Last night I was genuinely struggling. I thought about calling a help line. I thought about what it would be like to permanently escape. I thought about my dogs, my sister, my mom, my husband.

I thought about my dearest friend, and the few close friends I have.

I thought ++
about how helpless I feel watching this planet spin more and more out of control every day.

I thought about how powerless I feel. How hopelessness is taking me over.

I thought about the weight of my trauma. If it could ever be untangled.

I thought about being Indigenous and ++
how that means everything to me, but I'm not not connected to my community. I thought about how my neurology and skin tone make that seem impossible.

I thought about my health and what covid has done to me and how scared I am.

All that thinking kept me awake till 5am.

Then ++
I thought about how the state of some of the rooms in my house reflect that inner chaos and turmoil. How depression and ADHD factor in.

So I decided at 5am I could control one thing when I woke up.

I could clean my upstairs bathroom.

So I've just spent the past 2 hours ++
doing just that.

I still have about a hour of cleaning to go, but it's so, SO much better now.

So today I controlled one thing. And that helps a lot.

#mentalhealth #neurodivergent

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Dec 11, 2022
It's been 5.5 months since I had #COVID19. This is the best I've felt.

I ended up with #LongCovid. I lost my summer to the infection. Most days it was all I could do to walk to the end of my driveway and get my mail.

The neurological aspects of the result of the virus have ++
been the most difficult to deal with. The brain fog. The tingling and numb toes and fingers.

Then there's the cardio aspects - months of arrhythmia. I needed an ECG.

Then there's how my bloodwork has been a mess. Sugars up, cholesterol up, blood pressure up, liver enzymes ++
elevated. All of these things were fine before I got #COVID19.

I barely recognize myself post #COVID infection. I'm trying to reclaim my health but it's a battle.

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In my late 40's, seeing nothing in #NovaScotia for #ActuallyAustistic women, I started a group which has become a program.

The program expanded to the creation of a teen group as well.

Yesterday our teen group did a scavenger hunt in the Camp Hill Cemetery.

I developed the ++
activity. I provided a history, etiquette for while we were there, and the questions of what we were looking for.

One of the graves that I wanted them to find was Viola Desmond.

We did and talked about her activism and reflected on the changes she made.

We found many ++
interesting headstones. Ones made of iron! Ones from the 1800's, Norwegian Merchant Marines, etc.

We had an amazing time!

I made them all giggle when I found this stone and covered the L 🤭
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