Yall keep asking ME why I'm NOT spending #xmas with my father, I WASN'T INVITED.
I don't believe in going places where I'm NOT invited, celebrated, embraced, empowered,or appreciated.
So,yeah. there ya go. Yall could practice NOT being in spaces that dont want yall there too.
Stop FORCING yallself in folks life then being MAD cause they not responding or reacting positively. #ThinkAboutIt:
The more time you spend with people who don't fuck with you, the more time you miss out on spending time with people who DO fuck with you.
Oh and for the folks who said "spend the holiday with your mother (and "reconcile"🙄)", bro we AIN'T spoke since my Grandmother's Funeral in 2016.
Shordy NOT tryna fa-la-la-la-la with ME.🎅🏿
And I'm NOT knowingly expecting for her to be someone she has NEVER been, TF. 🤷🏿♀️
Let's NORMALIZE allowing people to be themselves and operating accordingly.
Let's DECIDE to have a level #SelfLOVE that doesn't allow self-betrayal, violation of healthy boundaries, or self deception.
Let's DISCONNECT and DISENGAGE from everything/one that harms / hurts you.😈
I just turned off #airplanemode so that I could text my granny so that we keep our routine and she don't pop up over here BUT truthfully her son [the artist formerly known dad] had me in my feelings last night.
I'm grateful that I handled it "well" but damn. #carreconfession
I really be tryna be chill but tbh my parents... they are something else.
I be tryna stay out the way& still get hit w/ emotional nonsense.
I just am not interested.
Yall ever came to the conclusion that ur parents don't FW you based on their actions? Ever happened twice?!
One of my parents be cyber stalking me BUT has not talked me in 6 years... like, why so obsessed with me?
My other parent, it's a lot... so you want to be in contact with me but only when it's convenient to you and your new family and saving face w/others?
Buddy Ass said, "why you tryna come over on a week day; you usually come over on the weekend... why you tryna change up?" as he taking some girl out to dinner while telling his gf he at home.
🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩
*they been together 5 years
*his gf just hauled off on the side chick
When you want your dude but yo dude don't want you...
😬😬😬
I relate differently because my life experiences have created a necessity for GENUINE reciprocity, consistency, respect, kindness, care, effort, and transparency.
I will NEVER be afraid to walk from anyone OR anything that requires me betray myself to be connected them.
I allowed myself to be in relationships (romantic, platonic, familial, business, etc.) where my value or impact was not considered; my wellbeing was compromised; and I was made to feel like I was hard to love.
Yall ever experienced #heartbreak and then was like, " i WILL neVEr lEt AnyONe bREaK MY hEArT aGAin"...
Then life hits you with "HOLD MY FUCKING BEER..."
I must've never LOVED, been loved, or felt so connected to another human being like this... EVER.
This is the part where Im supposed to say:
"Men are dogs."
"ALL men are this or that."
"I AM NEVER OPENING UP AGAIN."
"FBGM!!!"
"I CAN'T TRUST ANOTHER MAN AS LONG AS HE HAS A PULSE."
I been back home, like in #GaryIndiana, for like 8 calendars and people STILL think I'm gone.
I guess I stay out the way too good.
I mind my business too well.
I stay in my lane too good.
I focus on my focus too well.
I only prioritize my priorities.
All that other SHIT is beyond me.
It's MY energy + I aint wasting on shit that AINT productive, inspiring, or meaningful.