am depressed?" Instead I plod on as if nothing was the matter, as if I wasn't experiencing brain fatigue. My therapist and I discussed how people will be there for every kind of illness and distress...
...except mental illness. Have a heart attack, expect a casserole. Have an episode of the darkness, expect nothing.
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I don't bond with most people because they make the silliest assumptions about me. For example: A fellow evaluated a speech of mine in Toastmasters which was rightly critical of my organization and the fact that I had left it untiled. OK...
...he had legitimate things to say. It is my job to draw up the schedule for each meeting, so I was asking people if they would fill in blanks. I suggested that this fellow give a speech, but he jokingly? said he wasn't ready to...
...give me a chance to get back by evaluating him.
Blink blink.
The sociopathic thought of me using a helpful speech as an instrument of revenge just isn't me. Why would this occur to him as something to tease me about? The likely explanation...
Blink blink.
The sociopathic thought of me using a helpful speech as an instrument of revenge just isn't me. Why would this occur to him as something to tease me about? The likely explanation...
...is this was just an example of the kind of needling men inflict on each other. But I have gone through life having people assume that I will do this kind of thing. Once I had a girlfriend who was terrified that I would take pictures of her in the shower...
....Where she got the idea that I would do this hurt more than just a little. These two are just some of the examples of distrustfulness that I have encountered. Why do people invent these states of mind for me and, worse...
...embarrass me with accusations?
It could be that they would do this kind of thing themselves, so I am getting a warning to be wary of them. I would appreciate thoughts on this subject from my readers.
It could be that they would do this kind of thing themselves, so I am getting a warning to be wary of them. I would appreciate thoughts on this subject from my readers.
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Joel Sax shared a photo with you from the Flickr app! Check it out:
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Joel Sax shared a photo with you from the Flickr app! Check it out:
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Let us walk away from these thoughts to talk about my photos. I am continuing to post the photos from my Bolsa Chica Ecological Reserve hike. The nearly indigo water made for some intense shots. The panorama shows...
...the remnants of a Second World War gunnery emplacement meant to defend against the Japanese. The second is a patch of pickleweed. I almost rejected this photo for inclusion in my gallery because I feared that people...
...wouldn't appreciate the abstract shapes created by the slough The numbers coming in, though, suggest that my audience does engage with the odd shapes of the plants and the water.
Once more, I have no clue what will be and what won't be liked.
Once more, I have no clue what will be and what won't be liked.
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