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3 Apr, 5 tweets, 2 min read
i mentally feel totally fine but my body has major anxiety - can’t eat, tons of muscle knots, everything hurts - and by now i know that means it is clearly feeling some type of way about something and i’m more than ready for it to just hurry up and tell me what it is
a lot of people identified with having anxiety pain so fyi if you live in a place where this is available, i ate one square of this 5 to 1 CBD to THC chocolate before bed and it made me really relaxed and my body feels so much better today. lightyears better. i recommend it!
weed is really complicated and individual for people with anxiety and i wish people had been more truthful with me about that early on so FYI from what i’ve learned for myself - weed without a higher CBD content gives me panic attacks but high CBD makes it *completely* different
if you have a bad reaction to regular cannabis products, i wouldn’t let that scare you off of trying cbd products. as long as it’s 1:1 cbd to thc i find it helpful but this 5:1 cbd to thc is a fucking game changer, i’m really thrilled about it
these are my other cbd products that keep me alive - the balm is what i use on my muscle knots and it works better than anything else i’ve ever tried. the cbd vape juice helps stop my panic attacks. just a tip for anyone else whose anxiety kicks their ass 😊 hope that helps

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omg i just found out about the phonics vs whole language debate and for decades people have been fighting over which is the best way to teach kids to read and apparently did not realize that phonics works for NDs and whole language works for NTs?? it’s... really fucking obvious
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