This term I am (hopefully) graduating! Here are some strategies I'm trying out to manage anxiety and overworking 1/9
1. Check fellowships and job postings once a week and once a week only
2. Use printed calendars to map out chapter deadlines and edits 2/9
3. Keep a running "to do" list so I don't feel anxious about forgetting future edits/additions
4. Accept that the defense is about imagining a better manuscript. This is a starting point. It can't be perfect and it won't be. 3/9
5. Keep a work accountability buddy who's anticipating a similar timeline. Share goals and check in weekly
6. Keep in contact frequently with my advisor so there are no surprises and we're on the same page 4/9
7. Take weekends off and block out a 40 hour work week. I can't feasibly write well for more than four hours a day, so I'm also building a schedule with varied tasks 5/9
8. Ask all my friends outside the academy to hold me accountable to distanced social engagements. It helps to have people outside the system remind me that it's just a job, and that I deserve and need self care. 6/9
9. Ask for help early. I'm working on feeling less guilty saying "no" and less guilty focusing on this one thing. I don't need to present at conferences or give talks or guest lecture. Because I might be shifting to a career where none of those things are valued. 7/9
10. Use this time to acknowledge the PhD process for what it was and what it was not. It's hard to commit so much time to a system that will continually make you feel like you're not enough and that you're not working hard enough. 8/9
I mentioned I was looking into DEI jobs and a colleague told me "burn out in those jobs is like two years."
I've been in the academy for 10 years as a disabled academic. I hate the term burn out. It doesn't convey the reality that disabled scholars face - discrimination. 1/4
It's about advocating for yourself and others and being told to your face that your needs don't matter and you're not worth the cost. I hate the term "burn out." Let's not use a vague phrase for something far more underhanded and harmful. 2/4
I'm tired of promoting my humanity in the face of a capitalist society that tells me my needs are too expensive so I don't deserve shit. But I don't have the choice to do DEI work. I already have to do that work just to survive in the academy. 3/4
This year is a good reminder that some students don't return to spring semester "refreshed" or ready to go. For students with complex chronic illnesses and disabilities, winter break is often a time to play catch up with their medical team or a time to try to secure a dx. 1/9
Students need those dx to get accommodations, but it's incredibly hard to get them. The costs for testing and appts can be excessive, specialists may be far away, and getting the right Dr is hard. These extended hospital closures are creating new barriers as well. 2/9
Over break so far I have 1. Fainted during bloodwork 2. Found I have double the inflammatory markers of an average person (Drs still not totally sure why) 3. Been dx with small fiber neuropathy 4. Undergone a punch biopsy 5. Been given a preliminary RA dx. 3/9
So floored to see so many new followers! I'm @Nicole_Lee_Sch and I (for now) run the social media acct for the DAC. Collectively, our membership provides support to disabled individuals of higher ed. If you'd like a link to our server feel free to DM 1/7
Also check out our website where we have basic resources on accessibility and guest blog posts written by our membership. If you'd like to write something about disability and higher ed feel free to reach out! 2/7
Hopefully our membership will continue to grow throughout 2021. As the founder of the DAC I am so excited to see all that we have done, and to imagine all that we might do. Our members have supported one another in so many ways! 3/7
I'm not celebrating #DisabilityDay today. I'm not going to post stats again or raise awareness about inequality in higher ed. I'm not going to write again and again about how every disabled student faces discriminatory processes in higher ed and the job market. 1/4
Quite frankly I'm tired of awareness days. I'm tired of proving my humanity. I'm tired of compiling evidence of my oppression to try to convince you to care. As a disabled person, I deal with ableism every single day. I don't want to partake in a day of awareness. 2/4
Because for me awareness needs to happen every single day. Because for me awareness doesn't better my life. I need allies to take action. I need allies who recognize my oppression before it happens and call it out when it happens. 3/4
Boosting so all our members can answer! I have #EhlersDanlos so I have a really hard time hand writing. I try to limit my writing tasks because my hands cramp a lot. Investing in silver ring splints made it so so so much easier for me to type comfortably without dislocating.
I also was incredibly lucky to have a friend offer to help build me a desktop! Throughout grad school I had a $150 acer chromebook that I'd take to class with me. I loved it - it could be switched to tablet mode, it was fine for attendance and class discussion when teaching.
And it was lightweight. Made such a huge difference when traversing my campus. Then I have a nice desktop at home that's built to run with my access needs in mind. My friend recommended decent screens, and I set it up as a dual monitor.