It’s #WorldMentalHealthDay - a day that #MentalHealth activists love to hate, because hey, it’s not all light at the end of the tunnel (yay Recovery 🙄) & it’s not just one day of the year. But sod it, here’s a pictorial compilation for you. Bonus points if u get to the end 1/25
2/25 Meds. Love them or loathe them, they are a daily reality for many of us. Big Pharma makes a lot off us Mentals. Did you know that my most debilitating diagnosis can’t be medicated? But all the others equate to 13 tablets a day, plus any extras on PRN #WorldMentalHealthDay
3/25 I’ve never, ever, ever been able to maintain taking meds regularly. But I do now. The Hubster wakes me up with a coffee, toast and meds. But having a caring, loving person in my helps me more than any meds. Sadly not available on prescription for us all #WorldMentalHealthDay
4/25 Pets help a lot of us in terms of emotional support. Many of us can’t cope with taking care of one long term. My hubby had Daisy when I met him. I’ve never been able to connect with an animal, but Daisy showered me with love and somehow broke the ice #WorldMentalHealthDay
5/25 Any of us can have a severe relapse. I thought that time & management meant I wouldn’t, that I could manage the worst feelings with the coping strategies, age & experience. Shouldn’t have been so smug. This year, I was catapulted back 15y to the Asylum #WorldMentalHealthDay
6/25 Nothing much has changed in inpatients. I was so angry at the discrimination that had led to my admission, the same othering I felt on that ward. But one thing had changed. Last time around I didn’t have the love & support of fellow activists & friends #WorldMentalHealthDay
7/25 This time round I had really supportive people around me. Flowers arrived from friends & family. Care packages from fellow activists. Visits. It made such a difference. I never thanked you all. Thank you so much. Most ppl on that ward were alone though. #WorldMentalHealthDay
8/25 There is some good stuff that comes out of having a different way of thinking, out of trauma. Mad gifts. While I was in that acute ward, I created a this commission for @AsylumMagUK. I was so proud when I returned home, and my copy arrived in the post #WorldMentalHealthDay
9/25 Lots of us are creative and use creativity to manage symptoms we have. Lots of us are rather subversive in our creations. A dark sense of humour helps, especially in inpatients activity sessions 😈 #WorldMentalHealthDay
10/25 The subversion is particularly evident in our activism. You may be surprised that many of us are critical about mental health awareness initiatives. It’s because they often aren’t ones we lead ourselves. We have our own - #MadStudies is one of them. #WorldMentalHealthDay
11/25 Stuff like subversive socks helps when it’s one of those days where I gotta put on my big girl pants and remind organisations that if you employ us in roles that require us to use our experience of being mentals, u need to treat & pay us equally too #WorldMentalHealthDay
12/25 There are the #MadGifts too. So many of us have ways of expressing ourselves that are different. Even though the difference causes pain. For me, it means I’m more Teflon coated & give less of a shit about some people’s opinions of being different #WorldMentalHealthDay
13/25 When I worked as an artist, I could channel the crazy into the work. SuperciliousMsT was a performance art character, exaggerating an exaggerated personality & exploring the theory that some ppl with #BPD would become #Histrionic later in life. #WorldMentalHealthDay
14/25 ah I can’t quite explain the connection I feel with something inside that somehow links creativity to the darker elements which affect my mental health. Some of us experience this, others don’t. Almost like we are individual😈 #WorldMentalHealthDay
15/25 There’s nothing quite like singing out big feelings whilst dressed eclectically. Or in this case making weird and wonderful sounds in response to a Spoken Word artist whilst the audience looks on. These ppl loved us. Other times we’ve cleared the room😈#WorldMentalHealthDay
16/25 Even my home office has to be fun. It just needs to reflect my head, so I can work. I can’t quite get away with the shoes & lights decorating #NHS headquarters, although even there the pink stationary and fluffy pens stand out like a sore thumb. #WorldMentalHealthDay
17/25 You have to be Mad to drive around in this. My car, my crutch, my independence, my safe place. All taken from me, when exactly a year ago I had a seizure that cost me my license. Sometimes our pain manifests physically too. #WorldMentalHealthDay
19/25 The sunflower 🌻 lanyards for Invisible Disabilities are helpful, ie. not having a quizzical side eye for the disability bus pass. It’s a disgrace how much easier it is to access help for physical health vs. Mental health. The bus pass for instance. #WorldMentalHealthDay
20/25 Often having mental health issues mean we experience health inequalities in other areas too. The bruises I experienced as a kid somehow manifest as an adult, in injuries from the latest seizure. Like other Mad ppl, it’s more than ‘just’ #MentalHealth#WorldMentalHealthDay
21/25 Right now my mouth hurts, from chewing my tongue and cheeks, grinding my teeth. It started when I started being really vocal about workplace discrimination towards ppl using MH within their work. It was like my body wanted me toothless, to shut up #WorldMentalHealthDay
22/25 Of course, there are the *actual* mental health symptoms. There are the excruciating lows. There is also the exhaustion, numbness and faraway sadness that follows.
23/25 There are the highs too. Often they are linked to anxiety. Highs can feel nice or can also feel excruciating, feel under an obsessive compulsion to do, buy, say etc. Still needs reassembling 😳 This FB purchase needed two round trips to Liverpool. #WorldMentalHealthDay
24/25 I thought these days were gone, that my scars had disappeared or were hidden. Sadly, the recent relapse hit me hard. The denied requests for equality hurt me so much. The hurt is now etched there forever. I don’t think these will ever become invisible😞#WorldMentalHealthDay
25/25 The diagnosis I have means my life expectancy is 18y less than ‘normals’. Despite an MSc, post grads, a degree and 30y working experience, I earn the same as my first job as a 16y old cleaner. Isn’t it time everyone really supported us being equal? #WorldMentalHealthDay
It’s good that examples of CEOs taking race discrimination seriously beyond just listening to stories into action is happening. I hope that these skills in tackling inequality will be used in tackling discrimination that #LXPs face too >
> As a mixed race, pan, disabled woman, none of the #NHS staff networks provide the support I need because where I face the most intense discrimination & inequality is openly using insight from a mental health condition in my work. It’s not an area any adequately understand /2 >
> Because they don’t understand how this extra layer of discrimination impacts on their #LXP members, because it’s so invisible, we can’t get the support we so desperately need within them. I notice that my #LXP colleagues who aren’t white, are LGBTQ, physically/neurodiverse /3 >
#BusStopWanker#Diaries Sometimes even a disabled bus pass isn’t enough to get around. Woke up this morning at 6am crying, fell asleep & woke up with a massive cry fest hangover. Couldn’t wake up for the headache. The Hubster has had to take me to triage appt 4 dental surgery /1
One of the ways of coping with days like this where I have to face the world whilst my insides and face are in a state is a shit ton of make-up. Unfortunately in my haste I’ve left it. So had to make do with a brush & hat /2
The current dip in mood & anxiety levels are caused by the impact of stress caused by my own experiences of discrimination as an #LXP, but mainly the levels of energy & effort it takes to address it. It involves me skilling up support staff on LXPs ie. union/equality staff /3
Ok, that bath was a bit of a disaster, I think I’ll have to start a #BathTimeWanker series to rival the #BusStopWanker one 😹 So, my lovely mate made me a beautiful pamper basket. I’ve been trying to use it since Sunday. I’ve built up to this moment since waking up this morning/1
I have fun adding the biggest, most unicorn bath bomb you’ve ever seen in your life. I add half a bag of Epsom salts. Some lavender bubble bath. I go downstairs & get a drink. Since I have no bubbles to stick in a champers glass to be totally extra, I make a cuppa of earl grey /2
Obviously the Earl Grey needs a splash of Lidl’s finest gin & loads of hunny. Yum yum yum. I keep adjusting the temperature of the water because I’m not going to do my usual trick of ending up with it being stone cold/too hot & wasting a years worth of bath products /3
#TimeToTalk Many people don’t realise is that large generically run charities such as @MindCharity are given majority of funding, whilst orgs run by people who live with mental health conditions & grassroots groups are not funded. We are becoming extinct. theguardian.com/society/2019/j…
The National Service User Network @NSUN is run by ppl with lived experience of Mental Health condition, but even that has lost its funding - the one org trying to support and keep our SU-led orgs together! #TimeToTalk Why can money go to @TimetoChange but not SU-led national org?