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Carr.elevated✨️

@CeeJayLove88

Jun 7, 2022 • 6 tweets • 5 min read • Read on X

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I #showered today, went to my eye appointment, and intended to go work at a coffee shop.

My #Depression: *zaps me of all energy no matter how hopeful we were for the day.*

My #Anxiety: I mean what if you go the coffee shop and someone steals your computer or hit your car?

Me takes phone off of #airplanemode to call my insurance company--waits on hold for 45+ minutes... no biggie.

Personal call comes through, I pick up and I REMEMBER
why my phone been on #airplanemode for days.

Humans can be exhausting+ I'm already exhausted. Not the best combo.

Me returns home.

Me:* feels defeated; guilty; exhausted; invalidated; but still NOT giving up.*

Me: *puts phone back on #airplanemode for safety*

Me: *continues be gentle with myself;drinks water; and remind myself that I am important, valuable, worthy, lovable,and enough.*

Don't look for me...
I don't want to be found by others, right now...
I only wanna be found by my higher self because she's the only one who will be there frfr.
I got me. I been had me.
I am willing to accept where I am because I know better is coming.

#xocarre

Also,PLEASE refrain from telling me any version of the following:

YOu'rE STroNG.

yOU GOt THis.

YoUr TRauMa / EXPERIENCES / MH iS VaLID but ONLY to the degree it makes other people comfortable.

Let's actually NOT... and DON'T.
#carreconfession
#allroadsleadtosuccess
#EndRant

Furthermore, this is NOT my cry OR call for help... yall don't answer those anyways. 🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️

#kthanksbye

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I'm grateful that I handled it "well" but damn.
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Buddy Ass said, "why you tryna come over on a week day; you usually come over on the weekend... why you tryna change up?" as he taking some girl out to dinner while telling his gf he at home.
🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

*they been together 5 years
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When you want your dude but yo dude don't want you...
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Mfs be having all the clues...

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This is the part where Im supposed to say:
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I don't believe in going places where I'm NOT invited, celebrated, embraced, empowered,or appreciated.

So,yeah. there ya go. Yall could practice NOT being in spaces that dont want yall there too.

Stop FORCING yallself in folks life then being MAD cause they not responding or reacting positively.
#ThinkAboutIt:
The more time you spend with people who don't fuck with you, the more time you miss out on spending time with people who DO fuck with you.

Oh and for the folks who said "spend the holiday with your mother (and "reconcile"🙄)", bro we AIN'T spoke since my Grandmother's Funeral in 2016.

Shordy NOT tryna fa-la-la-la-la with ME.🎅🏿

And I'm NOT knowingly expecting for her to be someone she has NEVER been, TF. 🤷🏿‍♀️

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