Everyone,
My wellbeing is used up. I’ve given my best to friends & strangers, helping them survive 2020, while coping w/my own intense pain & loss. I’m past redline. I’m broken. I hope you'll remember me while I can't give as much. I hope y'all help each other prosper.
IOUs to body, heart, & soul demand payment eventually. I hope to be thought of by new generations as... someone who risked much to get us here. Medically, emotionally, I have had enormous losses... but I know I won't give up.
I still have 1,000 strategies to fight for love.
If there's a takeaway, it's that making lives better is HARD, & it's costly, but it's well worth it. Sometimes we hit the mat. That's part of the work.
When you help others, please, be helped by others. It's a skill set. More you're helped, the better others get at helping!
Tapping out isn't losing. It's longevity.
Quitting would be tapping out & never returning. Someone who's been in the game for life knows:
You tap out, to return.
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