Implications of rule based bahaviors is that they become easy to identify them, note their shorter term and longer term implications; if so, then one gains knowledge to do the right thing and may even have motivation to do the right thing.
‘ I am able to get distracted again and again, and I have not seen anything bad happen as a consequence of that aimless browsing’ Liban’s rule based behavior with regard to browsing and not pursuing things important to him. Stressing consequences and immediate punishment helps.
When Liban finishes presentation, he enters another state where pleasure browsing is not tempting and awareness is present; the same applies when he meditates, does tai chi and takes a long walk or works on a project for a long time, and so on; he gets a glimpse of better state
He plans to do both of these. He also did not work on business plan; even though, he slept well, cleaned and organized his room, exercised, ate balanced diet and focused on chosen tasks without much distraction.
Liban presented irritability; he used rubber band to punish expression of irritability; when irritation increases, rationality decreases; ‘ I appreciated the principle of quantity’ he said, using the principle of ‘anything goes’
When Liban persues things for their own sake, he complains about ‘ not engaged in goal oriented activities’ yet he does not want to pursue goal oriented activities because it ‘does not feel good’; for this reason he does not want to work on politics and security of Somalia
Liban woke up feeling well, and he does not know why. He decided to keep food log; to see why he wakes up some days without headache and other days with headache.
Liban presented negative feeling around his chest as he talked about a sister of his father whom he has never met suffering from illness and lacking proper care. Her kids appear to be well off but not taking care of her. She is languishing in the rural areas of Somalia
Liban talked to some of his relatives and feels better now and more work needs to be done. Liban reported that he ‘ does not have time to explore the psyche’ and reported that he gets ‘ anxious’ as he thinks about such exploration.
0520-0630
During this period, Liban started editing yesterday’s work. He wants to make this a routine, editing yesterday’s work. He also desires to journal about security and politics, also edit the work next day, thereby building materials to be edited twice before publishing.
Liban exercised and edited materials during this period. He will start preparations for the day and present short religious presentation in multiple languages, also to be edited next day before passing two more editing for final publications.
Liban’s mood is not great m, titling towards morose. He wants to be thriving again, and he not doing that yesterday, suggesting lying back on bed for a longer period is not conducive to thriving. He wants to thrive, so be it. He will do tai chi, prayers and meditations
Liban woke up and spent 25 minutes listening to comedy and re-listening to his old podcasts. He did not desire to do this: he did not stop it . He learned, to re-listen to them & write shorter notes about them. Failure to focus though is a challenge that he will deal with today.
Liban spent the next 6:30-9:30 am, three hours, preparing himself for the day, preparing presentations and delivering it. The presentation took about 2 hours. There was a period where he was lost. During his presentation, he was emotional, getting close to crying.
1048,Liban is lying down while working on computer on a desk for bed; Liban was getting sleepy due to his association with the bed and sleep. He took 17 minutes of nap; he still wants more. He will not do it. He will compete 25 minutes of work remaining from 52 minutes of work.
Liban has not been taking breaks. Liban dreamed last night of visiting his hometown, Mogadishu; the city did not know each other, some parts developed and others are in Stone Age. He was arrested by Ethiopian officer close to Villa Somalia, after he was walking around the area.
He called people for help, calling the name of his clan; non came; people minded their business. Liban asked the officer why he arrested him and he simply suggested that he has the power to do so. After long argument, the officer decided to leave Liban alone. Liban left.
0839, Liban feels changed by optimal breathing method that he had been using; he plans to use it more; he slept 8 hours, exercised on time and feels great. It seems finally he has managed to form productive routines and maintain them.
Slept around 11p, woke up at 6:30a, about 7 hours. 0630-0700, editing yesterday work and getting breakfast.
Liban did some three sessions, followed by 4 hours of family meetings and problem solving, followed by another hour of preparations for grocery shopping and even more talks to some other family members.
622, Liban worked yesterday between 6a-1p, about seven hours, followed by another 3 hours, 7:30p-10:30p, worked about ten hours. He does not remember what he did most of the times. He will start today reporting again, paying $10, if he fails to report every 69 minutes.
1000, Liban woke up 7am today, does not remember when he slept, may be sometime around 10:30pm, sleeping about 8 hours; he delivered small presentation ; he will start now his first 52 minutes of work.
1105, Liban worked 52+ minutes focused; he had headache, even though subsiding, reason unknown. He will study this, it may be due to allergies; he will take break and start another 52 minutes of work. Since yesterday, he was focusing in the 52 minutes without distractions
1217, Liban learned that he does a better work when he is fully rested. He has finished the second session, focusing mainly on work related tasks.