how many magical long-term relationships has the term and idea of a “serious relationship” prevented?
my most magical several year and decade long relationships had about 5 minutes of seriousness in them each
Incidentally my awkward 5 minute conversations from the 3 networking events I accidentally walked into in the last decade also had 5 minutes of seriousness
consider self love. Are you looking to start a serious relationship with yourself or just a fling? Neither I.. just want to love myself.. and feel comfortable and at home.. forever?
(also it's interesting that the word magical came up. I was like hmm, how would I describe my most meaningful relationships, in work, romance, friendships, self? When the word magical came up I instantly felt it was right)
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give to twitter and it gives back just trust the process
almost everyone I know who got really into twitter had their lives transformed in ways they couldn’t have anticipated. We need an MTV Cribs of twitter where people just talk about how it improved their lives
there's usually like an eight month delay though
twitter wont give you its treasure if it thinks you'll leave it in the morning, needs to know you're committed
woke up to @selentelechia writing a wonderful thread about mine on self-love as feeling like you're with a crush
a few day ago I decided to be a bit more open about my phenomenology and protocol for getting there, so I'll try to respond to some of the things she brought up!
I'm doing-it-live so don't know what it will say but quick infohazard warning. Reading about someone's mostly successful attempt to get to a better emotional state can be painful, or remind you of things you may not be in a great place for right now. You can always read it later!
I regret just listing the crush part but I didn't feel comfortable going deep into what I was feeling when I wrote the original thread (bc of hurting people :/)
On a valence arousal axes it's always positive-valence but all range of arousal
After a few years of reading the scientific literature and brewing on it myself I couldn’t be less confident about awareness and basically what’s really going on in the universe. Being merely 95% confused seems impossibly far away
behold my intellectual bounty from thousands of hours of thinking: causality may be important, maybe?
until someone tells me what's really going on I choose to believe the fundamental unit of the universe is kisses 😘
definitely follow @noampomsky even if you aren't doing this though. Her reward system is broken, allowing her to see magic in everything, and I highly suggest breaking yourself in the same way
going down street or at stoplights I’m usually dancing and like half of days I notice a backseat teen smiling and recording me and I wish I could see a big collage of all of these snapchats and whatever over the last 10y (happened twice this coffee run)
also the correlation between how much I notice that I’m autodancing and my previous night’s HRV is crazy. Under 60 no dancing, > 100 it’s just excessive and annoying even to me
propranolol kills the natural urge to dance :( alcohol increases but it gets too much v easily and I fall over, phenibut increases it, makes me auto start conversations with random people walking by me on the street