We can text a friend and tell them how we are feeling.
We can pour a glass of water and eat dinner.
We can run a bath and go to bed early.
We can call in sick to work tomorrow or plan a social activity to get out of the house.
We can watch a comforting tv show or get lost in a fictional story.
We can care for ourselves and then come back to sharing our stories and advocating and caring for those in the thick of the fight.
If you are on the edge, be gentle with yourself.
If you are on the up and down roller coaster, be gentle with yourself.
And in any stage of this battle for some healing reach out. Just the one text.
"If such an important healer can die from this disease what is keeping it from stealing me away in the middle of the night?"
If you are a liar, at least for a time, you lose my trust.
Depression is a liar, my mentally ill brain is a liar, so no trust for you brain.
My people they are trustworthy. So I listen to them.
My friends say they aren't mad at me for being sick. Your people aren't mad at you either. We are not a disappointment to them.
My friends say they believe me. And I believe you. Invisible diseases are diseases, illnesses, sicknesses, broken bodies and brains.
My friends say I am to get better for myself not for them, because I am worthy of healing. You are too. You don't deserve to feel like this.
Be brutally honest. Say all the things that feel too shameful or crazy to say. However you are feeling right now. It's ok. Your friend wants to know.
Your brain may be lying, but you can trust your people.
And just a note to say I am ok and being cared for, so you take care of your people, mine have me.