There were a large number of things that contributed to me becoming unwell.
One I haven't spoken about was being told that legal advice was being taken for plagerising something I had never set eyes on.
It took 7 months to find out that was not the case.
In that time I quit
the ISVA training I was doing. I'd completed the paper work but couldn't bring myself to submit it.
I stopped my masters.
I stopped all involvement in anything sexual health or sexual safety related.
No one noticed*. That's okay. I never mentioned it on here because I was ashamed
I was embaressed, but more than that I was scared. My whole identity was being a nurse and I thought I was going to lose everything.
I am not sure why tonight I decided to write this tweet. But I wanted to break some of the power the whole situation has had over me for so long.
I would never name anyone involved. And I am not allowing the tweet to be retweeted or commented on. The situation is over.
This tweet is about me not anyone else and I am doing it for me.
*I had some really great support from my line manager.
P.S I am also incredibly lucky
to have a new opportunity to contribute to a large study into sexual health interventions; so hopefully I will get some of my confidence and drive to share learning back 🙏🏾🙏🏻🙏🙏🏿

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