Loads. But I will always remember a time when I intervened in a racist assault on my close friend as we went to get lunch and the way he said, ‘just leave it Jess, I’m used to it now’ broke my fucking heart. I’ll never forget the tone of his voice as he said it to me.
As a white person, I will never ever understand that tone of voice. I was 21 years old. I just stared at him. I didn’t know what to say. He was just so ‘used’ to being racially abused in the street. We talked about it for hours. Hundreds of experiences. Fucking appalling.
It still sends shivers up me. The way he just sort of looked fucking exhausted and the way he ended up having to like support me instead of the other way around, and reassure ME that he was ok and was used to it.
Real fucking learning for a younger me.
My closest friend these days is Indian and the amount of times people have blatantly treated her differently to me in front of me have disgusted me. We went to a festival and they gave me the tickets and chatted to me and then spoke to her loudly and slowly. I was enraged.
And yet, she reacted the same was as my Jamaican friend. Rolled her eyes and told me to leave it, and that she was used to it. She made a joke to the person who spoke to her like that and told them it was okay.
She always says to me, it’s better not to argue back when Black.
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After I posted my blog yday about being subjected to male violence, I just woke up to an email from someone who believes in the ‘cycle of violence’ and has told me that they ‘know’ I must have also committed crime and acts of violence because of what I have been subjected to
Absolutely horrified to get that email. But let me just break this down.
There is no ‘cycle of violence’.
We all make choices. Never bullied anyone. Never harmed anyone. Never been in trouble with the law.
I make an active choice to never be violent.
I made an active choice to be a calm, supportive parent. I try to never lose my temper.
I’m proud that I’ve never perpetuated anything I’ve lived through.
People who use their experiences to excuse their violence are just not ready to accept that they made active choices.
All this is just reminding me of how many cases of male violence I’ve worked on where men got excused for the most fucking ridiculous reasons.
One guy had loads of Cat A images of babies and was spared a custodial or suspended cos he wanted to emigrate to Australia!!
Another guy had sexually abused his infant daughter and filmed the offences and was also spared a custodial because he said he only did it because he was depressed
I mean. What the fuck.
The countless cases I worked on where men had beaten and abused their wives and girlfriends because ‘they pushed their buttons’
Just got reminded that when my kid’s teacher retired he made them a card saying BEST TEACHER YET!
When they asked if he meant ‘best teacher ever’
He said no, and said because he was only in year 4 and he hadn’t met all of his teachers yet, he couldn’t make that decision 😂
To anyone thinking this is funny or cute, the reason I know about this is because the teacher called me in about him being ‘rude’ when he said that he hadn’t met all the other teachers yet.
You’ve just reminded me of when I got called into school for his ‘inappropriate behaviour towards a teacher’ and then I found out it was because he asked her ‘what did you do on the weekend? Have you had a nice weekend? How are you today?’ and they said it was ‘too adult’ lmfao
It’s amazing how little ‘prevention advice’ and ‘safety advice’ is given to men and boys and yet for some weird reason, they seem not to be raped or murdered whilst doing their day to day tasks.
It’s as if... the advice we give to women and girls is total bollocks.
Like, I don’t get it. How are all these dudes going jogging and walking home from work with NO SAFETY ADVICE?
They must have some sort of innate characteristic or quality which protects them... even without all that safety advice.
As a psychologist, as someone who specialises in trauma, as someone who can pick out what people are not saying, and as someone who can see abusive family dynamics - everything playing out around Meghan is deliberate, & designed to destroy her because she is a whistleblower.
So many women will relate to this:
She is the whistleblower in her family
She is the whistleblower in his family
She points out when something is wrong, oppressive, abusive or harmful - and then she is attacked for it, vilified and positioned as the abuser
She’s an authentic speaker surrounded by power hungry narcissists.
This is exactly what happens to thousands of women when they try to speak out and then get away from their abusive families.
Notice the language ‘cut off’. This is commonly used when victims walk away.