well the [sarcastically good] news is that I got terrible sleep before a scheduled holiday zoom call later this morning, which is literally how I became bedbound for months back in April!
I have not gotten better at managing all the Complicated Feelings that come with having a body that regularly says "you can participate in [this planned activity], but there will be unpredictable consequences and they may be permanent!"
And I always feel so preemptively defensive about the IDEA of backing out of a plan with non-sick folks that my brain gremlins always tell me anyone else involved will think I'm A DRAMATIC FAKER.
And like again, I'm saying this as a person who is still recovering 🤞 from a health collapse that was caused by *checks notes* sleeping extremely poorly the night before Easter and deciding to spend 5 minutes saying hello on the zoom call as a compromise.
And STILL I'm like... ok, what's a reasonable compromise to suggest if sitting isn't working for me.
But some small rational part of me is like: there is no reasonable compromise. Nobody is asking you to give up months of your life for a 5-minute call.
But some small rational part of me is like: there is no reasonable compromise. Nobody is asking you to give up months of your life for a 5-minute call.
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