Welcome to Nashville folks @SBCExecComm I’m here, on my own dime, to see how well you care for the abused
I don’t want heads to roll, I just want the things of Jesus to be mirrored to the world through His people
I’m tired of the duplicity &the lies It’s time to act #ImHere 🧵
I met many of you tonight &truly I’m honored to shake your hands 2meet I because I want to look u in the eye & remind you whom you serve
Our creator
Our Father sent His son to die a painful death on our behalf & I’m not going to sit quietly by as you make mincemeat of His gift 🧵
We are the church
His people
I am no less than you
I am no more than you
But I matter, my survivor brothers & sisters matter
I say we matter more b/c we’ve been martyred in our faith-BUT He says we are equal in His eyes
I want you to do what is right, just, Holy, before Him 🧵
You seek power&prestige
We seek humility&repentance
Which of us represent what Jesus taught?
I’d take my painful education & loss that takes me 2 His base= love&humility over ur power&platform any day
I know there’s good but we have 2 rid the bad
Let’s make church safe shall we
There were so many things bothersome about these last two days. My emotions are switching between anger and sorrow. Waking during the night feeling like I wish I could wash it off, the icky feeling of watching some of these people at work. The lies that drip from tongues…🧵
The many layers of deception, of manipulations, of behind the scenes meetings & coming out with motions new atty’s (already hired) to push to votes on EC members sitting there like deer in headlights Some just go along & “trust” others thank the Lord show discernment & question🧵
And when questioned they are talked to as if children, the passive aggressive responses turn my stomach. The “this is best” responses. The “if we don’t have trust among us” line used over & over. YET when the messengers give a directive, suddenly the same guys are but wait we..🧵
Having had conversations about the members of this task force & lengths taken to choose them, for the first time in many years I feel some hope. It’s devastating that this road is going to be fought so hard, this time will be fought like nothing you’ve seen before. Why?
Because the enemy has a stronghold here - sexual abuse & cover up have been thriving b/c the enemy comes to seek, kill & destroy. He’s prospered here. We must cast out darkness, by shining light. As painful as it may be to learn what you’ll learn, we must look & see, then protect
We must have experts that can guide, that know the games, the way church structures operate, of power & favors. People who understand trauma, esp sexual & spiritual. We need people who aren’t carrying agendas separate from truth.
Let the light shine
Thank you @EdLitton
When I went forward in 1991 to tell my Pastor about my abuser, my Mother was with me. When we left that office, my Mother was no longer 'with' me, she bought into the narrative that we needed to protect the church. We were told to be silent, silence became my world,pretend(thread
Not because I wasn't coming unglued inside & needed help, not b/c I was ok, I was a teen who didn't understand what just happened & what it meant in my identity. I was suddenly wary of everything. I was physically sick, lost so much weight, couldn't eat, shriveling w/ a smile(2)
With a smile b/c no one was to know what happened & I was @ church constantly as a youth, I was panicking in public spaces but no one knew b/c I hid it, I felt I didn't fit in anywhere now & pulled from friends, isolating my world. Parents never talked about it again as we all(3)
Thread: Before I release some correspondence between myself & others in regards to the committee & following #CaringWell I want to point out that some were acting on the only available action/directive they could, I do feel few were doing more behind the scenes & faced such+
opposition due to road blocks by higher authority & mass bullying (as said in Moore's letter) and I heard about that long before that was released, I'd posted many times about the "red tape" "roadblocks" because I knew that the opposition was fierce. Why? Because people like +
RonnieFloyd, Augie Boto, Paige Patterson etc.etc. do not want the lid of sexual abuse stories opened up for questions of handling because it would overthrow/disrupt their power structure. Please note this is why I say we need to tear it down to its roots, new leadership overhaul+
When I spoke w/@R_Denhollander, @pbethancourt, @ToddUnzicker, @JaredcWellman etc re. next steps &(hopefully) educating comm. members, the most disheartening thing to learn was of the roadblocks & lack of ability to get past certain members (Stone/Boto etc) it would be pointless
@R_Denhollander had been working to direct steps, advise, communicate on our behalf, @SusanCodone had been trying as well. @R_Denhollander walked through it with me to help protect my interests & heart. She told them that whatever I asked (of them)should be done & at my pace
I felt so apprehensive, I knew the cost, I knew how these like Stone & Patterson ilk operated & that I, like @jenlyell, could be shredded & left by the roadside emotionally & personally. These men play dirty b/c out of the heart it flows. They think we caused this & 2 blame