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I'm about to put the pictures of the fire in the wetlands to bed (they were beginning to look alike). Starting tomorrow I am going to inflict cat photos on you. And some selfies.

But these are not what is making me unpopular tonight...
...I spoke up about people making an addict a hero. Look, I said, I resisted the peer pressure, the desire to alleviate boredom, self medication, etc. and I did not become an addict. Well they said "your high self confidence..."
-- my self confidence was never high and it is not high now. Every week my therapist and my wife tell me that I am not as bad as I think I am. People who know me well know that belief in myself is not my trademark. I have never...
...sought to obliterate my feelings or whatever it is addicts do. I experienced my #bipolardisorder head on. Do I call myself a hero? No. I just found the smarts to seek medical help. I hold myself responsible for not listening to...
...those who were seeing something wrong, especially my wife. The catastrophe that is my life is due to a lack of self insight and a disastrous, blinding chemistry in my brain. Early family life didn't help but there came a point when I had to take responsibility.
#photography #photograph #saltmarsh #wetlands #slough
Joel Sax shared a #photo with you from the #Flickr app! Check it out:
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#photograph #photography #wildfire #fire #smoke #smokeplume
Joel Sax shared a #photo with you from the #Flickr app! Check it out:
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If I ask my wife "Do you think I am a hero?" she knows it is a trick question. If she answers yes, she knows I will scold her because I see myself as filled with imperfections. Am I working towards the right ends?...
...is a better question. I don't know is my answer to that question. I am always looking around, finding both times when I did well and times when I fucked up. I fuck up because I get distracted from my own destiny.
Again, let me warn you that the cats are coming as well as some photos of my ugliness. The procession starts tomorrow.
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As promised, the cats arrived today along with a photo of me hiding my face. I have enough photos for maybe a week or two.

Sometimes I put up a blurry, out of focus photo because I like the composition. That is the case of one I took of Aphrodite.
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Fire is a given part of living in Southern California. If you live around the fringes of the metropolis, you've had one threaten or burn down your home at one time or another. In 2007, we had one come within three blocks of ours...
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My recent outdoor photos have been vibrant -- I've been finding unlikely greens despite this summer drought -- but the canvas of my soul has been drab and disorganized. The undulations of a #depression...
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