My gratitudes for this week.
-Just got back and had 3 messages waiting for me from people who got things done on #Hackathon work. Also more money was raised. I can build a team, activate folks, & they will get things done... with joy.
-OMG the flowers were SO pretty today!!!...
..-My rent in Boston came down $400
-my classmates are waiting for me to arrive to do stuff together
-part of why I have so much stuff is each card and show program is a cherished memory but I can let go of the "stuff" and keep the memories
-I get to work with amazing faculty...
-I know I already said this but I came back to find work already done (albeit as assigned). Like OMG. It's beautiful. Like leave with anxiety, come back calmer, find work done. Minus the anxiety, could everyday end like this?
My "problem" is an embarrassment of riches after have had worked super hard, been told "no" & "you aren't qualified" & "nice but not good enough" SO many times. Now: I'm I've won 2 sandbox mini-grants, incubating 2 other start up ideas, & just invited by CMS to submit a proposal
But this is the nature of being an executive, but experienced as a grad student. Can't say "yes" to everything. Can't take care of everyone. Can't achieve in every direction at once. Have to make choices. Have to risk making a wrong choice.

Sh*t..my call is at 7..not 7:30!

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20 Oct
I'm always amused by sales or marketing or communication professionals attempt to sell to me how I need their help, how I need their protection, etc or it could be "mutual benefit" to connect. Oh, then what is your rank for what you are paid to do and attempting to charge me for? ImageImage
Why am I able to outpace, by far, sales, marketing, and communication professionals? What is it they are teaching you wrong in school and/or you are unable to apply for success in real life?

Likely, the answer is: authenticity
Lived experience
Open communication
Values
Yes, metrics matter
Yes, reputation needs to be protected
But as we see happening with Dr. Fauci, those who wish to suppress science-based information (that they find embarrassing or wish to hide) will malign the person speaking about verifiable facts. Blowback does happen.
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OMG. How amazing! Turn jumbled thoughts on #AI & #FutureofWork into vision, articulate, recruit superstar team, pitch to @MITvsCOVID19 & get included, hundreds sign up + #blackexcellence on systems thinking @MIT @MITSloan #Hack4theFuture #COVID19

mitsloan.mit.edu/press/mit-sloa…
Mea culpa: Rulebreaker/boundary-defier of the cookie-cutter #marketing best practices (yet am a top 1% influencer status for #healthcare so 🤷‍♀️) yes, I admit we have a range of logos within a color family. If you are bothered, I invite you accept a diversity of colors ;-)
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Much of this is familiar: "This made me that Black, gay resident once again. The same attending ..called me by the wrong name.. confusing me for the only other Black resident in our program,,When I approached him about it privately, he 'didn’t want to speak about this.'"
I have never been in a setting where my name was correctly used without my being interchangeable with another BIPOC. Every single workplace, I am not me. My name is not mine. My identity is not mine. It is whatever others need from me that moment for their work/metrics.
What #Blackexcellence experiences on top of what all BIPOC experience, of being an object, token, dehumanized, is the long history of legal dehumanization through slavery that remains embedded today in institutions and cultures. That's why #BLM has to be said specifically.
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19 Oct
So true. The #pandemic has revealed whose inability to cope with disruption & loss of (false sense of) control results in their need to assert online control of others

I see so much uptick of low value & harmful policing behaviors. It is waste

We could solve problems at scale
I fully believe that those who harm others through control are suffering themselves. Most forms of abuse, including overcontrol and overpolicing are from own anxiety, fear, inability to feel safe -> control over others

But instead of spreading fear, could focus on solutions
It requires a tolerance of risk and growth mindset to thrive and stay creative in chaos, disruption

..amid constant failure of what should be trusted systems and authorities

Those who experienced the least harm from (even then harmful) systems are the most unable to cope now
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19 Oct
Stuff like this makes my day.. week
Teach girls & women to try & fail
Be brave, not perfect

(Women have joined the team then had to step away. I support their having tried)

I hate saying no

So if I could not support her to participate, created an alternate opportunity
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ted.com/talks/reshma_s… - as a South Asian woman I especially love this as both heritage & "model minority' teaches perfection (which is a fear-based goal, fear of failure with metrics that are external rather than internal mission/goals)
It is my personal mission to teach girls & for model for
women not to allow anyone to box them in or define the boundaries of their talent, achievement, humanity
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Try & fail
Start something & leave it unfinished
Write code that does not run
Be "too"..
..big
..much
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18 Oct
Okay.this is stress induced. I just committed to moving..mid-semester, am sleeping 3-4 hours a night, leading a major event, in an accelerated grad school program, and amid a tense election. I do have intermittent pain, but my migraines have not been this bad for a while.
The last time I felt this way was 2018 when daily the @AmerAcadPeds was sending advocacy emails with images that I found personally triggering from my own past experiences, then this was in the news wbur.org/news/2020/01/0… about Boston Public Schools reporting students to ICE.
Meanwhile at work was dealing with weird comments made about minority patients, errors in the medical record w/ staff gaslighting minority patients, & my being seen as the same as the non-white clinician in our small group of less than 10. Now, this week: linkedin.com/posts/usnehal_…
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