Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters.
Today is #TransDayOfVisibility and I have thought long and hard about what I need to say about it.
For those of you who do not wish to be visible and wish you could just fade in to the background, I support you.
When I announced to the world that I was Transgender, I looked to Twitter to find like minded folk and if it were not for their visibility and strength I believe I would have seriously struggled to accept myself.
For me, I am not openly visible for the Cis, not for the attention and definitely not for the glory. I am visible so that others may see me and find some commonality in life, so that others may see me and feel that it is possible to be themselves.
I know that it's hard for some, it is for me, in the current climate and some may feel that #TDOV will bring aggression from the usual suspects, it will be corporates patting each other on the back for the support they show today. It will be hit pieces in the tabloids!
I have to believe that this fight is worth it, that we are making the world better, inch by inch. I have to believe that allowing myself to truly be me is the best thing I could have ever done, I have to believe in our future.
We are tired, we are frustrated, we are angry and quite rightly so. We must focus that anger at the oppressors and not at each other, more than ever we need each other. We need to be visible, not for them but for us, we need to stand up and say 'I am here'
To stand in hope of a better future
To stand in love for each other
To stand in power over our own destiny
Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters.
The weather over the weekend was amazing! Had a lovely walk down by the river on Sunday. I have my angle poise tablet holder, and I can see how I managed without one!! I played Tiny Tina's Wonderland and laughed
We watched MI: 3 and we constructed an IKEA shoe cupboard.
Phew, I feel knackered just remembering all that...
I hope your weekend was filled with excitement and laughter, and I hope that this week brings you some peace in your life.
I hope the voices of doom keep quiet
I hope the challenges of today are not to demanding of your spoons.
Always remember that you are in someone's thoughts today. I think about many of the people I have lost and found, each and every day.
You matter, your feelings matter and you are valid.
Be fabulous, be amazing
Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters. Big day for me, a celebration! A time to reflect on the the journey I have undertaken, a moment to look at myself and appreciate just how far I have come. What is so special about today? I hear you ask...
Well...
Today is one of the landmark events in any Trans Persons life, today is a celebration of the day I started HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy).
4 years ago today, I placed the very first patch on my thigh. The nervous excitement of finally moving along the path to new adventures.
So much has happened since then, I didn't have a clue what life was about to throw at me. But I thought whatever it was I could handle it and I would make each day a celebration of renewed life.
I made new friends and lost others, discovered acceptance and found rejection.
Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters!
I look at the community I find myself a part of, and I see so many amazing people. I see folks trying to live their lives to the best of their ability, I see folks going above and beyond what is expected.
I see folks who radiate love, folks who always support their friends.
I feel honoured to be a part of a loving, caring community and I hope that I do my small part in belonging to that community.
I look out across the sea of faces that appear on my screen, and I see hope.
I see a community ready and willing to help, to reach out and lift others up. To build bridges and clear the way, so that those who follow will have an slightly easier route to follow.
I see you, I hear you and I am proud of you and I stand with you.
Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters.
Sometimes I find myself staring blankly at the screen, waiting for words to form themselves on the digital canvas before me. And today is one of those days...
But you're typing these words, I hear you say!
Well, yes I am.
Constructing this was not easy, it took many forms in my fingers, fired across empty spaces between synapses. Thrown around like aa bag of ping pong balls, until it finally took form on the screen. And even then, a garbled message appeared and was quickly deleted
Words don't come easy to me, I'm not the most logical of people. I tend to flit from idea to idea, and before anything tangible becomes reality, it's gone within the next moment. Then some days I turn around, and words have somehow fallen haphazardly onto the screen, with no idea
Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters. In this world of chaos, I am just a tiny part of a system. I am what most would consider, a nobody, insignificant in anything I may do or say. Nothing I do will change anything in this world, so why bother to try
When others attack, they are often quick to point out how insignificant I am, how that I will never amount to anything and because I am poor, not famous or work my self to the bone for likes and retweets. They use that to dismiss my opinions.
They claim that because person X has money, fame or clout, that their opinion is all that matters. That what they do is for the good of all, that they obviously know what's right because they have 'MADE' something of themselves.
Good Morning Sweetlings, Beautiful Monsters and Fabulous Disasters. I'm in the process of cleaning the kitchen and have had to take a break, for me staring at light coloured surfaces for too long induces a headache as my brain tries to work out what's dirt and what's floaters.
That's why I like to make my surroundings darker, it's more pleasing and soothing to me as the darker colours negate the constant floaters in my eyes.
Life here in the Scottish Borders in proceeding nicely, we feel settled here.
I hope today brings you some peace from the constant barrage of noise from the world around you, and you find a reason to smile.
Reach out and tell someone you love them today, make sure you thank the folks that work to make our lives easier. Be patient, be kind