"LSD is bad because when people take it their values become different from mine" lmao
in all seriousness LSD is a big part of what led to me dropping out of grad school and i wouldn't have it any other way. there were parts of me that were buried that are important and LSD helped them come out and in doing so undermined all the reasons i was in grad school
LSD didn't change my "terminal values." my personality was a rickety building that wasn't working very well and LSD shifted a bunch of pieces of it. that's not exactly the same as fixing it but i had to start somewhere and that was where i started
i wouldn't necessarily recommend it to other people without a lot more warnings and disclaimers but at this point i pretty much have to accept that LSD has permanently wound itself into the story of my life and i have a relationship to it and i like that relationship a lot
in the long run LSD helped me resolve a lot of confusions i was laboring under but it's not a magic confusion-resolving machine. some people seem to become more confused. or maybe they're right and i'm wrong who knows 🤔 this shit is actually hard is what i'm trying to say

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at one point in my life i seriously considered offering authentic relating workshops or something in that vein as the job i was going to do. i consistently rejected it and the main reason i could see is the problem with all those workshops is that they end
like you can get together with people for a few days and talk about your feelings and this can legitimately be psychedelic and open parts of you up that have never been opened up before

and then the workshop fucking ends and everyone fucking flies home to their *separate* lives
meditation retreats and ayahuasca ceremonies etc. have this problem too. there isn't a good mechanism for integrating the peak experience with the rest of your life. that's not what you paid for and it's not what you get. sometimes there are zoom calls or some shit 🙄
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