This morning I pray for the incoming dean in my org.
I can’t tell you the number of times I have been up at this hour crying and crying out to God because of bad situations in this org. Today I am up for a good reason. 1/
I pray that in the midst of administrative chaos, she will find rest. She will be surrounded by wise counsel and people who want success for her as much as she wants success for herself. 2/
I pray that people in this larger organization will educate themselves about intersectionality and what it means. May they remain humble as they are supervised by a Black women & may they seek understanding in new ways that allow them to grow. 3/
Organizations can be dangerous places for #BIPOC bc no matter how intense the organizational violence is against them, there are not policies and ways of doing business that will address issues facing the BIPOC.
This means that professional deaths occur as people watch. 1/
Orgs that are violent against #BIPOC are full of folks who either do nothing or ask permission do something.
If someone was being beaten within an inch of their lives, why wouldn’t a person DO something?
What makes people not DO something against workplace violence? 2/
Systemic oppression continues when folks wait for someone to be the 1st to address organizational violence, but what happens if no one has courage?
That was the day that I knew I couldn’t go on like that. I realized that my job was not sustainable without larger organization change. I could not fight that battle 4 yrs more feeling attacked all the time.
Something in me was snuffed out that day & I never recovered.
It was public humiliation after humiliation with no protection.
No one I know has been embarrassed like that even when they deserved to be.
Hit after hit after hit for years.
People have no idea the toll that took on me, my mind, and my family.
I don't go to standard DEI talks anymore because I can't tell what the purpose is.
Is this real talk? Is this performative? Is there a purpose? Is this a check box? Will we have action items?
I need my DEI talks to be classified before I sign up.
Also, can we ask real questions? Is this a safe space to speak? Is this for #BIPOC? Are we teaching basics? Are we changing policy? Are we calling past wrongs out? Is somebody going to be humble? Are there going to be reparations? Are there going to be tears? Whose tears?
Is there going to be a scapegoat? Is it me? Are y'all meeting after to discuss the meeting? Are you going to try to cover up what was said at the meeting? Are you plotting something? Is someone going to get punished? Am I the one who is going to get punished?
Before our week, I want to tell you how @BlkInEngineerng started. After the George Floyd murder, a small group of Black women contacted @rbeyah to gain access to @arlnetworkorg members for a call to action. (Join ARLN if you haven't). #BlackInEngineering 1/
We met the following Tuesday w/ almost 60 Black engineering faculty in attendance. We determined that a #BlackInEngineering movement was needed. Major aspects of our work was focus on media and on policy changes. 2/
People volunteered to champion efforts. We produced a video to honor our fallen Black brothers & sisters w/ a poem written by @drleroylongiii. @ColeySPACE edited the vid. Watch it here- 3/