I'm terrible at honoring myself. Just plain awful lol. The work it takes to undo my upbringing and early experiences is tough, but I'm making bigger strides 🙏
And more aware than ever of how often I hear my mother's admonishing voice in my head saying "self praise is no praise"
And more aware than ever of how often I hear my mother's admonishing voice in my head saying "self praise is no praise"
Like, I've done some pretty dope stuff in my life. I'm good with who I am as a person and also working toward greater growth. I've been very hung up on the fact that my biggest career highs happened before I joined social media & I carry a weird shame when I mention them #onhere
It's not just about social media of course; that's just the magnifying glass on the internal pain. But in reality, I have so much to celebrate and *that's*more likely to yield more things to celebrate, not the pain/shame cycle
I've been so locked into diminishing myself, and accepting the word of others who sought to diminish me, that I've also totally diminished more recent accomplishments. Gotta cut that shit out
I have so many pictures, posters, albums, etc. from all the shows I've done, (even an award!) and I keep them packed in boxes in storage.
A thing I did today is take them all out and decide to keep them in my apt, as I got a new storage unit and put *actual*junk in there
A thing I did today is take them all out and decide to keep them in my apt, as I got a new storage unit and put *actual*junk in there
I haven't opened most of them yet, mind you! But I did look at a few pics (and the one award!) Gonna look at more in this new year, and maybe even share some more, big up myself as the yute dem say
TL;dr y'all finna be sick of me in 2019 lollll
TL;dr y'all finna be sick of me in 2019 lollll
