Thread by @tribunaltweets

We are back.
RD: just want to look briefly at the issue of 'insight'. You've said your insight was partial in 2018/2019
AH: yes
RD: when do you think your insight has begun to develop
AH: to a significant degree in the last 6 months

AH: My org is fantastic org and had some xonvis with senior members an dlooked at why I conducted myself in a certain way. Looked at triggers in situs and why that was a maladaptive way of viewing the situation. Only ever wanted to do the right thing

AH: it was maladaptive and it was wrong and I was point scoring and gaming idea. It felt joyous scoring these points.the likes, the retweets, I was given awards for it. It made me feel a rush of adrenalin and dopamine. I thought I was doing the right thing. I realise now

Having done that work ...(getting upset) sorry...I've learnt since then and I understand it all in such a different way and that's only started to hit home in last 6 months.

This whole things been going on for 3 and half years and I've reflected back on the responses I made and my insight was well behind and the significance of what I was doing was just not there. Its become much more crystal clear in last 6 months

These screenshots are such a source of embarrassment to me...its embarrassing and an immense source of regret. It's only recently I've started having regular meetings with supervisors that things ha e come into sharper focus. I've made considerable steps to stop the conduct

I know stopping wasn't enough, deleting my account and I know...sorry...I've gone beyond the realms of the question.

RD: stage 2 bundle, two pages, look at page 2. Another tweet here seems to be in response to a doctor and says 'guess the feds have caught me'...(tweet about reflection and personal growth)
We can see the words and the emoji

RD: to place this on the time line, you sent this response in September 2020. You're speaking flippantly and your using words now in your statements
AH: yes
RD: do you think your tweets shows contempt for the process
AH: wouldn't say contempt but I'd say arrogance

AH: I deleted my twitter a few days later. Can't think of better word but not contempt. I think it's important to conceptualise this tweet. This is a response made to a much more junior colleague who'd spoken in jovial and light hearted terms about his own problems.

AH: certainly from an optics point of view and it demonstrates my incomplete insight at the time.
RD: you say junior how many more years junior?
AH: I don't know this person but they say they're a first year.

When I was writing these tweets I was a fully qualified GP in my first year. I'd say he was 6 years my junior.
RD: want to deal with one final matter in to insight.

RD: in your first statement. Page 4 para 12, refs modules completed online in relation to various matters. You produced certificates and haven't reflected any learning or certificates in regards to those.

AH: no not as such, not a specific reflective statement but of course these course have had an influence

RD: would you say your insight has only been developed partially?
AH: I wouldn't say that. (Too fast) I suffer from low self esteem and body image

Personal growth is not a single event, you don't arrive at personal growth, I believe my insights regarding these events in relation to last couple days and SM activity over last 3.5 years. I've been through an immensely stressful and challenging period of time. I'm approaching

...the end and I feel I've done whatever necessary for my professional and personal development. As much a speeds to be developed in relation to these events, I feel I've got there. I understand why I'm sat answering questions and those lessons have been learnt

All I can do is make my solid assurances that I've learnt some unforgettable lessons from these events and these events will never rear their ugly head again or happen again. I'm not saying it's implausible the situ would never arise again...

RD has no further questions
GP: just that last point about reflection where you are now. You told us around the time of the tweets in the bundle, September 2020, that you deleted your twitter account. Why did you do that?

AH: these tweets are only a glimpse of the extent of the abuse coming from the other side. It got to a point the level of abuse and harassment, both online and IRL, became unsustainable. Benefit of my own mental well being j can't continue to engage

...in this profound toxicity...even if meant I was trying to make steps to be jovial, educational, lighthearted...it was always met with a barrage of abuse. Got to a point i can no longer achieve any of the goals I set out. I needed to redirect and efforts elsewhere

My focus on what is important and effective has changed dramatically since then as I say in my statement. The nature of the work I do has changed, am able to directly deal with people in the trans community. As a real life doctor.

That is so much effective in bringing about positive change.
What happens kn twitter has little relation to the outside world. The community I work with now brings about real effective change.

GP: going to turn back to May 2018 with Doctor Kumar. Can you zee the date 9th May?
AH: yes
GP: your reply is the same date
AH: yes
GP: thats your tweet and not the others there

GP: tirn to page 1 which is professor Kumars statement and read it to yourself. To yourself.
AH: yes
GP: we can see you asked about GMC, what's your recollection what the letter said?
AH: yes. I recall the letter said the tweets had been looked at and hadn't meant threshold

...for further investigation.
GP: turn to 115 and its a bote of meeting between Doctor Cooper. Was that your understanding of what the position was?
AH: I understood it was a low level issue that needing go any further

GP: you were asked about perso B and the gold. Do you remember that and you felt your references were a joke? Can you turn to page ~ I appreciate this is dealing with E. Please look at final sentence please.
At that time how did you view the golfing position?

AH: A genuine reflection of my thoughts at time
GP summarises there's a public record that B wrote a response (can't hear)
By reference to that, can you say with any degree of conviction when you came into contact with b
AH: To best of recollection about that time

GP: this is an exchange between C and D, then you put s quote in relation to D. 'Why aren't using the word legitimate and you explained' Can you turn to page 335, is that your tweet.
AH: yes
GP: we can see that
Chairman clarifies it was to E

GP takes AH through certain numbered tweets and asks to clarify on use of term 'any means necessary'. (I didn't understand the answer)
Ten minute break to see if any more questions for AH.