Thread by @BestInventoryFX

3 years ago Mr. @BernardGrua growled & snarled and said he will drown me in Chapursan river and shut my business. It was precisely in October 2019 (when I first got to read the hideous things he wrote) that I prayed to God to show the world the maladies I have seen in my visions.

(I had fallen sick to a hideous organ-squeezing ailment in 2012 that distorted my perception and weakened my abilities. I was on a spiritual trip when it began happening. I also saw visions of fire and wars. It drove me half-mast, and I begged my family to leave me in mountains,

where they reluctantly left me, a person who was known to be previously capable, kind and smart. I had actually thought I'd find Nepal style traditional healers here, but there was nothing but bullshit. I finally decided to visit a shrine, as Sufis do. Here, a man assaulted me.)

(But even to his own horror and shock, I was far busier experiencing and describing my visions that later reached such a crescendo that I began screaming -- online only, in person i was quiet and personable and also had trouble speaking due to organ stress and mental fatigue.)

(This is the worst thing I have experienced, it even frightened my Sufi teachers who said they have heard of people having visions, but never so strong & so epic. I had WRITTEN about these events as part of my climate work, but to see them in visions, to hear world crying was 😱)

And so I dealt with trauma upon trauma. First you fall vehemently and suddenly sick and feel like you are dying, alive. 😳 Then you see visions of war, hear cries of pain from Earth & spirits. Then you TRUST people you think are noble but they abuse and assault you.

The result was years of shock, silence, stupor and rapidly-declining bodily functions. And what's more, I felt sad I could not seem to get my word and warning out to more people in time (though I had already written helpful advice in a series od articles, but much left to write).

Tortured by my assaulters and having found shocking truths about their whole society (swinging couples, rampant and reckless sex that gives rise to feuds, murders, drugs, theft, suicide, deception, looting travelers), I finally wrote a blog asking women to not come here alone.

I know that as climate and war panic strikes, many people will flee cities just like me and run to the hills. (It is actually an Islamic injunction.) It will be terrifying for them to run into demon-bogs like that built by the people of #Chapursan, whom a saint cursed previously.

I quickly, frantically and poorly wrote about this. I had met locals who said didn't I know better about my host who assaulted me? (I said no, his reputation is stellar in foreign travel guides/books!) They shook their heads and said no, we call him "dragon of Baba Ghundi".

That is named after the local legend of, literally, dragon of Baba Ghundi.

And then, my blog was forwarded quite on purpose now it seems to @BernardGrua, a man who I at first thought was a photographer and perhaps an impassioned traveler defending a wrong impression. (I.e. he got upset that someone wrote a negative review of folks HE found likeable.)

But nope. @BernardGrua was no ordinary traveler yelling at another, nor was his relationship with his co-conspirators in #Gojal region ordinary. The man is a Nazi, supporting #Ukraine, and was on a deliberate prowl in the #Pamir region, building a base against #Russia and #China.

Of one thing I am now sure that contrary to my first impressions, he was not merely a tourist promoting local culture etc.. No, he had done extensive networking in the region and contacted THOUSANDS of locals to build some sort of anti-Pakistan, anti-China, anti-Russia campaign.

At first it all seemed pretty incidental. I myself came here first at a time when there was no other tourist and thanks to attending some weddings and funerals and a long stay, and cherry girls who showed me the whole family on laptops, I knew half the valley.

(And it amused me because learning about people is the last thing a city person like me is interested in, we actually consider it invasion of privacy and I would be horrified if my kid showed a random stranger the whole family on laptop. Somebody please tell these folks...)

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And so, suddenly I had to descend from my visions world to attend to the chaos I was now in. Assaulted by a man, and agreed to make peace because... too busy with my visions and hoping I would connect with the right kind of people to spread the word about a coming global demise.

Details can spin someone's head but for context: from 2008-11 I did climate work in PK. Then I wanted to have international connections to spread word & preparedness. I decided Turkey was a good hub, but I got medically poisoned before going there, it affected my mind when there.

There was sudden dip in energy, metallic taste in mouth, nausea, and, I didn't know, affect on mind with fluid retention and swelling. Classic heavy metal poisoning. As a writer and visionary anyway, I constantly thought of climate scenarios. Now I began SEEING them, and flipped.

Bad health brought me home. And at first, I went to Nepal to resume my journey. Met lots of climate folks there who were also panicked. By then I had what I now realize significant fluids in head. It felt like sadness, but it was fluid. I wanted traditional herbal healing for it.

Came back to Pakistan, went to another hill station (cold made my inflammation better), then finally brought to and left in mountains. At that time, ai was physically and mentally adept and capable. The illness just appeared as an urge to vomit and felt like sadness.

The most manifest issue was my distorted sense of time and distance, and remembering very odd things and also, feeling that everything I see or hear is something done by me. Like if I saw X meeting Z, I felt like I was both X and Z, but there was no me.

Sadly some of our spiritual teachings may have paved the way for this perception. I am always able to sit inside a person & feel them. I just never physically got mixed up w them, and this was troubling and happening due to poor perception and heightened empathy, plus skin damage

I was told years later that loss of fats under the skin and bone density loss can make us, literally, thin-skinned. I did not easily realize anymore that people differ from me and that I don't have to do what they say. Also, I didn't realize how sick and vulnerable I was.

Heavy metal poisoning is not an easy thing to deal with. In 2020 I read a testimony from a digital nomad who killed himself in Asia after studying and logging how he was deteriorating. I was moved. Thank God, am still here, but it is not easy.

With declining boundaries, several violent events have happened to me the worst of which was the assault by the mountain man but also, an incredible number of people both in mountains & down south stole from me. It was unbelievable, prompting me to think it's a spiritual attack.

But it's no "spiritual attack". It is the reality of Pakistan for you. This is what our elders talked about when we were kids. These are, after all, not civilized societies. And these are ranked poorly on human rights and women's safety indices for a reason.

North Pakistan virtue-signals a lot and pretends to be heavenly, but with little regulations and formalization here, it is actually completely haywire and steeped in unimaginable corruption. Powerful men are ranked on the basis of rogueness not nobility, they disrupt everything.

And so. After I had written a measly few blogs basically frantically asking women to not come here alone and be safe, French Nazi #BernardGrua started a hellacious and vile campaign against me after I saved and posted screenshots of his initial threats. NOW that I know he is a

#Nazi, I see why this French man who person, business and nation I knew little about, was so frantic, panicked, terrorizing and aggressive. Turns out he was involved in some "anti-Russia" rallying back home in France. Hmm? I didn't know the context.

Now I do.

Current events reveal that #BernardGrua, who sent me the what-I-thought-was an oddball threat about using "Goebbels' propaganda techniques on me that I know nothing about" (indeed, bc I'm not Nazi) is a pro-#Ukraine agitator and, very likely given his reveal of tactics, a #Nazi.

As part of his anti-Russia work, which at the core is a White supremacist, Christian-fascist ideological project, Bernard Grua had been creating a vast complex of fake IDs and propaganda websites to promote his mission. One person pretending to be many.

(We women in Pakistan also sometimes use multiple IDs which are essentially to separate public and private circles and have nothing to do with the kind of propaganda work Grua does. Sometimes a woman blocked on a group can use another ID to express her dismay.)

(Also, women use FB groups extensively and given the complexities of Pakistani society, they use different IDs for work and for personal use, and an ID to engage in groups where she can seek advice on health and family issues anonymously. Honoring that, FB now allows anon posts.)

The vulgar cad that is #BernardGrua, though, conflates that with his Nazi work. Imagine the nerve. I want to tag the French Embassy here again, but let's wait. France's general colonial and Bernard Grua's personal sociopathic tyranny is meeting it's nemesis in the face of #Putin.

So here we go back to the beginning. #BernardGrua, an amateur #Nazi, who was trying to start a war in the #Pamir/#Gojal region by using naïve, foolish, and isolated #Pamiri folks as proxies, to further his "Judəo-Chrıstian" agenda, has been trapped by his own folly.

You don't mess with a Pakistani, my le stupid French friend. And you especially don't fcuk with a Pakistani woman. Our one girl took on American proxy warriors the #Taliban. Who, my little croissant, are YOU to escape accountability and scrutiny?

It was October 2019 that I, recently diagnosed for the first time with a cerebral-spinal fluid blockage and asked to rest for a month, had discovered the extent of trash written about me by #BernardGruaz the amateur #Nazi from #Nantes, #France.

And I prayed: "God, You alone know I am afflicted and it is hard for the many people whom I have confided in to believe in the extraordinary illness I speak of and the visions I see, so show them." Some other time I also said, "They tried to destroy my work. May God undo theirs".

(I was actually just hoping that all the various people hurting me would somehow be contained by a shock, also somehow the world understands my condition. I didn't know the two would combine. The "world" wasn't exactly after me, I just felt overwhelmed and isolated in sickness.)

(And before I proceed, let me share that I have been following and watching the Chronic Fatigue community since 2008. We tend to feel oppressed by the world and have great empathy and also, feel that our malaise is not understood as a thing. So I was just wondering not cursing...

I said: "Overwhelm my enemy!" but then also wondered: "Well then, but how am I ever going to explain the tale of this crazy neverending illness that just goes on and on, though as a Sufi I am thankful because I ALSO feel that me getting a mystery illness helps my research on it."

The whole complexity was solved neatly. When COVID broke months later, all my questions pertaining to my illness and "how am I ever going to explain?", and "when will people wake up to the threat of biological extinction?" were answered. To me personally, it was Divine timing.

Or rather, the resolution of a long mystery.

I could not help but notice that if there was one thing that could contain my enemies at that time, it was this. Of course the WHOLE EVENT has nothing to do with me. All people have their own micro karma in a large event. So did we.

And then we get to the personal event of Mr. #BernardGrua gloating that he will float my neck and business down the #Chapursan river, an event he cruelly illustrated in a gruesome visual that showed my decapitated head (and business logo) floating down the river. ⤵️

When challenged about it, #Nazi #BernardGrua replied with a deliberate provocation, a blasphemy against the Prophet of Islam. I know why he used the blasphemy, so that if I get angry, he can get sympathy from the French public by pretending to be an innocent &noble victim. Idiot.

And now look what is up with this blasphemous Nazi: his entire work, philosophy, society and, indeed, business are floating down the rivers of Russia, France, Ukraine.

Unaware of the situation in Europe bc have no interest in it, I could not have expected this outcome.

Human misery is nothing to gloat about, even of a miserable and clownish 🤡 villain's.

I am not a hater. I dealt very nobly and bravely with my assault and illness. I supported the assaulter's family and tribe, and I also worked to help people prepare for hunger and sickness.

If I had not made myself sick with depression I would be completely fine by now. Healthy, happy, risk-free, self-sufficient with a happy child.

But look at Grua now. His family and friends have heard of his shenanigans, Pamiris won't touch him, and kaput goes the business.

Au revoir, French #Nazi!

Now you see how God shows you right back what Nazi tricks and propaganda is! Heh.

Alas. 🙏🏽
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