They grew together considering how the Byuns and the Parks were good friends. They went to the same school, discovered the world at the same time and fought whatever problems life threw at
Not until they went to college.
Baekhyun was the one who went distant at first. Growing up, he was confused with his feelings. He stayed away to confirm whether what he
"What if I didnt love you back, what will you do then? How will you face my family?" It was what Baekhyun asked.
They both laughed. That day was the second happiest day of their life.
Second happiest. Because the first one is the day when they got engaged.
But of course, he didnt do it. His eyes betrayed him
Because finally, they will marry and start their own family together.
An irresponsible driver caused a major accident in the highways that rainy night. He was driving a truck loaded with wood supplies for a construction site. Eventually the rope supporting was loose, sending the woods on the road.
And there was Baekhyun driving his car that night. His car flew on the right side of the road, upside down. Baekhyun's head was hit the most,
Those eyes that Chanyeol always loved.
Those eyes that were always locked up with Chanyeol's brown orbs whenever they said I love you's.
But what would change? It's September of 2024. It has been five years since Baekhyun fell into a comatose. His
Mrs. Byun still visits him everyday. Mr. Byun makes time to have a glance at him whenever he finishes work.
It had just been five years, but Chanyeol managed to climb up to the company as the COO. It was his choice to start his work from the bottom.
A lot of things has changed. And yet, Baekhyun is still asleep, as if the accident he was in just happened yesterday.
Baekhyun's mother rushes towards one of the housemaids she saw as soon as she went out the room. The housemaid responds immediately, dialling on the telephone in the living room.
"Tell him Baekhyun's awake. Tell him to come here. Right now, oh please."
Mrs. Byun rushes back to his son's room with a nod.
It is as if nothing has happened. Inside Baekhyun's room in the mansion, nothing has been changed.
And that the special flower vase on a table in the middle of the room is constantly supplied by
Mrs. Byun is sick of it, but everyday she makes her egg roll specialty that Baekhyun loves in case he wakes up.
Mrs. Byun had been hopeful since day one.
And now, his son is awake.
It isnt even that bright in his room, but when he woke up, the lights hurt his sight. His body felt too heavy and still. His throat felt dry and he cant seem to find his voice. Panic dawned in his system until his
Baekhyun feels sick to the core, and when a doctor showed up, he felt more sick. He wants to get out the bed, run and rest. He was just sleeping but he feels so tired.
Five years after that day, their eyes locked again.
He went to the Byun mansion just like what he does everyday, to visit his fiancé and bring him his boquet of daffodils and tulips. Something in his gut told him to bring one of his rilakkuma plushie that was Baekhyun's favorite, but he wasnt aware
He silently holds the boquet of flowers and the plushie with both hands, winning the staring contest that he's having with Baekhyun. The doctor arrives, tending to the latter in his bed which became his
Baekhyun doesnt seem to be that alive and conscious in his eyes. Still, the poor male has his body connected to different tubes that lead to those hospital machines.
Mrs. Byun had gone to the garden since then. Chanyeol didnt disturb the woman. The years had made Mrs. Byun beauty and life fade from her face, and now that Baekhyun is awake, it didnt do much change.
Maybe the woman still worries
Chanyeol doesnt know, but this time he's sure his fiancé will wake up. That's why he went inside Baekhyun's room to wait for him.
The voice was hoarse, a little ragged. But Chanyeol still recognizes that honey-like sound of
Now that Baekhyun is awake, will everything be back to its place?
Chanyeol wakes from his trance. Baekhyun has been calling him. Chanyeol looks at Baekhyun, seeing how the latter's eyes droopy, as if he still want to sleep.
"B-baekhyun?" Chanyeol tightens his hand that has been holding Baekhyun's this whole
Baekhyun feels his fiancé's rough hand on his forehead. As usual, it's warm. Calming. Safe. He closes his eyes in satisfaction.
"Are you.. are you still sleepy, baby?"
Baekhyun wants to smile. But he still feels so weak. Instead, he leaned on to Chanyeol's hand
"What do you need, baby?"
"I like you calling me baby."
Chanyeol fights the urge to smile wide. "Why?"
"I feel so important."
"But you are."
"More important than as a bestfriend."
"You are, Baekhyun."
"It's not like we're together, you dummy."
Now it's Chanyeol's turn to go weak.
All those dramas and novels Baekhyun had made him watch and read with him, all those cheesy cliché situations where the lead or his partner forgets the other.
Turns out, Baekhyun's
They still are, of course. But aside from that, Chanyeol and Baekhyun are engaged to each other. They were supossed to marry, if not for that accident.
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The doctor adviced not to put much pressure to Baekhyun as he goes under his post treatment, considering how he was unconscious for long. It was hard for Baekhyun to absorb that he
Baekhyun finished the post treatment without problems. Two weeks later, the doctor announced his medication is done.
Maybe Chanyeol is staring too much at Baekhyun, because the latter suddenly called him in that voice. Chanyeol smiles. He continues staring, adoring Baekhyun's innocent face and the soft voice as sweet as honey whenever Baekhyun is confused or curious like that.
Baekhyun blushes. His eyes starts wandering everywhere except Chanyeol. At first, Chanyeol doesnt realize what's happening, because his fiancé is just like that; always blushing like the lovely person that he is. But then Chanyeol realizes what he did.
Chanyeol clears his throat. "Hyun." Baekhyun looks at him awkwardly. "What's the matter?"
Baekhyun offers a small smile, his eyes finding the flowers beside him interesting. "Nothing. I just feel.. empty."
Baekhyun sighs. He and
His parents have let him choose what he wanted to do after recovering, but Baekhyun cant seem to find the will to go back to
It's as if he's missing something.
Baekhyun shakes his head.
There's another thing with Chanyeol as well. Baekhyun knows how he cant remember everything when he woke up. It's 2024, and he's been
Yes, he knows the details of who he is, who were the people in his life are, and how everything went up until he grew up and...
What else? What else is there? That, Baekhyun doesnt
He had tried asking, but all they say was it's not good for him to pressure himself and his mind to rememver everything. That it's not good for his condition.
But Baekhyun believes otherwise. The lack of memory is making him sick.
It's also making him feel confused with
Because the last thing Baekhyun can remember is him being confused with his feelings for him.
"If there's anything you need, just tell me, okay?" He hears the taller say.
Anything, even his confused heart.
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The said male's breath hitched. He's currently on a lunch break from work. Worried, he contscted the Byuns to let him fetch Baekhyun at least so the ltter could eat with him. Baekhyun had been lonely the past few days, and it's making Chanyeol sad. He
But Baekhyun had been nothing but lonely. And Chanyeol definitely understands that.
So, 12:17 in the Thursday afternoon, he fetched Baekhyun and brought him
But Chanyeol isnt expecting on stumbling upon an acquaintance.
Much more to Im Jinah.
"Jinah," is the only thing he can reply.
The woman is all smiley when she sat on the chair parallel
Jinh gazes up to Chanyeol expectingly, waiting for the answer.
But all Chanyeol does is to
Baekhyun has just went out the bathroom. He and Chanyeol are waiting for the food they ordered from the waiter, when Baekhyun had the urge to leave for a while. He left Chanyeol there, and the latter just smiled at him.
Waking up five years later is scary enough. And how everything changed
Where else could Baekhyun seek help from? His parents have suffered enough. His older brother has been busy managing both the company and their family.
But is he wrong?
Is he too much of a responsibility now?
Baekhyun clenches his hand on his chest. Suddenly it's hard to breathe.
Thank all the gods because the restaurant has more than one cubicle. Baekhyun is able to sit there on the closed toilet seat, hugging his knees though it's quite hard to do so. He doesnt care, he's used to doing it
Hugging his legs, his face buried on his knees. Baekhyun doesnt want to cry, but he does.
Baekhyun couldnt look at Chanyeol's eyes. He's looking at the solid ground of the park where he bumped into Chanyeol this morning, sitting on the bed beside the man who's the reason why he's been locking himself inside the mansion for three days now.
Baekhyun nods. His one hand is hidden beside him where Chanyeol cant see it, his fist crumpled just so he could contain his being uncomfortable.
"Baek, I was damn worried."
Baekhyun hears Chanyeol sigh. He knows that what the other male does
Chanyeol is saying the truth.
At least, the truth that Baekhyun doesnt even want to hear.
"I didnt know how to face your parents when they asked me why you went home alone that day.
Baekhyun winces. So, is this what it's all about? Chanyeol's ashamed of his parents? That he let Baekhyun go hom e alone? That he promised to take Baekhyun out and 'make him happy' but Baekhyun ended up going home alone, with puffed eyes
Because Chanyeol didnt do well?
Because if that's the case, then it's not a real worry, right? It just means that Chanyeol was horrified when Baekhyun failed to show up again on the restaurant that day after going to the bathroom because he
Baekhyun doesnt even want to hear wht Chanyeol wants to say next.
It's clear how Chanyeol is competitive and a perfectionist ever since they were kids. But doesnt think Chanyeol has to take care of him like he is just another task he needs to perfect.
He wasnt sick. He was hurt.
What he saw back there---Chanyeol and Jinah---is just too much for him.
Especially that he just realized that
Baekhyun is in love with his bestfriend. He's fucking in love with Chanyeol.
Waking up after five years in a coma, seeing how many things in life has changed is too overwhelming for Baekhyun. Not remembering everything. Feeling incomplete
It just sucks.
And it goes worse when Baekhyun gathers his feeling again, realizing that before he was unconscious, he was head over heels his bestfriend.
"I dont know why, but I feel hurt because you didnt even tell me."
Chanyeol continues. "I feel so hurt because you couldve just told me, Baek.
"Why do I have to?"
Without much thinking, Baekhyun responds. Just like that. And maybe it is true. Maybe, unconsciously, that is what he's been wondering.
Chanyeol looks taken aback, not expecting
"Why not? Dont you trust me, Baekhyun?"
Trust. As if Baekhyun is having any of that since he woke up. He doesnt even know who to trust anymore.
"I'm not a kid, Chanyeol. I may have been aslep for too long, but I can do things alone."
"I dont need you all the time, Chanchan."
With that, Baekhyun leaves.
Maybe Baekhyun is right.
He's not a kid. He's twenty seven, for fuck's sake. Baekhyun is not the same person who Chanyeol loves to take care of ever since they were kids.
But Baekhyun is his fiancé. His lover. And though he doesnt have the strength to tell Baekhyun that,
Just until he has the strength to break up with him.
But how can he do that, when he cant even tell Baekhyun the truth?
Unfortunately, the school resides near the place of the Park's company building.
True enough, Baekhyun and Chanyeol are both
Before their parents could even think about marrying them off to expand their businesses, the couple had announced their
They decided they had known each other
Maybe that's why he finds himself in a café nearby when Chanyeol asked to meet.
"W-what.. do I--do I have something on my face?" Baekhyun asks.
"I missed you."
Simple words. Simple and straightforward, but the words are used too much and abused, Baekhyun isnt sure Chanyeol means what he said.
"I missed you so much, Baekhyun-ah."
And it's like something
It's too overwhelming. But he doesnt know it is all he ever wanted---at least for now that he's lost.
And despite the strange thought of the possibility of being broken, in any way, Baekhyun says the words back; just because that's what his heart is telling him to do so.
"I missed my bestfriend too, so much."
He still doesnt remember he is Chanyeol's fiancé, after all.
"Here. This is yours, you use this usually when you sleep here."
Chanyeol hands Baekhyun a set of pyjamas for the night. It's been this since the last encounter on the café happened, when Baekhyun shattered the walls around him, deciding to trust Chanyeol again.
It's like he and Chanyeol are back to the old days, when they were still free of any responsibilities.
Of course, it's hard to change how they feel with each other. They spent most of their childhood days, and if
The want that he knows that's coming from a part of him yearning for his very best friend. His best bud. His partner in crime.
His Chanyeol to lean on and, sometimes, to take care of as if the latter is a baby.
Baekhyun realized he needs Chanyeol in his life, even as a friend.
And that when he works his way to have him as his Chanchan again.
"Thank you." Baekhyun replies, taking the said clothing. He sighs. "Are you really sure I can stay the night?"
"I answered that question five times already, Hyun."
"What if I'm disturbing something?"
The tall male chuckles. He sees Baekhyun blushing, shocked at the unexpected,
Chanyeol hugs Baekhyun without even letting him finish. Suddenly the smaller is enveloped with his bestfriend's arms, his cheek touching
Because Chanyeol's hug is the warmest thing in the world.
Baekhyun panics. 'Sure', he thinks, 'you do love me, Chanyeol.'
"Thank you for waking up."
"I woke up months ago, Chanyeol."
"I already have you in my arms, but I still miss you."
"You're fucking cheesy, do you even hear yourself?"
It makes Baekhyun's heart go weak. And hurt.
He's falling harder.
And it wont stop hurting him unless he knows who Jinah really is in Chanyeol's life. It wont stop until Baekhyun hears if he even has a chance.
Chanyeol just nods. Baekhyun doesnt recognize the hurt in his eyes.
The moment Baekhyun steps out of the bathroom, fully ready to sleep in his pyjamas, he sees Chanyeol carefully arranging the bedsheets. The taller looks up to him and smiles, wearing a matching pyjama (which Baekhyun finds corny--but sweet).
"Where do I sleep?" He asks.
"On the bed."
"So, where does that left you, Chanyeol? Where will you sleep?"
"Why, on the bed."
Baekhyun breathes to speak, but Chanyeol speaks faster. "We have been sleeping together since we were kids. We did it until god knows when."
"And we still slept together before you went Sleeping Beauty. So what now?"
"'Sleeping together' is not the right term."
Chanyeol stops to think. "Oh."
"Sleeping side by side, I mean." Chanyeol releases a forced cough. "Side by side."
"Yeah." The tall male jumps on the bed. "Now come here."
Baekhyun had no choice.
And though he still wishes for more than this, he decides it's the best to keep things like this.
And maybe, just maybe,
And he promises to be the best person to be able to pay the universe of the luck he's given, if ever his wish happens.
"You should tell that you yourself, Mr. Park COO. You barely slept this week because of work."
Chanyeol buries his nose on the top of Baekhyun's head, inhaling the scent of his hair. "I have all the weekends this week."
"Come over at my work frequently, okay?"
"Hmm, let me think---no."
"I cant, Chanchan. I also have work."
"But I miss you everyday. Every minute, every second."
Chanyeol looks at the smaller, almost sad. Baekhyun rolls
"Damn you, fucktard. Dont make this hard for me."
Chanyeol grins. "See? You cant say no to me."
"Just whenever I have free time. School is busy these days."
"I'll look forward to the
Chanyeol smiles wide. Baekhyun notices how his eyes are bright, as if Baekhyun's visits means a lot. Baekhyun attempts not to chuckle.
"You never grow up, Chanyeol."
Chanyeol looks at him knowingly. His smile fades. His eyes loses the brightness like he
"I just wish, Baekhyun. I just wish we never grew up. I want the old days back."
"So he still doesnt know?"
Chanyeol looked down. He's in front of his friend, Yixing and the tone of the male's voice is only making his chest feel heavier.
"Baekhyun still doesnt have a clue."
"Why not? You havent told him?"
"He doesnt remember."
"It's been what? Three, almost four, months? Chanyeol, you have to tell him. Or at least remind him."
Chanyeol sighs. Seeing Baekhyun in the deathbed five years ago is still clear in his mind. The sight wherein Baekhyun was unconscious,
It feels like it just happened yesterday, and Chanyeol is still so weak. Telling Baekhyun the truth now and hurting him isnt a good idea.
Yixing scoffs. He isnt in the place to step in to Chanyeol and Baekhyun's relationship, but Yixing is pissed. He and Baekhyun arent that close, but he has been Chanyeol's friend since they were still children. It's just that Yixing went back to China
And Baekhyun doesnt deserve all this.
Baekhyun turns to look at the person who called him with a shock.
"Oh my god!"
Both men grins as they hug for the first time in so many years.
"It's been what? More than ten years?"
"Sixteen years, to be exact."
Luhan is a childhood colleague.
They both grew up separately after, but both Luhan and Baekhyun constamtly bumped into each other a few more times coincidently. It is a surprise how they are so giddy like this seeing each other, despite the distance.
And now they see
"I cant believe I get to see you here, Baekhyun."
"Where's your boyfie?"
Baekhyun chuckles. "What boyfie? I dont have one, silly."
"No you do!"
"When I first visited Seoul again after going back to China, you introduced me to this tall guy and said he's your boyfriend."
"I dont know, you arent
Baekhyn frowns. He doesnt remember he introduced anyone to Luhan. He still has to recover majority of his memories until now.
"What.. I dont have---"
Luhan looks startled when Baekhyun held his hand atop the table between them.
"Who is that guy I introduced you to?"
"I think it's that Park.. Park--"
Baekhyun doesnt answer.