Thread by @AWonderBall

Hey #Dissociatwt We had one of the most terrifying somatoform symptoms last night, possibly after a trauma dream but it’s all foggy. We could feel our legs but could not feel the outsides of our skin on our top half but we were able to move our limbs. At the same time the inside

of our body was hurting so much, it felt like we were drugged. The pain was such that we felt we needed a huge amount of pressure to relieve it BUT we couldn’t feel our skin on any of our top half of our body. We tried rocking to feel the bed underneath us, we tried slapping

we still couldn’t feel and we felt trapped as we couldn’t get enough momentum to get out of bed as our top half wasn’t able to feel the edges of body. I then thought maybe if I doubled over our weighted blanket that would help but it didn’t. I then tried punching and that helped

a little. Then I thought if I could get the bath brush that may help if we firmly brush out skin but couldn’t get out of bed. All this time we were rapid switching & crying. In end the only thing that worked was scratching our arms vigorously and eventually our feeling came back

Anyone any ideas what this may have been? We were petrified of taking a Nytol as we don’t like taking anything that may mean we are not fully ‘conscious’ (irony with dissociation I know) so maybe the fear of feeling drugged triggered something?

Does this sound like a body memory or dissociative seizure? We’ve had it before where we loose all control of our body and can only move our head which is also v scary but this was different as we NEEDED pressure but at the same time couldn’t feel our skin? Can anyone help?

We are frightened to go to sleep tonight. We will do our usual bed time routine etc but trying to work this out so we can rationalise it a little.
😩😭

Oddly to try and ground now we are going to the supermarket and are hoping we come back to some ideas from the community. Although lots of systems in other parts of the world may not be around to help contribute. Our T thinks it may be a body memory but not sure.

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