that time a mob gang raped a concubine to death and her owner dismembered her body and sent it to the rest of the tribes to incite revenge and then they did a genocide
it turns out running in the surf makes me obscenely happy. even just 25 minutes / 1.5 miles! i am happy i get to be alive and do these things, happy for a mile i couldn't run a few months ago.
sorry i know this is gross but i havent felt this happy in about two years
it is so stupid and annoying that exercise works wonders for your mood but IT DOES
1. @briebriejoy did not say this would be a convo about deradicalization; I wouldnt have agreed to it 2. I asked to change the subject many times!! 3. I also asked her not to publish it 4. Fuck you for saying my anger at Nazis that have targeted my family is performative
I am beyond furious at this disingenuous presentation, these glib clips, and frankly, a facetious, ill-informed and damaging Trojan horse of an interview. I deeply regret doing it, not bc I'm ashamed of what I said, but because it was premised on false comity and lies.
i broke. i smoked. what a horrible embarrassment this has been. and a waste of time and energy. i am so ashamed. if i ever try this again instead of just dying of emphysema im damn sure keeping it off twitter. 😭
I am so sad. It feels good and I am so sad.
On the plus side now I know two things:
Anticipate at least 8 days of feeling the worst you have felt in your life. Probably weeks or months of abyssal despair. I look forward to Horrible Day 9.
Also, going from 0 exercise to running ~10 mi a week was so easy compared to this.