I would have never chosen evangelicalism for my upbringing, nor would I ever wish religious trauma on anyone. I work hard everyday to make sure children are not spiritually abused. #ParentingForward
BUT, deconstructing from evangelicalism has taught me many life skills
I know how to interrogate stories told about me. Beyond evangelicalism, I retain this skill so I remain critical of narratives that impact the way I live my life. It's not always easy b/c we breathe the air we breathe, but I've wrested from one Story before, I can do it again.
I know how to lose friends, gain new ones, or push pause until healing has taken place, or boundaries has been established.
I know that toxic cycles can end with me. That just because we've grown up a certain way doesn't mean we have to go to our grave in the same system. As we continue to learn new information, we can change. This is helpful beyond faith shifting.
I know how to DO HARD THINGS!! I'm a survivor of religious trauma. My body keeps the score but I know how to speak gently to my body, love her better, and face whatever struggles with more courage and grace.
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Just finished Crazy Ex Girlfriend series and I want to talk about the song "Let's Generalize About Men"
It pokes fun at the way feminists "smash the patriarchy" by generalizing men. It's kind of a #NotAllMen song but conveys that it's just a ritual women do that helps alleviate living with the patriarchy
At the end of the song, the character Paula says, "wait, I have sons," and all the other ladies chant: "Your sons are gonna be rapists." Again, satirizing the generalizing of men.
I wish we wouldn't talk about men having porn/sex addictions, instead talk about porn "habits." Habits are a choice, can be nurtured and changed, can be hard to break sometimes, but habits are a much more morally neutral way to talk about "the porn problem."
So much of sex/porn addiction is constructed out of religious control, maybe there really are true sex addicts out there, but so many exvangelical men could tell you they thought they were sex addicts when they just had a libido. And liked porn.
Many of my podcast guests tell me I ask really excellent questions. #humblebrag Maybe it's just like courtesy small talk but it happens often enough I'll try to believe it.
I've always been a question asker. As a third culture kid, I often asked questions that are not appropriate because I had to navigate multiple cultures. Many out-of-context questions.
Of course, I also asked too many questions of my religious establishment. 🙄
The kinds of questions I ask on my podcast is for the most part completely inappropriate in everyday living.
The most basic one: Tell me your story.
Most people are simply not trained or ready to answer that Q off the cuff.
Parents of white kids, if your kids exhibit white fragility? That's GOOD.
Hear me out.
White fragility occurs when white people are upset when they become aware of racism. Often, white people respond to cope with that discomfort by dismissing, diminishing, denying that painful reality. This, of course, perpetuates racism and the cycle continues.
When white kids become aware that they are privileged to not experience racism but their peers have a different life experience, it's shocking and upsetting. If they respond with fragility, it means they are confronting this issue.
I grew up in a missionary community, glorification of suffering was a real big theme. Many of my missionary friends chose very hard lives for themselves (& their families) for religious purposes.
Suffering, of course, is very human, but glorifying it is toxic to humanity.
Life is up and down, sometimes we are suffering, other times we experience joy and happiness and pleasure. Elevating suffering makes it impossible to experience this range.
The glorification of suffering is a narrative--in the evangelical brand it's in order to glorify God. It's to experience the redemption and rescue of God. It's to be a witness.
The result is every time humans suffer (often and constant) it gets turned into a "testimony"
Excuse me I'm going to do a tweet thread on how to recover from purity culture in evangelicalism without talking about sex at all, wish me luck.
These are 5 ways I believe you have to reframe your brain/body to set you up for sex positivity:
1. Boundaries. We DID NOT LEARN HOW TO DRAW BOUNDARIES THIS IS A HARD LESSON FOR US EX EVANGELICALS DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE HOW HARD IT IS.
Learn what you like and don't like.
Communicating it.
Expecting it to be respected.
2. Pleasure. I'll just RT myself here. Practice. Practice. Practice. Take the guilt out of pleasure, please note managing your anxiety will be key to this.