Thread by @LeftwardSwing

I'm going to share some very personal thoughts because I need to let this out. This isn't a rage thread, it's a deep personal feelings thread. It contains a lot of personal emotions, thoughts, and feelings.

I talk openly about things when I need to let it out. So away we go...

Sigh....
I'm tired y'all. So so tired....
I don't understand why I'm having to debate, argue, fight with people who I thought were allies & friends over Covid. I don't understand it.

It's left me confused, upset, feeling exploited, & downright frustrated & angry.

I don't understand how you go from preaching about humanity & social policy issues that both uplift & protect the most vulnerable in society to the complete opposite end of the spectrum with suddenly preaching Libertarian ideals, beliefs, & policy based in "me myself, & I".

This week is tough. Sunday will be 1 year since my mom passed from Covid. I did everything I could to save her. She wasn't an antivaxer. She simply didn't want to be here any longer. I tried so very hard to do everything I could....She was a nurse for nearly 40 years.

The experience with my mom left me forever jarred & shaken. The entire experience was horrific beyond words. She passed just before the vaccines came out. I'll talk more about my experience this Sunday on the 1 year anniversary of my mom's death.

And now I'm having to argue, debate, & fight with people I once considered to be my friends & allies because they believe mandates are somehow similar to the Third Reich. The same people who once stood for "the greater good" now no longer do & I don't understand why.

99% of the time those emotions come out in my responses to those folks. I've tried my best to be better but it's difficult for me because of everything I went through & experienced with my mom. It's so much projection but a deep belief of wanting to protect as many ppl I can.

I still believe deeply in #NotMeUs. It represents who I am as a person. And I know at times I come off as very "sharp", combative, & rough. That's the passion & raw emotion coming through.

I'll never believe in exploiting others for your own personal gain & self satisfaction.

I just want all of this to end as fast as possible. I don't want any more deaths. I don't want any other people left with life long disabilities under a government who refuses to help. I don't want anyone going through the experience I did with my mom, leaving them scarred 4 life