Thread by @art_in_distress

LRT (mild angst) but what about #bkdk in a relationship. Deku is always telling Katsuki he loves him, and the blond never says it back. It’s not that he doesn’t love Deku, it’s just, he’s always had a hard time saying what he feels. And he knows that Deku knows he loves-

-him, but, sometimes he’s not so sure.

He rethinks never telling his boyfriend how he feels when he sees Deku meeting up with Uraraka. They had been shopping and ran into Uraraka on patrol, so of course his nerd boyfriend wanted to treat her to lunch.

“Please, Ochan, let me treat you to lunch!” he insisted. “Whatever you want! My treat!”

“Ah, Deku-kun, you’re the best!” the tired hero smiled at him. “I love you!”

Katsuki wasn’t about to dwell on her words, but the way Deku squeaked, dropping his wallet as his entire-

-face turned pink, it gave him pause. Katsuki watched as his boyfriend looked at their colleague with wide eyes, his mouth opening and closing in surprise.

“Y-you l-l-love m-me?” he asked, covering his mouth with his hands.

“Huh? Well, yeah, of course, Deku-kun,” Uraraka-

-giggled, “you know I love you! I love all my friends!”

“W-well y-yes, i-it’s j-j-jus-st,” he stammered, placing both hands on his cheeks as he looked down, a wobbly smile spreading across his face. “I-it’s one th-thing to know it, a-and another t-to hear it,” he giggled.

Katsuki hadn’t ever seen him react like that... all from being told that he was loved?

“Geez Deku-kun,” Uraraka laughed, playfully elbowing him in the side, “you can be so dramatic! Hah, I can only imagine how you react when /Bakugou-kun/ tells you he loves you!”

Her words made him freeze up as his mind began to race. When, when was the last time he’d told Deku he loved him? Had he ever? He must have, at least once, surely... right?

“W-well,” Deku stammered, fidgeting nervously.

“Oh, right, of course not,” Uraraka added, sending-

-icy cold fear down Katsuki’s spine. Had Deku told Uraraka he never said ‘I love you?’ Did she— “I bet Bakugou-kun says it so much that you’re used to it!”

“Ah, mm,” Deku nodded, a shy, nervous little smile on his face. “A-anyways! Y-you must be hungry! L-let’s get you some-

-food, b-before your break is over!”

“Mm! Sounds good! Thanks again for the food,” she bowed her head to them before following Deku into a nearby restaurant. He blinked after them, his mind still racing with thoughts.“Coming, Bakugou-kun?”

“Tch, shaddup, I’m coming,” he said.

After that encounter, Katsuki couldn’t stop thinking about what she said.

‘I love you!’

He knew she didn’t mean it as anything more than friends, he wasn’t worried about her taking Deku from him or anything like that... he had just never seen his boyfriend look so damn happy.

Deku was always one to easily say his feelings, always quick to cry, always quick to show joy, always easily able to show affection. And he said he /knew/ that Uraraka loved him, but that hearing it was another thing. It clearly made him happy...

Did Deku want Katsuki to say he loved him more? Or, at all? He never seemed to react when he said ‘I love you’ but Katsuki never said anything back... maybe because he was too wrapped up in his own head to notice. Maybe Deku got depressed whenever Katsuki never-

-said “I love you, too.” He didn’t know, because he was too busy trying not to show how happy he was when he heard Deku say he loved him... fuck...

He knew that he had a hard time expressing his feelings, unless it was anger, frustration, or disgust...

Did Deku know he loved him? Did he /really/ know?

Deku didn’t like to share when he was upset if he knew it would upset others. Complaining about a rainy day was one thing, complaining about your partner was another... was Katsuki a bad boyfriend?

No, he was a great boyfriend (his pride wouldn’t allow for anything else... plus, Deku deserved the best...) but, surely Deku was unsatisfied with him, right? What kind of partner couldn’t say “I love you” after three years of dating and a life time of knowing each other?

He had to say it... he had to, and he tried so hard. He tried so many times to tell Deku he loved him. When he saw him shuffle out of their bedroom, his hair all messed up and his eyes still closed, he tried to force the words out. But they wouldn’t come. He just called him a-

-mess and barked at him to sit his ass down and eat breakfast.

He tried to say it when they left to go on patrol, admiring how good he looked in his uniform, but just scoffed and told the idiot to not die.

He tried to say it when they were getting groceries, because a-

-group of small children had found them and were excited to see their hero in the flesh, and he looked so damn cute with them.. but he just told the brats to scram and dragged his boyfriend off.. why was this so fucking hard!?

He ended up blurting it out one night when they were watching movies in bed. It was an old All Might movie, and Deku was rambling off all the trivia he knew (even though Katsuki knew all of it by heart) He was also snuggled up in one of Katsuki’s pro hero merch, looking-

-so small and snuggly in the big, baggy clothing. His hair was pulled back into a small ponytail because the dumbass kept forgetting to get it cut, and had to keep pushing his bangs back as he scrolled through his phone, prattling on about some news he heard about one of-

-their classmates, giggling occasionally as he scrolled through the comments. He wasn’t even listening to what the dummy was saying, too focused on how cute he looked with a big smile, his face illuminated by the fairy lights he had insisted on hanging up (it had been in-

-exchange for Katsuki insisting there be no All Might posters in their bedroom) and the blond felt so, at peace.

“What do you think, Kacchan?” he had asked, turning to him with that goddamn smile he loved.

“I love you.”

The reaction was immediate. Deku’s eyes went wide, and his phone fell from his hand as his jaw hung open in shock. Fuck, even his body was shaking and his eyes were filling with tears, and then he started sobbing. Katsuki felt himself panic as Deku dissolved into-

-full on bawling, using his sleeve covered hands to hide his face as Katsuki’s panic increased.

“D-damn nerd, what’re you crying for?” he asked, placing his hands on his boyfriend’s shoulder and pulling him close, rocking him back and forth as the smaller male sobbed.

Katsuki was panicking, but he felt a little better when Deku threw his arms around his neck and hid his face against him, tightly holding him as he continued to weep.

“Christ Deku, always with the waterworks,” he huffed as he played with the hairs at the base of his neck.

“I-I’m s-sorry,” he choked out, his voice muffled against Katsuki’s neck. “I-it’s just, y-you’ve never s-sa-said that t-to me before,” he sobbed, making Katsuki’s heart clench painfully.

“I’m sorry, Deku,” he apologized quietly as he pressed a kiss to the side of his head.

“I-I’m so ha-h-happy,” he said, making Katsuki’s eyes sting slightly. “I’m s-so happy, K-Kacchan.”

“I’m sorry I never said it sooner,” he whispered. “It’s not that I don’t l-love you, it’s just, it’s hard... admitting that...”

“I know, Kacchan,” Deku sniffed, making-

-Katsuki pause. “I know that it’s hard for you, a-and I never doubted how you felt. But, I still want to hear it.”

“I’m gonna try harder,” he promised him. “I’m gonna try harder for you, to make you happy.”

“You already make me happy,” Deku giggled wetly.

“I know, but, I want to do this,” he said. “I mean, what kind of man would I be if I can’t even tell my partner I love him?”

“I‘ll still love you no matter how much you say it back,” Deku promised him, pulling back to give Katsuki a smile. Katsuki scoffed as he brushed-

-away some of his lingering tears, making the greenette giggle and lean into his touch. “I love you, Kacchan.”

“Yeah, I love you too, Deku.”

After that, Katsuki began to say I love you more. Granted, it wasn’t nearly as often as Deku said it, the nerd was very liberal with his love, but he said it more often. His reactions were still comical, he’d turn bright red and began to stutter like crazy, it was adorable.

The media seemed to enjoy it too. Katsuki never said “I love you” within earshot of anyone else, but he did like to make sure Izuku’s reactions were visible to other people. The media went crazy, speculating about what Ground Zero was saying to his partner to make him react-

-like that. They’d never tell, of course, Katsuki would never share his love with anyone but Deku.

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