Still investigating what it means to be semi-speaking and why it is that way.
A little thread. #ActuallyAutistic
A little thread. #ActuallyAutistic
It's not being able to produce enough words to satisfy allistic standards.
It's not being able to put a sentence together internally and speak it in time.
It's not being able to pass the internal quality filter.
It's being blank despite the pressure or necessity to speak.
It's not being able to put a sentence together internally and speak it in time.
It's not being able to pass the internal quality filter.
It's being blank despite the pressure or necessity to speak.
It's only being able to contribute an interjection or answer yes/no questions.
It's knowing what the person wants to hear but not being able to summon it.
It's being too busy processing other things, other "channels", being unable to taskswitch in time.
It's knowing what the person wants to hear but not being able to summon it.
It's being too busy processing other things, other "channels", being unable to taskswitch in time.
It's being mislabeled "shy" my whole life, even though it was more than that.
It's being curled up in the corner at every family gathering, not saying a thing for hours on end.
It's every single teacher complaining in my report about the same thing -- never talking.
It's being curled up in the corner at every family gathering, not saying a thing for hours on end.
It's every single teacher complaining in my report about the same thing -- never talking.
It's every single teacher assuming that my quietness equated to a lack of understanding.
It's a total lack of friendships, or intermittent friendships, because friendship required speaking.
It's friendship exhaustion from having to perform speech to keep the friendship afloat.
It's a total lack of friendships, or intermittent friendships, because friendship required speaking.
It's friendship exhaustion from having to perform speech to keep the friendship afloat.
It's nobody knowing my opinions, nobody knowing my personality, nobody knowing anything about me, because that requires conversation.
It's being the awkward presence in the room.
It's kinder allistics asking for my input if I've been quiet for too long, hoping I'll join in.
It's being the awkward presence in the room.
It's kinder allistics asking for my input if I've been quiet for too long, hoping I'll join in.
It's people getting shocked if I swear or do something rebellious because they assume shy people are infantile.
It's failing my work experience week because I can't generate enough speech for a phone call or customer service.
It's failing my work experience week because I can't generate enough speech for a phone call or customer service.
It's the fear of being stranded somewhere or something unpredictable happening with no familiar helper nearby, because I can't initiate talk with strangers.
It's scripting important situations in advance because I can't rely on improvising.
It's scripting important situations in advance because I can't rely on improvising.
Once I gained the tech to communicate digitally (social media, texts, emails) it felt like I had sprouted wings.
Long albatross wings that could finally carry the weight and breadth of my thoughts.
#ActuallyAutistic
Long albatross wings that could finally carry the weight and breadth of my thoughts.
#ActuallyAutistic
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