Thread by @ABCsofADHD

Intrusive thoughts are especially scary when you have impulsivity issues too.

I'm still super careful around stairs cause my brain starts wondering how it's be to just hurl myself down them.

My ADHD thinks it's be cool but I disagree.

ADHD is like a very young child, who doesn't know how anything works and wants to try it all.

ADHD: 'feel that knife edge, I bet it's super sharp!'

Me: 'it is and it'll cause me to bleed'

ADHD: 'but what if you don't! It'd be cool'

Disaster strikes when I listen to it.

Oh and this is also how anxiety acts as maladaptive 'coping' for ADHD issues.

If I'm absent minded, I might just fucking do it.

Anxiety makes me hyperaware of anything that can hurt me.

It's undesirable and maladaptive but it's probably saved me from really hurting myself.

Oh, and I'm speaking out of experience.

CW, btw.

When I was very young, I wanted to know what the inside of a colour pencil looked like so I cut it with a razor blade.

The blade slipped and I still have a 3 inch scar down my palm. I lost a lot of blood that day.

Yknow, my hands actually covered in scars from me being a fucking idiot.

Or an angry idiot.

I once punched my bathroom tiles when taking a shower cause of a burst of random anger.

I still have the scar on my finger. Though that's closer to self harm than pure idiocy.

My mouse stopped working when I was in my teens and out of anger (and impulsiveness) I hurled it at the wall.

It exploded and looked super cool.

Scared the daylights out of my friends around me though.

Impulsivity + anger issues = very common in ADHDers. Even PI ADHDers.