#DEHEMRollCall
Hi, I’m Tara. I’m a multiply disabled social psychologist currently on (extremely extended) unpaid medical leave from my Banting postdoc at UBC.

My life lately has been dominated by the consequences of having severe, refractory relapsing polychondritis (RP).

🧵 Photo from September 2020 o...
Relapsing polychondritis (RP) is an extremely rare autoimmune (& potentially also autoinflammatory) disease that attacks cartilage & cartilage-like tissue throughout the body. I had symptoms for decades but was only diagnosed in 2020.
My RP has caused tracheobronchomalacia (TBM).
What TBM means for me is that my lower trachea and mainstem + subsegmental bronchi collapse when breathing out. My collapse is at 100%, and I now require positive pressure ventilation nearly 24/7. So that means using a BiPAP or ventilator throughout the day & night. Graphic of two diagrams/ill...
The airway collapse can cause my oxygen saturation (% SpO2) to plummet dramatically and unpredictably.

Additionally my RP attacks anything cartilage & cartilage-like, which causes widespread inflammation, as well as circulatory + neurological issues.
The consequent brain fog & other impacts of my autoimmune diseases on my executive function have been particularly damaging to my academic career.

But because I've retained other high-level abilities + skills it can be impossible to get some people to see/understand this.
One particularly annoying thing is that all of these symptoms respond beautifully to high-dose steroids (like prednisone). On higher doses of pred I feel like I have my brain back. I can also breathe better and walk without pain.

But long-term steroids absolutely wreck you.
Before my health got so much worse I was on-track to be reasonably competitive for an academic job. Now… I’m probably 95% of the way forced out of academia, but I can’t bring myself to let go after everything I’ve sacrificed & invested to get to this point.
My health started to seriously decline toward the end of my PhD (~2016), & that downward trajectory accelerated during my postdoc. I was on partial medical leave throughout 2020 and have been on full-time medical leave for most of 2021. See my pinned 🧵:
The extra crappy thing is that I still *love* my research and I would love to keep doing it. I also find deep joy in training students in research. I just unfortunately have very few good days lately and need more time to heal & find autoimmune treatments that work.
As a social psychologist I broadly study stereotyping & prejudice. A lot of this work has focused on both the antecedents and consequences of social identity safety at work, particularly in STEM fields. You can see some of my published work here: scholar.google.com/citations?user…
It is something perhaps adjacent to irony that I have not (yet) extended my research to disability—particularly given my own experiences of discrimination & ableism in the academy—but that is something I hope to remedy if I can return to & remain in academia. [So many ideas!]
Although I managed to try to keep contributing to some projects I was co-author on during my medical leave, others are stalled/paused at various points in the pipeline. The publication gap associated w/my health worsening starting in 2016 is unfortunately quite apparent on my CV.
If academia were more accepting of & understanding of disability and the profound consequences of severe chronic illness, I might be able to see a way back from all this. But—outside of the #AcademicTwitter & #DEHEM communities—my experiences have not been great.
My predominant experience has been of (some) people interpreting my disability-imposed limitations as moral failings, given their seeming incongruency with what skills/abilities I've retained. And treating requests for reasonable disability accommodations as me being difficult.
Anyway, that is my intro 🧵— I guess both for #DEHEM21 / the #DEHEMRollCall as well as a warning to recent new followers ;). My twitter these days is a mix of medical/health updates/venting, disability-related content, thoughts on academia, random musings, and a bit of research.

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4 Oct
Facebook has done a lot of evil.

But it is the primary way a lot of rare disease patients communicate with each other (true for my two truly rare conditions).

I have a couple people’s email addresses/Twitter accounts, but it would really suck to lose those communities.
Not to mention the tremendous amounts of labor some people in our communities have put into educational resources, article sharing (not everyone can easily find academic articles!), healthcare provider lists, etc.

Even if we rebuild elsewhere, it is a lot of work.
Fb was also my first connection to the local disability community (through a local queer spoonshare group), which has been lite-changing. Although I’m grateful to now know some other people through Twitter and IRL, this isn’t something easily replaced.
Read 4 tweets
4 Oct
Thought I was maintaining my SpO2 well enough to spend a little time off BiPAP but apparently nope.

Was wondering why I felt dizzy & awful so checked my oximeter and was satting *just* above the alarm threshold. So much for my to-do list.
Got to hang out in a zero gravity position with my lovely little breathing machine until I can human a bit better.
To be fair, I was late taking my AM meds. I’ll try to human again once the prednisone has had more time to work.
Read 5 tweets
4 Oct
Hey psych of religion and persuasion/social influence researchers of #AcademicTwitter & #PsychTwitter! Can you recommend some (good, evidence-based) further readings for a motivated community college student?

Topic/questions here & in next QT:
Additional topic foci (and one more below in thread):
Oh, and why I asked for “psych of religion” folks!
Read 4 tweets
27 Jun
@DisInGradSchool I’m going to respond as a postdoc and say that I’ve witnessed this go multiple ways.

I have (as an instructor) reached out privately to a few undergrad students in my classes. The overwhelming response was gratitude someone cared… [Large R1.]
@DisInGradSchool In one instance, I called the counseling center (on my cell phone, with the student sitting with me, with their full consent/at their request) and said they needed to be seen. The counseling center was notorious for extremely long wait times and my call bumped them up the queue.
@DisInGradSchool That said, as a *trainee,* I have witnessed faculty members blame students’ responses to actual structural issues/inequity/mistreatment on trainees’ mental health. And this just makes me sick and furious.
Read 7 tweets
27 Jun
You are all amazing.

In 24 hours, my GoFundMe is over 1/3 of the way to its goal. (Slightly further even than it shows, due to s handful of donations via PayPal and Ko-fi. I need to figure out how to update it to reflect this progress.)
I’m… speechless. I haven’t been able to keep up with my notifications. Or respond to the lovely messages of support.

It has been very easy to feel hopeless lately, with how sick I’ve been, but you all give me hope.
I’ve tried to at least skim the replies, messages, and QTs, and there are a few thing I want to highlight.

The thread apparently struck a chord. Academic precarity/contingency has a lot of negative & far-reaching consequences.
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26 Jun
My academic TL is *thrilled to announce* that they are starting amazing new positions, winning awards, publishing papers, presenting at conferences...

In applying for disability I’m realizing just how badly my attempted career in academia has screwed me over.

#DisabledinSTEM 🧵
I’ve been absent on Twitter (& DMs & email) lately because all of my energy has just been going to trying to survive.

But it is absolutely incredible just how badly the nature of grad & precarious academic contracts harm disabled and chronically ill academics
I did my PhD at @UMassAmherst. The Commonwealth of MA does not pay into Social Security for its employees. But because I left and did not become disabled *to the point of needing to completely work* while I was there, I have no disability coverage from MA. And no SSDI credits.
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