Whenever I see in peoples bios, “15 yrs, 20 yrs in the game industry” or “grizzled ancient” and then I look at all the problems that still exist in the industry all I see is “Complicit Bystander”
I see incredible femme led organizations like Pixelles or Code Coven and I’m like, what the hell were all these men doing so many years but climbing ladders and pulling them up behind them?
It’s not some badge of honor that you’ve been here so long. The floorboards of the house are rotten and the roof is leaking and the foundation is cracked.
If I could go back in time I would’ve worded this original tweet differently.
It was never my intention to invalidate any of the hard fought progress that has been accomplished so far.
there’s a fine balance between “look how far we have come“ and “look how far we have to go”
I’m always trying to grow my skills of being precise in language enough to be impactful and not cause harm but still communicate clearly enough the problem that I wish to be addressed.
It’s easy from my position to be angry at people who have been in the industry for a long time and wonder why we are still dealing with so much misogyny, racism and pay inequity.
The solutions to me are so clear.
it feels easy for me to approach this from an angle of justice and ethics and expect for change to be lightning fast, because that is all it takes, it takes a few people in positions of power to make sweeping changes.
It takes just a few people who have those positions of power to actually give a damn about the safety and well-being of other humans, regardless of their background.
The learning point for me in this is to be better precise in my language so that people’s egos, fears and insecurities do not cloud their understanding of what I am trying to communicate.
I have thought about deleting the original tweet but ultimately I think it is more valuable for people to read into the context of how someone can better understand something that they had said in the past.
I think I take for granted the assumption that people will be more upset at the harm caused by such injustices as misogyny, sexism, racism and abuse of power than at the tone with which people call them out with.
I can have empathy for the people that will jump to defensiveness against broad callouts.
but just as much as the reply guys who say “not all men”, there is enough of a pattern that warrants attention and investigation.
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I can’t help but feel bad for the game developers that unfollow or mute me.
I have a lot to teach them about curiosity, compassion, emotional fortitude and contending with unjust power structures.
A 🧵 on power:
Whenever I choose to follow someone, and I follow a lot of people, it is because I am invested to some degree, larger small in their continued success.
if someone tweet some thing out of rage or despair, that is the last reason why I would ever unfollow them.
Seeing someone express rage or despair reads to me as a last resort of communication. If I have learned anything about my 300+ personal 1:1 conversations with game developers, it is that time is not linear, and we all have composite gifts to offer to each other.
What if for a moment you were given the opportunity to hold your dream position in #gamedev with your dream team, what would that look like?
What would you be building?
A 🧵 🪡 of what I would do:
I would hold a hybrid role of people operations and business development within a studio.
I would work with a team to design regular + frequent cadences of assessing team emotional health, needs for individual and collective growth, and chronicling lessons /defeats.
I would establish a coalition of like-minded studios and practices of trust so that we could all share technological innovation and not repeat each others mistakes.
Have you ever worked at a studio that had an actual code of ethics established internally?
I want to clarify that by code of ethics, I mean a set of policies that is adhered to by the organization and individuals and supported through policy.
NOT some feel good statement of who they hope to be.
Think “code of ethics” as part of a larger emotional intelligence coaching that is an actual part of the onboarding structure and serves as a check and balance to all business decisions such as consent, transparency (in pay among other things).
So I love how I mentioned to the Etsy seller that I was a trans woman and that I was excited to actually build my wardrobe and suddenly her Etsy shop has been taken down.