Tweet

Jordan Tierney

28 Aug, 13 tweets, 3 min read

tfw you bitter/jealous/sad post every day about your friends getting surgeries you can't afford and eventually those ppl just move on with their life cause they're sick of your negative energy and listening to you whine and go all "woe is me" about shit they already got done...

7 years will teach you to be nothing if not self aware!!

This might be next pinned post.

Tfw when ppl tell you to like think about something/anything else for a while...

tfw ppl tell you don't need any surgeries anyways cause you look xyz and should be happy!!!...

tfw you get worse and worse at being excited and happy for other ppl as the years go on and you just languish and linger in this impossible yearning as hopelessness slowly consume you...

I would like to play a very different character in this life one day please... I'm very sick of this one.

I promise you there are lots and lots of other things I'd rather be thinking about and posting about than just this over and over and over and over.

You think you're sick of it? I can't even begin to tell you how sick of it I am.

tfw ppl are like well how expensive is it??? It couldn't possibly be THAT expensive...

lmgtfy.app/?q=ffs+surgery…

Perhaps there is no way I can healthfully use social media...

Despite all the fun things I would like to share the lingering sadness that always comes from being here reminds me maybe hiding alone in my room reading books keep thoughts to myself is a better fit for me

I meant healthily but healthfully works fine too lolol sure

Alas

• • •

Missing some Tweet in this thread? You can try to force a refresh

This Thread may be Removed Anytime!

Twitter may remove this content at anytime! Save it as PDF for later use!

More from @jordantyranny

Jordan Tierney

@jordantyranny

29 Aug

I should have posted here sooner, I'm sorry, I have been a mess and spent night with friends IRL.

y'all are very kind, I am still alive, I wish I could say all my problems are solved and I feel better and eager to stick around but y'all deserve to at least know I'm ok right now.

My sister told me if nothing helps just to try to sleep as much as I can, so I have just been using that coping strategy today.

Thank you for reaching out, if you don't see me on here for a while it's cause I'm very very sad and tired and don't want to worry ppl even more.

dear trans team,

Thank you for reaching out and wanting me to stay alive.

It doesn't always work, I've definitely lost friends to suiii before only to read all the wish I could have helped posts after and cry.

Thank you for helping keep me alive and being kind and patient.

Read 18 tweets

Jordan Tierney

@jordantyranny

28 Aug

i would like to refer to my body and my life as a failed state... as in everyone saw what was wrong, everyone knew what was wrong, and no one was surprised when it stopped existing

other nations: well we woulda loved to help and donate money and assistance, but like have you seen our country??? we got enough problems on our own! its not our job to bail out every failed state out there

FAILED STATE
FAILED STATE
COLLAPSE OF JORDAN

Read 10 tweets

Jordan Tierney

@jordantyranny

28 Aug

Sadposting makes me no money, loses me followers, and never ever makes me feel any better after doing it...

So why exactly do I do it?! Just to scream into the void about the same things over and over like an insane person?!?

If the purpose of this Twitter is to point ppl to onlyfans and make money then it's directly against my own financial interest.

If the purpose of this Twitter is to reach out to people of similar experience why does it never feel better to talk to ppl about anything??!

These seem like the existential nonsense of someone who is nearing the end of their rope...

Read 5 tweets

Jordan Tierney

@jordantyranny

28 Aug

got an invite for queer block party today and I turned it down cause I can't be around other queer ppl without getting sad and dysphoric.

also why I haven't been to a single pride event in 6 years...

seems like a strange place to show up when u miserable and have zero pride :/

Wait wasn't I just complaining last week about showing up to a wedding and being only queer person there and that making me feel uncomfortable...

maybe I'm just not a happy person.

My ex was always trying to get me to go queer things and I always had to be like I promise it will end in me having a meltdown so no I won't go

I would also refuse to watch trans content on the internet with her or play with clothes or makeup.

I would not date me.

Read 8 tweets

Jordan Tierney

@jordantyranny

28 Aug

i like to ask ppl bout their lives / how they are doing but as soon as they ask me about mine i pretty much just exit the conversation ASAP

if you ever DM'd me or talked to me and we were having a good convo for a while and then it stopped all of a sudden.... now you know why! nothing personal :)