When I arrived in Perugia as a 20-year-old, I was sexually active, but pretty sheltered. I could count my intimate partners on one hand.
But when I was accused of murder, my rather unremarkable sexuality was distorted and magnified into something deviant.
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They painted me as a femme fatale, and the courtroom and the media ignored the lack of evidence and focused on things like the joke vibrator a friend had bought me, or what underwear I purchased. All to support a fantastical theory about a sex game gone wrong.
The misdirected focus on my sexuality was one the things that bothered me most about the trials. I could have been a professional dominatrix and it shouldn't have mattered. That still wouldn’t make me a killer.
It was unfair, and not just to me...Looking back on those years, I started to wonder, how does the BDSM community feel about their lifestyle being used to vilify someone accused of murder?
I started to wonder, what does a sex game gone right look like? What even is a sex game? Does it even involve sex? I decided to find out.
So I went to DomCon to meet @THEMistressCyan. I got flogged on a St. Andrews Cross. I tasted subspace, and learned some remarkable things about the BDSM world and about myself.
It's unendingly strange to see my face being used yet again, without my consent, to promote products that defame me, this time an essay by @alicebolin for @vulture.
I'll let the comments to this essay speak for themselves about the argument @alicebolin makes, comparing my recent thoughts on #Stillwater to the #CatPerson controversy.
"Imagine a movie 'inspired by' the Central Park 5 in which it turns out their fictionalized avatars were actually indirectly involved in the rape," this commenter writes. "Would that be justifiable, for fiction's sake?"
I've had so much taken from me already, it's astonishing people still want to restrict my freedom. It happens in many ways, but attempts to shame me for finding humor in my trauma are especially cruel. Laughter of all things? That's what you want to take from me?
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My wrongful conviction by Italian authorities ≠ the murder of Meredith Kercher by Rudy Guede.
Me making a joke about my wrongful conviction ≠ me making a joke about Meredith's murder.
But every time I do joke about my wrongful conviction, I get accused of exactly that.
Why? Because the media tricked you long ago into conflating these two tragedies when, in fact, they are separate tragedies caused by separate actors. The injustice done to me was not an inevitable result of the injustice done to Meredith.
Hi Tom. You say: “Stillwater is a work of fiction and not about her life experience...There were a few entry points that sparked the narrative, including aspects of real-life events, but the story and characters within my latest film are all invented.”
Did you read my Atlantic piece? Because I feel like you’re being disingenuous and evading my point.
Now that I’ve got your attention, I’d like to share a little family story about vaccines and conspiracy theories.
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My mom was born in Germany in 1962. When she was about 9 months old, she developed a high fever and a rash. My oma brought her to the doctor, and she was diagnosed with measles.
There was no measles vaccine available yet. That wouldn’t come until the following year. And without it, mortality rates were high, especially for children under five. The measles was twice as deadly as Polio.
Does my name belong to me? My face? What about my life? My story? Why does my name refer to events I had no hand in? I return to these questions because others continue to profit off my name, face, & story without my consent. Most recently, the film #STILLWATER.
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This new film by director Tom McCarthy, starring Matt Damon, is “loosely based” or “directly inspired by” the “Amanda Knox saga,” as Vanity Fair put it in a for-profit article promoting a for-profit film, neither of which I am affiliated with.
I want to pause right here on that phrase: “the Amanda Knox saga.” What does that refer to? Does it refer to anything I did? No. It refers to the events that resulted from the murder of Meredith Kercher by a burglar named Rudy Guede.
15 years after my wrongful conviction, the hate hasn't stopped: cunt, killer, slut, liar. I also have plenty of supporters who stick up for me. I posted a thread a bit ago about the strangeness of living in that dual reality...
But the hate and support aside, I often worry that I'll never DO anything that will impact my own life as much as my life has been impacted by something I DIDN'T DO, something that happened to me, that was not of me or representative of who I am or what I care about.
It's a strange and probably uncommon situation to be in: to know that the actions of others, the actions of a killer, of poorly trained police and prosecutors, have shaped my life in ways that make my own actions seemingly irrelevant.