I should have posted here sooner, I'm sorry, I have been a mess and spent night with friends IRL.
y'all are very kind, I am still alive, I wish I could say all my problems are solved and I feel better and eager to stick around but y'all deserve to at least know I'm ok right now.
My sister told me if nothing helps just to try to sleep as much as I can, so I have just been using that coping strategy today.
Thank you for reaching out, if you don't see me on here for a while it's cause I'm very very sad and tired and don't want to worry ppl even more.
dear trans team,
Thank you for reaching out and wanting me to stay alive.
It doesn't always work, I've definitely lost friends to suiii before only to read all the wish I could have helped posts after and cry.
Thank you for helping keep me alive and being kind and patient.
i would like to refer to my body and my life as a failed state... as in everyone saw what was wrong, everyone knew what was wrong, and no one was surprised when it stopped existing
other nations: well we woulda loved to help and donate money and assistance, but like have you seen our country??? we got enough problems on our own! its not our job to bail out every failed state out there
i like to ask ppl bout their lives / how they are doing but as soon as they ask me about mine i pretty much just exit the conversation ASAP
if you ever DM'd me or talked to me and we were having a good convo for a while and then it stopped all of a sudden.... now you know why! nothing personal :)
if you read my tweets you have a pretty good idea, I dont need to complain about the exact same thing to ppl on a case by case basis I swear!
tfw you bitter/jealous/sad post every day about your friends getting surgeries you can't afford and eventually those ppl just move on with their life cause they're sick of your negative energy and listening to you whine and go all "woe is me" about shit they already got done...
7 years will teach you to be nothing if not self aware!!