don't let a single fucking person make you feel like an idiot for thinking that the end of the story was going to be a good one
do not let a single person make fun of you
do not make fun of YOURSELF
you were right
& that is all
I am SERIOUS. THE SHOW IS GOING TO MAKE YOU FEEL BAD ENOUGH ON ITS OWN. DO NOT MAKE YOURSELF FEEL WORSE OR LET ANYONE ELSE MAKE YOU FEEL WORSE
it is not a sin to understand storytelling & believe in a good ending, no matter how many times you've done it & been disappointed
& IN THAT VEIN:
WHATEVER YOU FEEL, HOWEVER YOU FEEL, IS VALID & NO ONE ELSE GETS TO DICTATE THAT FOR YOU OR HOW YOU PROCESS IT EITHER. AT ALL.
you are not crazy for believing in better
you are not stupid for expecting better
& you DESERVED better
coda
NO shade to anyone saying the writing was always this bad but HERE'S THE THING: no it was not. not like that.
YES IT HAS BEEN BAD. YES IT HAS A REPUTATION. I DO NOT CARE. IT WAS NOT WILD TO BELIEVE THAT THEY'D END IT WELL AFTER 15 YEARS & 4 YEARS OF SOLID CONTENT.
You think any long fans or re-arriving fans would've been watching tonight if they didn't think for SERIOUS REASONS something was gonna be good? They know the good & the bad of this show & thought it could be good. It was never bad enough to warrant skepticism to expect THIS.
Something fundamentally bothers me about people's repetitive insistence that heroic characters are incapable of retiring, as a way to defend death as being a logical ending for a story.
I think this has become a disturbing trend, & I think the message it sends is a bad one.
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Heroism has or is quickly becoming synonymous with "selflessness to the point of destruction." A character is shown to be traumatized, burdened, struggling with suicidal ideation... & we are expected to NOT want to see them triumph rather than die or regress? Why?
This is not the deep or interesting concept people think it is. The idea of "a hero would never retire because they ALWAYS want to help" fundamentally forgets that humanizing a character is multifaceted & it includes these aspects: humans get tired, & there are many ways to help.
no but... what was Misha filming. we know he was filming because he said he had stuff left to film. WHAT did he film?????
wait wait hang on
[holds a finger up]
so they could have Misha's voice on a phone in 15x19 but they could not have his voice on the Impala's radio? They could not have him show up anyway in a socially distanced 6 feet? Huh
did they use their $5 budget on Jared's wig
WHY WAS CAS STANDING IN AN ONION FIELD???????????????????????????????????????
I absolutely know there are people out there laughing at me right now or wanting to be like "told you so" sympathetically but I cannot possibly adequately word how little I care, how few fucks I give, and how nonexistent my regrets are and will always be
The moment I ever, IN MY LIFE, ALLOW MYSELF TO STOP HAVING HOPE THAT STORIES WILL END WELL IS THE MOMENT THAT I WILL FEEL THAT I HAVE LET A PART OF ME DIE & I HAVE LET THE BAD WRITERS WIN
Do people have to agree? No, it's a personal thing okay
Is this dramatic? I do not care :)
FUCK being jaded, FUCK being cynical, I will be excited about stories' potential as often as I want & till the day & no one will ever stop me because it does not make me feel stupid or crazy
it makes me feel that I am right, & they are wrong, because I am a stubborn motherfucker
No but seriously: it's also not "just" about Destiel. Like that's an undeniable part but it is... not the whole thing. They KILLEDDDD them. DEAN WENT TO BAT WITH EVERY MONSTER & BEING & GOD HIMSELF & HE DIED FROM A NAIL. THAT'S NOT QUEERBAITING SO MUCH AS IT IS DEEPLY STUPID
& then they like... flashed through Sam's life like we're meant to care when there is NO emotional resonance without at minimum Eileen there, as well as NO EMOTIONAL CONNECTION TO THIS SON. Why are we meant to care? We physically cannot care about this nameless son character
Why am I typing this? I DON'T KNOW! BECAUSE I CAN! Anyway. Forget all that shit about theorizing, about expecting reciprocation, etc. etc.
The bare minimum was "makes sense & ties up loose ends." It did not hit that bar.
THAT IS, FRANKLY, WILDER TO ME THAN ANYTHING ELSE TBH
Seeing rumors that a Canadian network is airing everything #Supernatural an hour earlier (?) so just in case, proceed with caution once we hit the 8PM EST mark! You may be on the retrospective (as I will be) but elsewhere on the bird app someone might be watching the episode :/
And for the love of God, DO NOT look at the trending page at 8PM EST unless you want potential spoilers.
To clarify: Canada is doing episode first and retrospective after! So that's the issue!