I was heartbroken, depressed and feeling entirely hopeless.
Was borrowing $$$ to be able to pay rent well into March + this was deeply triggering in itself as I’ve survived through repeat housing insecurity from the day I was born and my mom slept on the street.
Fast forward to July 2021, I’ve got a full time job in the game industry making more money than I’ve ever had, full benefits, perma remote, am involved in multiple exciting projects around the game industry and will be moving back home to Brooklyn NYC.
This is hot on the heels of 8 years of minimum wage jobs in seattle, constant daily micro aggressions and a general feeling of lack of direction and focus in life.
Life feels insurmountable until one day it doesn’t and you look back with gratitude at your stubbornness in persisting despite numerous systemic walls and challenges demanding you quit and that your worth as person is lower than another’s.
This isn’t a clear cut Cinderella story but god damn, I’ll take it. I’ll take this slice of happiness and success and help as many as I can to get there too. That ladder is staying where it is.
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So I love how I mentioned to the Etsy seller that I was a trans woman and that I was excited to actually build my wardrobe and suddenly her Etsy shop has been taken down.
- Carve out an hour out of each month for mentorship in your field for marginalized people of color, gender and women who you already know or through platforms like these:
Empathy is a highly technical skill using expert levels of situational awareness, non verbal communication +cross cultural knowledge taking into account inequities based on intersections of marginalization of gender, sex, queerness, race, Socio-economic background to name a few.
Remember it is absolutely ok and necessary to unplug.
This news can retraumatize and you can absolutely step away and take care of your immediate needs.
We won’t let this news die down. I won’t at least.
Please care for yourself and if you need emotional support please DM.
If I can listen, make space, witness or just talk about anything else with you I’m 100% here and available. Bandwidth might be tight as I’m in the middle of prepping for a cross country move to NYC but I can make time.
DMs are open.
This industry IS changing. There are more women owned studios than ever before.
I as a public hyper visible pre-HRT trans woman of color got her first game industry job just this April 2021 which was full time, salaried with stock options and wasn’t lowballed.
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I can't adequately describe how terrifying it is to tweet that as someone who's just moved, been out of work for months, left an abusive relationship and in general has just lived a live on the margins of actual economic survival.
To all my Trans family, I'm sorry it took me this long. To every man that's ever joked about queerness with a hint of violence, I remember you.