Thread by @AimanPsikologi

A stranger emailed to me saying thank you for all the things I did in social media, which made me smile reading it.

But then he/she ended the email saying good bye to me and the world.

I was shocked, then responded by asking how he/she is currently doing.

Till this date, there is still no reply from him/her.

Hopefully everything is okay now 😢

Email like this, not only made me afraid and sad, but also affected me the whole day.

Ending your life doesn't end your pain. It just got transferred to someone else.

If that person not being careful, they will start self blaming, thinking how helpless they are in the situation and how things can go on differently if they have done something.

If you're feeling any suicidal thought, please.

Get professional help.

You can go to the emergency department of any public hospital, or you can call any of the psychosocial helpline listed in this link:

aimanazlan.com/help

There is not much normal and average people can help when you tell your stories,

But having a listening ear to your words, can make such a big difference to you.

I hope all is well to anyone who are fighting the invisible battle that no ones knows about.

Our struggle and pain inside ourselves are real, but so does hope.

The healing process will start from the moment we acknowledge we are not okay, and that's okay.

It's not our fault,
It's not our weakness,
It's just that, we struggle.

And it doesn't have to be a lonely journey

To this day, I am really grateful for the steps that I took in the past year, getting the professional help for my mental health issue.

I just want to shout their name here, thanking them for all their help.

Clinical Psychologist Shabina and Fenni, who were with me for one whole year of therapy.

Thank you. If you're reading this, I just want to say I'm doing well, and coping well as both of you taught me.

☺️

Thank you for believing in me during my suicidal months, for listening to my stories during my grieving, and for helping me to see my life in different perspectives.

And I now have this little prince as one of my greatest protective factor.

🥰

And of course, to my wife.

For being there with me even before we're getting married pun. And for making it possible for me to be your husband, even though you know I'm struggling mentally.

To this day, I'm really grateful for her answer, when I asked if she is okay to accept someone with mental health issue as her husband?

"I'm okay to have a husband who are struggling with his mental health issue, as long as he seeks help and works on his healing process."

Hearing her answer?

I straight away made an appointment the next day, to see clinical psychologist for my issue.

Because if a person I care in this world, deeply care about me in that way, I have nothing to lose dah lah kan. 🥰