- maybe nsfw parts but i'll put trigger warnings
- all the usual au rules not to break the thread
- jungkook, tae, jimin have the same age because why not
Taehyung said sitting down next to his lover. He circled Jeongguk's waist with his arms and pulled him, so that Jeongguk's head was resting on his torso. Jeongguk breathed to calm down, following Taehyung's kind whispers and somehow he stopped crying.
- It's okay baby take your time.
- My parents... Found out I wasn't going to school anymore. I - They didn't take it well.
- I'm sorry Gukk-ah.. It's okay they will calm down.
- No.. They. I don't think. They said they wouldn't support me anymore.
- They said I didn't bring any good and that they weren't going to support anything I do. We argued so much my father hit me so many times but.. that's fine. They just... They told me to g-get out and I just thought of you and ran here I'm sorry. I'm mak-
- Guk it's okay. I'm glad you feel safe with me. And we are going to fix this alright ? You're not alone. Not at all. I'm with you always.
- Would you be able to? Hit your father?
- I would.
- I'm going to crash at my hyung's place. It's fine Tae don't bother. You calmed me.
Taehyung pouted. And Jeongguk wanted to kiss that pout away. So he did, quickly. They haven't done much more than peck on each other's lips anyway.
- Alright big boy. But my door will always be open for you. Do you want me to come with you to your hyung's flat?
- No baby it's fine. I'll manage. Go and go crack some nuts.
- Oh my God shut up.
Taehyung giggled. Jeongguk did too.
Seokjin and Jimin didn't say anything to each other but they understood that they agreed on the
"What about him hyung ?"
"You need to stop whatever you are doing."
"If you want to succeed in this field, you need to stop. I've... I'be been there too."
"There was a guy, that I loved. I think I loved. When I first started taking dancing seriously. He was my universe or so I thought. But he was only holding me back. I don't want you to throw your brilliant future away. Not because of a boy."
" I broke up with him. And now I'm fine. Look at me. I'm a principal dancer, loved by everyone, and I've succeeded. I am happy now, and I don't have any regrets." Seokjin said through his teeth. Yes he had regrets, but Taehyung didn't need to know that.
"Hi Tae!" Jeongguk said, enthusiastically.
"What the hell are you doing here ?" He answered coldly.
"You're in the arts center. It's not a warehouse to tag. Leave before we call security."
"But Tae I-"
"Leave him alone. Go beg for money elsewhere seriously you're embarrassing." Jimin added.
Jeongguk didn't know when he started crying.
But Taehyung felt it, too.
At rehearsal he was so out of it that he fell from the high stage. His knee shattered against the hard concrete, and so did his dream of ballet and opera.
The same evening, at their home, his parents found out he had-
They kicked Taehyung out of their lives as soon as he was healed because he didn't want to go to therap to fix his digusting self.
Taehyung was so alone.
Taehyung was at the coffee shop, behind the counter making some extravagant and expensive beverage, just like every friday afternoon. His coworkers were chatting and watching tv, commenting on whatever was on. He wasn't really paying attention
His mind wandered again, what was he thinking about ? Ah yeah, he had this assignment due in
Taehyung didn't realize he spaced out until Wheein tapped his shoulder gently. It happened sometimes. She didn't mind, but still, she was worried. Taehyung has been his best friend ever since he arrived at snu.
"In your head again?"
"Come then we'll get some tea. There's no client for now so Jeonghwa can work alone for a bit."
So they sat at a table next to the tv, with flaming hot mint tea and some cakes.
"He's a soloist! Debuted like -
"Tae? It's Hobi.. Please Tae open. You've done nothing wrong."
"I did hyung, I did everything wrong" Taehyung said through his tears.
"Open. And we'll talk but please don't stay alone. We're here for you." Hoseok said, looking at Wheein who anxiously looked through the keyhole.
Once they were alone, an uncomfortable silence settled. They didn't know where to begin. There was so much Taehyung didn't know.
"He decided to become an idol a long time ago, like.. when you guys were still talking. He didn't want to tell you until he signed the contract."
"He's fine Tae. He's happy actually. His life.. is an everending challenge and he's loved. So loved." Hoseok said with a warm smile, thinking abour his little Jeongguk, and
Taehyung listened carefully to his hyung, feeling somewhat relieved. He didn't ruin Jeongguk. Jeongguk is fine. Now, he's be just an unpleasant memory that Jeongguk has
"Uh yeah, an idol in a big group, she's called Mina. Don't tell anyone though..."
"Yeah I work with his company." Hoseok raised his eyebrows, suspicious.
"Can I go see him?"
"What? No!" Hoseok panicked. He didn't know how Jeongguk would react meeting Taehyung.
"I don't want to meet, he'd never see me. I just want to
"You don't want to meet him?"
"No. I've hurt him enough, I wouldn't be able to handle a face to face..."
"Alright, I'll get you inside the public, if you stay
"Get one for Wheein too then."
"Of course I will, if she doesn't scream like a madwoman like she does in front of the tv."
"Well I can't promise that."
She ended up hugging him tightly anyway.
Jungkook sang his song again for the encore stage, which was the cutest thing ever because he kept singing with his fans.
When Taehyung left the studios at the end,
After the Show Champion, Taehyung liked to think he was a happier version of himself. Everything seemed the same except for his lighter heart, and the daily buzz of his phone alerting him that Jeongguk tweeted. The tweets
"What? Nothing." Yoongi quickly said, putting his phone back in his pocket and focusing on the music playing in the room.
"You seem mad. And you muttered a distinct *fuck off*"
"Just a friend in trouble and I can't do anything to help. It's frustrating."
"Oh? Why? Who's the friend?" Jeongguk asked intrigued.
"Yah! stop the questions. Don't you have a comeback to focus on?"
"Nooo it's in a long time. Euphoria
"I can't tell you Guk-ah. I'm sorry."
"Hush. Actually, I think you should see Joon, he came up with a new arrangement he thought you'd like." Yoongi half lied. Namjoon really had a new song.
Taehyung greeted him as well.
"I'll take a black coffee please!" He said, taking out
"Ugh? No I'm working Jimin."
"But I came here to see you"
"I can't leave the counter I'm sorry."
"But YOU can leave Park Jimin." Wheein said as she appeared right next to Taehyung, with a displeased frown.
"I can't say the feeling is mutual." she said coldly. Taehyung tried to catch her gaze to tell her to leave. He didn't want a scene.
"Watch out Wheein, you may be Tae's friend too but I'm still a client."
"No Tae, don't do that."
"I have to."
"You don't have to do shit! The last time you stayed with him remember what happened?"
Jimin knew all of that and he still ranted about how good they were. They weren't good. They were heartless monsters. But after Jimin's visit,
"I know Wheenie, I just..." Taehyung shook his head. He was done making Jimin's coffee. "I'll talk to him. For real. About what's so wrong with him.
As Taehyung left to sit at Jimin's table, she bit her cheek.
"That's what you said the last time too." she whispered.
What made him snap was when Jimin swiped to a picture of himself with his parents. And Taehyung's parents. All smiley and well dressed.
"Oh look! It's when your parents surprised me and went all the way to Vienna to see me! It was so kind of them. Seriously they were front row and always cheeri-"
"I said stop s'talking about them." Taehyung continued with a small voice.
"Tae they're your parents! You have to forgive them"
"I don't. They abandoned me, I don't owe them anything. Now you stop talking about them, you stop praising them,
"Do you mean what you're saying?" Taehyung asked dumbfounded.
"I get it you're sad but it's not my fault. You don't have to be selfish like
"You need to stop blaming me. I'm not the one wrong here."
"Well you are. And you're super moody it's annoying, have you been taking those antidepressants again?"
"No you're not! Tae!" Jimin said loudly as Taehyung left by the front door. His stuff was still in his locker, he was wearing his work outfit but he needed to get out. He couldn't breathe. That was Jimin's effect.
Taehyung took out his phone from his pocket and texted his friends.
"How do you know?"
"You have a big ass frown. And I've been thinking about him I guess."
"He said he talked back to Jimin but he's shaken, so he's coming."
"Really? Right now?"
"Yeah.. I don't
The second time, a soft knock could be heard at the door. It wasn't surprising, Taehyung already knew the code of
Hoseok stood up carefully and opened the door softly. He met a trembling Taehyung. He wasn't crying, but he was surely really affected emotionally. Hoseok automatically opened his arms and Taehyung fell in it.
When he got out of Hoseok's embrace he noticed Yoongi, standing up in the living room.
"So... this is Kim Taehyung, my unofficial little brother. And Tae this is Min Yoongi.
Taehyungg stilled. He knew a Min Yoongi. "Yoongi as in... Jeongguk's Yoongi?" Taehyung said, unsure.
Yoongi nodded. "Yes, that one."
"I'm so sorry I.. really am." Taehyung replied. It was Jeongguk's best friend.
Taehyung gaped at Yoongi, surprised.
"You're... glad ?"
"Maybe we should sit" Hoseok said, pushing Taehyung towards the couch.
Taehyung nodded biting his lip.
"But a bad action doesn't make you a bad person. It's been years and you still regret,
"So no, I won't hold a grudge against you because you did
"To be honest I wouldn't have been
"Is that a question or an affirmation?" Hoseok asked.
"I don't know... I got mad and talked back and then he blamed things on me and didn't listen so I left."
"What did he blame on you?"
"Uh my parents and I's separation
"What the fvck, Tae I hope you know none of that is your fault." Yoongi said angrily.
"I know, well no like if I hadn't danced so close to the edge of the stage I wouldn't have..."
"It's not your fault.
They kept conversing about it, trying to get to Taehyung's head that it was going to be alright. They also watched the show on tv, until
Hoseok opened the door a little to see his bratty friend. "You're inside how can you be cold?"
"I thought you were hungry, that's not food." Yoongi said, leaning on the counter, low-key trying to block the view while Hoseok
"It's just a starter hyung I need to make the water boil before cooking the ramyuns. But wait, it smells like pizza here." Jeongguk noticed, trying to get to the living room, but Yoongi was still blocking.
"I can see it from here seriously. You leave me no choice." Jeongguk said with a malicious
When he arrived in front of the coffee table he let Yoongi go and bent over to grab a pizza slice. There he noticed the
"You could have told me someone was sleeping! I wouldn't have made so much noise seriously." He said accusingly. "But aren't they going to
He was just as beautiful as Jeongguk remembered, his perfect skin was glowing, his long eyelashes were so pretty.
He turned his head towards Hoseok and Yoongi who were silently watching
"I.. need to get out." Jeongguk hiccuped.
They had done everything they could to prevent the two boys from being hurt because of their shared past, but fate couldn't be defeated sometimes.
Yoongi was the one who took care of him after they broke up all those years ago, and it hasn't been pretty.
"Because he's always been friend with Hoseok."
"But Hoseok told me that what he did to me was shitty."
"It doesn't mean that they didn't stay friends."
"There's no side. You're not at war you know. Taehyung did the worse to you but it was a mistake. It doesn't mean Hoseok had to get Taehyung out of his life too. Even if he did, I don't thing Taehyung
"What do you mean alone? I was the lonely and miserable oke. He was always surrounded by his pretty friends and his pretty money and his pretty dream." Jeongguk said angrily.
"What do you mean he needed someone like I did ? He has a perfect life! You're not listening. "
"Had. He had a perfect life. After he decided to leave you, he also lost everything. Hell, he didn't even
"What do you mean?"
"It's a long story."
"I need to know." Jeongguk said, determined.
"I don't know if I should be the one telling you though."
"What? You want me to speak to him?
"I don't want you to be angry at him Jeongguk, not anymore."
"Give me a reason not to."
"He loved you."
"He didn't. You don't hurt the people you love."
"His best friend and his teachers emotionally manipulated him Jeongguk..."
"You know how difficult it can be to go against your friends and the figures you consider your models. You were young Jeongguk."
"So what? He got what he wanted now, didn't he? He's probably an amazing dancer living his best life in those Operas."
"What do you mean?"
"When he left you, it broke your heart Jeongguk, but it also broke his. The day after your split, he was so sad and distracted he fell badly. He broke his bones, the kinf of injury that doesn't heal. He never set a foot
"Wh-" Jeongguk started. He was shocked at the news. He always thought Taehyung made it. He deserved it, he was so talented and danced so beautifully. But? He never did? It seemed unreal.
"I'm not done. Unfortunately."
"Well for once you were his life. He didn't give a shit after his injury, he was only worried about you. He wanted to see you again and kept texting you, calling you to apologize, looking at your pictures together
"What happened?" Jeongguk said, fearing the worst.
"At first, they told him that it was
Jeongguk had never felt so conflicted in his life. He held a grudge for so long but now what? How was he supposed to feel?
"He did. Like you and I, they stayed together until he could support himself."
"What? How could he support himself? He was supposed
"Well he went back to school, studied his ass off and went to University. Seoul National University actually. He cried so much when he got the acceptance letter, Hoseok said."
"It's the best one in South Korea! I've always known he was that clever."
"About your idol life?"
"He does. He's known for two months though."
"Yeah, he wasn't the type to follow the music industry before."
"He had a panic attack shen he saw your face on tv for the first time." Jeongguk's face fell at Yoongi's brutal honesty. "Why? Is he okay? What-"
"He's fine now... Well kind of. The shock I guess. He never forgot you.
"WHAT? He saw me on stage? When? Why?" Jeongguk asked frantically.
"Ugh your we're promoting Euphoria, the show champion I
"I didn't know... I didn't notice."
"Of course you didn't see him. He was all hidden with a big ass mask. He didn't want you to recognize him." "Why? Am I still not worthy of the sight of him?"
"Yeah, he even follows your career now, he keeps asking me if you're fine and how your comeback is going, if you sleep enough or eat enough. Seriously I can't believe he's that whipped after five years."
"I just.. I can't belie-"
"He still cares."
"I don't think he's ever stopped. Now come, we're going to my place."
"What? No we're not coming back at Hoseok?" Jeongguk asked confused. He couldn't care less about which spare room he was going to sleep it, but Hoseok's place
"No, not while Taehyung is still there. He needs to rest, and I don't think he wants to face you."
"You keep saying that! Really it's hard to think it's not because he has something against me."
"You're the most stubborn little sh*t ever Guk.
"Uh... Wait why was he unwell? Is he sick?"
"Physically he's fine.
"No more buts. And since you're not angry at him anymore I did my job." Yoongi said as they arrived in front of his apartment complex, gesturing Jeongguk to go ahead.
Jeongguk thought that Hoseok was a sunshine, except when it came to dance. In the studio, he was a monster. But he was right, ever since he saw Taehyung a few days ago
When Jeongguk missed once again a crucial part of the choreo, Hoseok had enough.
"Out. Everyone out, except you Jeongguk. We need to talk."
"Uh... You know what's going on." Jeongguk said shyly.
"Is it about the songs you wanted to add last minute to your mini album perhaps?"
Jeongguk bit his lips. Touché.
"Use your words, I'm not going to judge you, never."
"I just.. it's Taehyung."
"Of course it is, it's always been him isn't it? What's wrong?"
"I want to see him. Please hyung let me see him."
"Are you asking for permission or something ?
"I won't answer that." Jeongguk pouted. "I don't know I need to see him, I've been restless."
"You're not mad anymore aren't you?" Hoseok still asked.
"Off your heart? Really?" Hoseok laughed.
"Stop laughing! I'm being honest."
"I know I know. So...
"Are you for real? Yes of course I will! Seriously hyung?"
"Mmh." Hoseok nodded.
"Oh my God yes now call everyone back. And practice hard."
"YES ALWAYS!" Jeongguk said.
So when Jeongguk first had the
He didn't want to storm out though, so he went to the counter and ordered a hot chocolate, just for the sake of
"Jeongguk! Come on!"
"Come Mina, I missed
"How are you?" He asked, concerned. She was in the top group from JYP, and the bastard never let her rest. It took a toll on her a few months ago, so he keeps worrying.
"I'm letting you go now I'm going to see my girls. Text me the details for the date okay? Love you." She said as she pecked his lips and left the bench to walk away
Jeongguk smiled to himself, happy that she was feeling better.
His shift just ended and he was getting out with Wheein, talking about the night out they planned tonight. He just got out by the front doors when his heart stopped beating at the sight. Jeongguk, his Jeongguk was there.
Taehyung couldn't tear his gaze away from Jeongguk, who,
Jeongguk felt euphoric at first, because there he was. Taehyung. But when he saw the sad look on his eyes he frowned. And he realized what Taehyung just witnessed.
"Let's go Wheein." Taehyung said, beginning to move to leave. He didn't know why. He felt like he
She was everything he couldn't be and they seemed so close
He did this to himself, thinking that random tweets were for him.Thinking that maybe things could go differently. What a fool. He didn't matter in Jeongguk's life anymore.
But he wanted to. That's why he was hurting.
"Taehyung?" He asked, unsure. Taehyung seemed like he wanted to leave but his friends kept him from doing so, holding his arm firmly.
"Taehyung stop you're hurting me." She said as he stopped
He turned to face Wheein and whispered something quite long in her ear. She nodded and squeezed his shoulder, before glancing at Jeongguk and leaving.
They were alone now.
Jeongguk had no words.
"I really need to stop trying
"What do you mean?"
"Let's get out of here."
"Where do you want to go?"
"I... Uh. I don't live far away from here? And honestly I feel like crying so I'd better not do it in a public
"Let's go then, I can't stay outside for too long too. I don't need paps and fans chasing us right now." Jeongguk stated. But he was super excited as well, because he just got invited to Tae's place.
"Come on then."Taehyung
Taehyung waited a few minutes before asking "who told you?"
"Who told me what?"
"Where I work."
"Uh.. Hoseok hyung. Please don't blame him I
"I wasn't going to.. I'd rather thank him forever." Taehyung said, shyly looking at the ground. He seemed amused though, and when Jeongguk followed his gaze, he saw that their shadows in front of them looked like they were holding hands.
Jeongguk on the other hand was shamelessly staring at Taehyung, after all those years he could see him again.
"Don't apologize for that! I really don't care. I'm just glad you're letting me in." Jeongguk replied.
"You don't like it I know.. I'm fine though
"I.. I really can't believe you came here." Taehyung said.
"Why? You knew I was still around. You came
"Seeing you anonymously from afar is far from meeting you Guk. Wait can I call you Guk? It's been so long."
"I've never denied you anything Tae, and I'm not going to start now."
Taehyung was thankful he wasn't drinking anything because he probably
"Jeongguk I.. I am sorry. I am so sorry for what I did to you. I wish I had an excuse,
"Tae... I know. I know you didn't mean it, I know you've suffered because of it
"I really do. I promise. But don't do this ever again, man it hurt like a bitch."
"No... no never. I'm not a child anymore and well I can't promise you I won't make any mistakes. But thank you Guk. It means
He stopped staring though, didn't want to look like a total creep.
"You mean when I fell?" Taehyung said directly.
"Didn't Yoongi tell you everything already?" Taehyung teased.
"He told me a lot, I want to hear it from you.
"You didn't owe me anything Guk, especially after the way I acted. You still don't owe me anything right? You don't have to be here if you don't want to."
Not me. Taehyung thought but will never say.
"It's a long story."
"I've got all night Tae." Jeongguk whispered, getting cozier on the sofa and grabbing a pillow to cuddle it.
"Uh.. So they waited until I was healed and they told me that I had to leave to Japan."
"To undergo a psychological
"I said no of course, so they basically kicked me out, cut out my ressources and that's all. I've never heard from them then. Sucks because I needed their money to get re-education
"All of your friends?" Jeongguk asked, remembering the bitches Tae used to hang out with.
"But Tae he's the worse!"
"I know, but I wasn't strong enough to let him go. I.. couldn't. I know he's bad as a friend but I needed familiarity. It was awful enough to lose all of my dreams, the family that was supposed to just
"What?" Taehyung asked confused.
"Who was the love of your life?"
"You can't seriously be asking that."
"I just did? What's wrong come on tell me! You've seen my girl, Mina,
If Taehyung was going to say *you* a few seconds ago, now he absolutely wasn't anymore. His girl. Right.
"No one. It doesn't matter anymore! Stop talking about that. Tell me about you Guk. I want us tostart over."
"So we're going to be friends?"
"If you want us to be yes." Taehyung smiled at Jeongguk's obvious excitement. It only got better when Jeongguk started telling me everything about his career and how he started being a trainee. He carefully avoided what Taehyung
And maybe it was all going to be okay now.
His Jeongguk didn't change at all. He was still the
Jeongguk fell asleep in the sofa, while Taehyung was playing his game, bundled up in warm
Taehyung stopped playing when he heard the soft and regular breathes of the other. He just looked at him, feeling his heart swell.
Taehyung lifted his hand and cleared Jeongguk's forehead of the strands of hair sticking to his skin, massaging his scalp at the same time. Jeongguk let out a content sigh.
Taehyung needed to talk to someone, he couldn't stay like that.
2AM. Would Hoseok be up?
"Uh?" Seokjin asked from the sofa.
"I've been a shitty friends and I think I still am."
"Do you want to talk about it?" Namjoon asked getting up to sit next to his boyfriend.
"Why are we together?"
"Because we love each other? How is this related?"
"Did I hurt you? Like... Have I been a bad person to you?"
"To me? I don't think so. You've always been honest and I knew what I was signing up for. Why?"
"Have I ever been selfish with you?"
"I thought so too. But then
"Like I told him not stay in a relationship and that it'd ruin his career, and make him leave the company."
"Why did you do that?"
"I guess I saw myself in him."
"I never wanted to hurt someone but I guess I got jealous too. Of them having what I gave up on. I may have not hurt you Joon but I feel like I've really been immature
Namjoon gave him a dimpled smile and kissed his cheek.
"Thank you for that, but I don't think I'm the only one you should be apologizing too. Who's the kid
"Uh... His name is Taehyung. Kim Taehyung."
"Wait tall, lean, boxy smile, with a boy named Jeongguk?"
"Uh yeah. That one... Wait, Do you know him?"
"No, I know the ex-boyfriend. He's been pretty messed up after said break-up, he loved Taehyung with
"Yeah I kno,w that. At least he's got the perfect life now."
"I don't think you can call it perfect. He's been barely holding on."
"But he's successful? He has an army ( *wink wink*) of fans, endless money and
"He didn't. He doesn't love her the way he loved Taehyung. Hell, he wrote so many songs about Taehyung's smile but he never mentions Mina anywhere. I personnally think he just doesn't
"Clearly it's still important to him. It must be for Taehyung too. Do you want me to get you in contact with him? Hoseok hyung is still in contact with him."
"I think you're right. I'm going to try."
He'd wake up in a few minutes to wash his face and wear something else than Taehyung's clothes to greet him.
There, he found Jeongguk asleep, his phone in his hand. He must have been conversing late with his girlfriend, Taehyung thought. Biting his cheek, he approached
Taehyung left a little note on the coffee table, telling Jeongguk that he was free to eat and do whatever he wanted, but
"No don't. I already talked to him."
"Tae I hate to tell you this but..You can't stay like that."
"I agree. We never
"Yeah... I just it didn't feel right. No one felt right. Going to see other people."
"Don't look at me like that Hyejin... It was so perfect, so beautiful. I felt so in love and that boy, God knows he was my everything. I broke my everything."
"You know he's not the same
"I know I just... " He couldn't say it aloud.
"I think you felt guilt mostly. And nostalgia."
"Guilty? How come?"
"We know how Tae is when he messes up, or hurt someone. He feels guilt, and do everything to make it up. To erase his wrongs. He never had an oportunity to do so with Jeongguk."
"Tell us Tae."
"Uh... It just.. I felt like I owed it to him? Because he's been in pain because of me. So I should be too. And like... stay alone."
"But how did he seem when you met him? Mentally? Physically?"
"He was fine
"And what does he feel towards you? Hatred? Anger? Resentment?"
"No... He seemed genuinely happy to meet, catch up and hang out."
"So what did you guys agree to be?"
"And he, on his side, has a healthy love life.
"So as a friend, do you think he would want you to hold on an old story, that he already forgave you for, and stay stuck on him when he doesn't?"
"I'm going to move on from what we used to have."
"That's my baby!" Wheein said smiling and hugging tightly her friend. "Don't let yourself be eaten by the ghosts of your past Tae, you deserve a healthy
"Such a poet." Tae smiled.
She discreetly kissed him goodnight and left
He texted Mina to tell him he was safe,
He wanted to text Jennie, she would know what to do, but she was still promoting and right now probably sleeping, and Jeongguk knew more than anyone else how sleep was important these days.
He stayed on the sofa, clouded with
"Yeah I guess... went out with Mina.Who were you talking to?" Jeongguk said unsure.
"And that Taehyung, he's my Taehyung?" Jeongguk said looking at everything but Hoseok.
"He's the Taehyung you know yes, not really your Taehyung too." Hoseok chuckled.
"But... he was out with a friend he told me."
"Why? Why would he go in a date I asked him out first. He shouldn't have done that for someone he didn't even know."
"Guk? What's that?"
"I asked him first and he said no."
"He shouldn't have done it."
"Guk he has a life now, of his own, which doesn't revolve you anymore. You haven't been a part of it for years, he can make his own choices and do whatever he wants." Hoseok said.
"Plus, YOU went on a date with someone today as well, hell you literally have someone in your life. You're not making sense. Taehyung is your friend now, support him instead of being mad for small things like that."
"And I'm not blind."
"Ok maybe I am mad but not because Tae is dating. I just know I would've had a better evening if he was with me and it sucks that he had fun without me."
"Sure it's not about Tae." Hoseok chuckled.
"Yeah you know how it is. I can't even blame her because she's so fragile at the moment, but I feel like she cares more about having someone to hold on to, rather than me you know? Like as if any person would do."
"Yeah I thought that.. but time passed and now the only thing that matters is her, and fuck I shouldn't say that. She's not well of course she matters."
"Hey it's okay. Talk to her about it
"Yeah.. but maybe after her comeback."
"You know you barely see each other when her group is promoting."
"Then after her promotions? I don't know I'll talk to her at some point. That whole dating thing was better with-"
"I still can't believe you've been friends with Taehyung for so long and never told me. Plus, I'm still waiting for the day Park Jimin will show up out of nowhere and call me a junkie.
"What? But Taehyung said he was still around him? so I figured he was still around you."
"Not at all. Jimin became... or maybe he's always been really toxic and the way he's been treating Taehyung
"Why has Jimin become like that? They used to be so close."
"I really don't know. Jimin isn't close to anyone except Joon's boyfriend, and surprisingly the boyfriend is kind and mature." Hoseok frowned.
"Yeah, I did. He's Kim Seokjin. Used to be Tae's teacher as well, before Tae stopped dancing. He didn't tell me, I just stalked." Hoseok shrugged.
"Twitter. They still follow each other and stuff."
"Jimin is verified you think?"
"yeah I think so"
"Found him! He is verified. He's handsome too. Why do evil people look handsome?"
"Maybe Taehyung doesn't know?"
"He should? They're following each other on Twitter but maybe Tae has never seen the tweets."
"What's Tae's twitter?"
"I'm not giving that to you."
"Pleeeease, hyung, we're friends he
"I can go through Jimin's following list then. It's small. Or Yours. Skinny ratios and stuff."
"You're a child."
"Ask Taehyung directly. At least it's going to give you a reason to text him, I know you've been dying to text him."Jeongguk smiled at that.
"I told you? My friend from Uni. Her." He showed her one of her picture on Instagram.
"Oh I know her! I saw her with Taehyung."
"They're best friends."
"Really? Like she's a good person?"
"And Hyejin right?"
"Yes. You're surprisingly interested."
"Well if I start to hang out with Tae I need to know his friends too."
"Are you happy about that?"
"About what precisely?"
"Getting close to Taehyung.
"Yes I am, really. I feel like.. he's always had a place in my heart you know? And his absence made it like there was always something missing, beyond the pain of what he's done. But now that I forgave him I'm happy to be close to him again.
"Yep. He even has your notifications on, kinda though you were talking about him the last time you
"What did he say? Why didn't you tell me before? Like if I tweet now he'll receive it?"
"Yes Jeongguk that's how notifications work."
"He won't see it I told you he was sleeping."
"Then he'll see it in
Hoseok watched Jeongguk focus on his phone, his tongue between his lips in concentration. Hoseok turned on his phone to see what the other decided to tweet.
He flicked through his phone, not wanting to bother Jin
He went through Twitter to occupy
He logged into Instagram and
So he cried. He cried in the back of a suv, alone, and miserable. He sobbed so loudly even the driver looked at him weirdly but he didn't care, he needed this. He needed to open his eyes and let his emotions take over, and maybe, like
*Hyung... have you found someone for me? You said I needed help. I agree.*
It made him happy, seeing Jimin willing to change.
When the tweet loaded, Taehyung had to scrub his eyes. Jeongguk told Taehyung, in front of his millions
Did he KNOW that he had his notifications ? Or WORSE do Jeongguk know his twitter account? The one where he's always ranted too many personal things? Taehyung scrolled through the replies, mainly of fans asking who tf was this Tae
His knee itched, and more than ever he felt the huge scar burning, reminding him the surgery.
After two hours, he was still waiting.
Jeongguk lifted his head, and his eyes widened seeing his hyung half running towards him.
"Yeah but... I had to come here to fix something."
"Dispatch caught me with Mina, we had to make a deal quickly to avoid a scandal."
"Oh shit, I'm sorry."
"It's fine.. We dodged a bullet but I should have been
"It's alright, a dating thing wouldn't affect your career, and BigHit's chill with it."
"Mina's not though, she has that cute and innocent image to preserve you know it. It was a hassle, Dispatch wanted
"It's okay. So who did you send to Tae? Yoongi?" Hoseok asked as they headed outside.
"Uh.. no one? I was going to head there now."
Hoseok stopped walking.
"You didn't send anyone to check up on him?"
"I- no? I texted!"
"I'm coming with you!"
"He probably waited for you while going through an emotional crisis, I don't think that's a good idea."
"He needed a friend and you weren't there Guk. You messed things up." Hoseok said as he
"No Tae... He should've told us. I would've been there earlier."
"No hyung I'm fine, I keep having issues and I don't want to bother anymore. Look, I managed just fine alone!"
"Your hands are still shaking Tae. And you will never be a bother,
"I don't want you tonmiss work because of me and my antics."
"I care way more about you than my job Tae. Never doubt that." Taehyung chuckled sadly.
"That's not what Jeongguk think though."
"I shouldn't ask that much of him, we're barely friends."
"No Taehyung, he said he would be there for you and he failed you. Don't look for excuses."
"I just felt like shit because I miss dancing and.. yeah. I can't do it anymore so I felt bad in my body you know?"
Hoseok ran his fingers through Taehyung's hair, knowing that it was a soothing gesture for him.
"You know I can't. My knee wouldn't handle a single pirouette."
"Have you tried or are those just assumptions?"
"Hyung... My knee hurt when I walk for too long. I will never be able to dance like I used to."
"Do you think it would work?"
"I'm not sure, but yeah I do."
"Stop with that!"
"If your fans can call you that, I'm allowed too."
"No you're not."
"I was the first golden in the fanbase, excuse you."
"Shut up." He waid chucking.
"Are you okay?"
"Come here." she patted her shoulder and Guk leaned on her.
"I am a constant
"Well that's a lot of things we've got to work on. Take that." She handed him a warm drink. "Not coffee don't worry." He muttered a thanks.
"I don't know, I.. like nothing changed between us, we still meet up and text a lot but it's more what we do and talk about you know?"
"What do you mean?" She asked, but Jeongguk felt
"Why don't you like her? You told me but it doesn't add up."
Jennie hesitated. "I told you, we were into the same guy."
"You wouldn't hate her for that."
"I don't hate her, I dislike her."
"Still, you don't usually care about that."
"I know you wouldn't lie, but hiding the truth isn't much better Jen."
"I don't want to interfere in your relationship, she's not a bad person
"Really? Forbidding me? As if I would've listened to you."
"You totally would've. I am wise and older than you."
"You're not older that much!"
"Don't care. So yeah I would've, but she's just.. how can I say it."
"Baby what? Why are you crying?"
"Mnot baby. It's.. she didn't change at all. Still self centered, still... suffocating.
"She never will Guk. She's probably really attached to you, because of the attention you give her. But she's never going to
"But then our relationship will be a failure."
"And? It's fine, you're young.
"You really think I should end things?"
"Do you love her?"
"Do you love her as a person loves their lifetime partner?"
"I think so?"
"Do you love her
Jeongguk's heart missed a beat.
"So now for your sake and hers, end things. I'll tell her bandmates and her managers to look out for her, she may be fragile but you're not falling with her."
"But I don't think I'll ever love
"You said love. Not loved."
"Guk listen, you've been a dick to him today. I don't know what is going on inside your heart and your brain but I do think it's a pretty mess. Don't do anything to Taehyung right now.
"I'll break up with her."
"It's good Guk, it's fine. You can still care for her as a friend if you care that much."
"No, it's just.. I'm just wondering if I ever loved her as.. a lover. I.. when we kissed it was more comfortable than loving I guess. And like when we fuc-"
"Oh god no, no. Don't continue." she laughed, pushing Jeongguk playfully.
"I did, I keep on making stupid mistakes."
"You're allowed to make mistakes, it doesn't mean that you're a disappointment, don't think
"He's allowed to. Was he mad because of Tae?"
"Then he should be. You, here, made a mistake."
"And what should you do when you make a mistake?"
"Yes. And apologize. You forgot about
"How can I make it better?"
"Act like you feel, Guk. Pretty words mean nothing if you do the opposite. Go see him, stay with him, be the friend you're supposed to be, because
"How do you know that?"
"Talked to Yoongi oppa before you arrived."
"What did he say?"
"Nothing. So is everything sorted out?"
"Uh.. I'll break up with Mina, I'll apologize and make everything right to Taehyung and stop being
"That's my bunny!"
"I'm not a fucking bunny!" Jeongguk said as he surged forward and tackled Jen on the ground. She fakes being injured and hit him as revenge, but they grew tired eventually and stopped playing like children.
"Do you think you'll ever stop loving Jongin?" Jennie didn't reply at first, still staring at the sky.
"Do you think you ever stopped loving Taehyung?" She whispered.
"When he went out with that guy I didn't like it."
"Fucker. Let Taehyung live."
"I know I know. I try!"
"Mmh. Yeah that's why I really wanted to avoid the Mina thing."
"I really want to see him now."
"He probably doesn't want to see you."
"What? But you said you were clear."
"I made my schedule clear for you idiot, it's fine I'll drink coffee. Now go to bed too, and think of a way to make it up to Tae.
"Look who showed up."
"I told you I'd be there!"
"Not the first time you did."
"Tae..." Jeongguk pouted.
"It's okay I was kidding. Come, the elevators are that way."
He didn't have the balls nor the time to find out because they arrived at their floor and
When they arrived in front of the specialist's office, Taehyung stopped walking but didn't knock.
"He's going to tell me my knee is fucked and I shouldn't force it."
"Maybe. Or maybe he's going to tell you that it's fine, that you can go. No matter what happens, you will be fine.
Taehyung looked at Jeongguk
"Yes Tae. I'm here for you now. I'm sorry I couldn't be before, but now you're stuck with me."
Taehyung chuckled and pulled Jeongguk in for a hug. His arms were around his neck and he tried to stop sobbing. Why was he crying? Of happiness
"Kim Taehyung?" An unknown voice interrupted the hug. Taehyung looked at the open door and saw the orthopedist he had an appointment with. He excused himself, bowed,
Once they were outside, they were both smiling. According to the tests, Taehyung would be fine, only had to see a physiotherapist if he felt pain
Jeonggguk jumped at the sound, and unlocked his car when he saw that it was Tae. The latter sat on the passenger seat.
"Guk what is happening?"
"I- I don't know? I-"
"Hey calm down, please don't freak out. What is that article about?"
"I was just having fun with Jen? Like we always do, we're not dating..."
"Yeah but? I don.'t know I didn't have my phone on the whole day."
Realization hit Taehyung.
"Oh my God it's my fault."
"What? What no Tae you did
"Guk come here" Taehyung said opening his arms.
"There are so many reasons to like you as an artist so don't start doubting yourself, you're amazing, talented and hardworking.
"I should.. text my manager? or text Jennie first. Oh my god her manager must be so mad she's still on a dating ban. But what am I going to" he was interrupted
"No! I'll call BigHit first. They shouldn't mind that much I'm free to date, I'm more worried about Jennie and my... fans."
"Call your manager and then Jennie alright? I don't really
"Okay. You are staying right?"
Thinking about that, he quickly texted Hoseok and Yoongi to tell them that Jeongguk was with him and that he was okay.
"So?" "As I said.. they don't mind. But the losses are still there, many people cancelled tickets for my next fanmeeting. It's bad. But they said I could just post something on social medias and they'd release a statement similar to YG's.
"Jeongguk if it's too much you know you can just turn off your
"Tank you Tae, really. I- I need to call Jen."
She picked up immediately, Taehyujg could hear her through the phone, asking if he was okay, and saying
She laughed sadly. "It's fine Guk, well it's not but I guess I'm used to it now. Not the first male idol I've dated"
They agreed on both releasing tweets to calm the angered fans, along with their
"How do I tweet that *yo this girl is ma friend*?
"Yeah like I need to clear things."
"Wait until Jennie does it then improvise? I never had to worry about millions of people watching ly tweets."
"Well since I know that you've got my notifications on I'm always worried." Jeongguk
"It's fine I like to know that somehow, you care." Taehyung softened.
"Of course I do."
"I should give you my private account to follow, so you can see what I
"Are you sure? That's commitment."
"Yeah I'm sure, I want you in my life forever now so I'm not afraid of commitment."
"You're too good with words"
"That's why I ended up writing songs, genius."
"You're annoying Guk."
"You know you are, so-"
"Show me" Taehyung bent over to look at Guk's screen.
"I guess. Do you mind if I go out for this?"
"No no Guk it's your car I'll leave."
"No stay, it's cold. I'll be back."
Jeongguk left the car and called Mina. He was expecting a scene
She listened to him though, through her sobs she agreed to go to her company's building and sort everything out.
"Then come, sleep at mine."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course come."
They were sat on Taehyung's bed, and Tae made some tea for Guk.
"I figured... I'm sorry."
"I broke up with her."
"I.. too much. Everything's too much. I just had two dating scandals in one night, BigHit's stocks just dropped a little, I get so much hate. It's too much."
He took out his phone without disturbing his friend and checked Twitter and Naver. Jungkook was still in the trends, in many articles and tweets.
He could still read many negative reactions about Guk, and Mina.
"What is it? Am I that ugly up front?"
"Am I dreaming?" Jeongguk said groggily, his eyes half opened. Taehyung smiled.
"No silly. Slept well?"
"Yeah. Wanna sleep more though."
They stayed in the double bed, and Taehyung wanted to ask what Jeongguk wanted to do now.
They were interrupted by Taehyung's ringtone. He looked at his phone screen and saw Yoongi's ID. He muttered *Yoongi* to Jeongguk, the latter nodded.
"Hi hyung?" Taehyung greeted.
"Are you still with
"Put me on speaker" Taehyung did do.
"Guk... are you okay?"
"Yeah hyung. Could be better but it's alright."
"I just went out of a meeting with the CEO and some shareholders..."
Taehyung felt Jeongguk shivering. He put a blanket over him
"And they decided to put you on hiatus... Basically your comeback is postponed until further notice and they advanced their plans for their new boy group's debut. I'm sorry Guk, I had no say in this."
"Why?" Jeongguk's voice cracked.
"You know how fragile
"It's not definitive right?"
"Of course not. You're still our biggest asset Guk. It's just about making your reputation right again. Fuck I'm really sorry Jeongguk, you didn't deserve that."
"Don't be sorry hyung."
"You really broke up
"Yeah I did.. on the phone, like a coward."
"You're not a coward Guk, you're way braver than anyone I know. Except Taehyung, that dude is the Rock." Jeongguk finally laughed.
"Anyway I have to go, I'll tell Hoseok that you're fine, bye kids."
"Bye hyung!" Tae
"What does it mean?"
"It means that I won't do shit until the company tells me I'm coming back..." Jeongguk said, lowering his head.
"But.. you can still like write songs and produce and dance right?"
"Yeah I guess, but I'll have nothing scheduled."
"But I can't take a break, I have fan and they-"
"Will understand that you're a human and that you need to recover from what just happened."
"But people will say tha-"
"We don't care Guk. What's important is you. They don't know you."
"Okay... Yeah I wanted to do the dance cover thing for them already!"
"See, and if you're that bored I'll hire you in my café."
"You will help me and dance with me."
"I don't know how to dance!"
"Of course you do, but we'll work it out together? Okay? At Hoseok's dance studio."
"You really want to mock me don't you?"
"Yeah totally. So?"
"Pinky promise?" Jeongguk lifted his hand, his pinky out. Taehyung chuckled.
"Pinky promise." He linked their fingers.
After that, Jeongguk seemed less troubles, and he was. A weight lifted off his chest. He was going to be fine.
There, Bogum stood with flowers in his hands and a big smile on his face.
"Hello Taehyung. You.. aren't ready. Did you forget?" Bogum said, amused. Taehyung was wearing an oversized hoodie and some sweatpants. "I did... I am so sorry. Uh. I have a friend over and he's been
"It's fine Tae. Take them", Bogum said, giving Taehyung the flowers.
"They're beautiful, thank you."
"Probably" Taehyung giggled.
"I still think you are" Bogum said fondly. "I understand for your friend, I hope he'll get better."
"Could we go out another day? Soon? Like Tomorrow?"
"Eager are we?
Taehyung hugged Bogum goodbye and the older man left, not even mad that Taehyung bailed out.
Taehyung smiled looking at the flowers.
"Do you need anything?" Tae asked.
"You had a date today?"
"I invited you over, and I won't leave you alone. We're going out
"I don't know actually, last time I was the one who decided so it'll be a surprise."
"Do you...have fun?"
"Yeah, he's amazing." Jeongguk noticed the happy way Taehyung smiled.
"You like him?" Maybe Jeongguk's voice cracked, and maybe Taehyung
"Too early to say Gukkie. But I think I could."
Jeongguk didn't reply anything, so Taehyung gripped his arm and lead us back to the room, where they were cuddling. Taehyung wanted to grab his phone but Jeongguk didn't let him.
"Hyung? Come!" He let the older in. Hoseok spotted Jeongguk on the couch eating ramyuns, they were eating diners.
"You haven't checked your phone?"
"No? not since Yoongi hyung called."
"Sit... I have to tell you something, and then we'll have to go straight to BigHit."
"Right now?" Jeongguk asked.
"Yes, right now, something leaked Guk. It's bad."
"We did, but we couldn't control everyone, I'm sorry."
"Oh my God my career won't survive a drug scandal, I'm over. I can't. Fuck why did I do that?"
"Guk please, it's going to be fine!" Taehyung tried to reassure him
"It blew up so people also started lying saying that you went to jail, stuff like that. Regarding the lies,
"So I'm fucked? For real? It's not a hiatus it's an end."
"I... have an idea. That's why I wanted to talk before we leave."
"What is it?"
"What?" Guk asked.
"She's a snake. Stopped talking to me after my parents disowned me..."
"Don't you think you can convince her
"I don't know... I don't have a way to contact her anymore. But Jimin probably does
"Oh no, I can't let you contact Jimin Tae, not after everything he's done to you." Jeongguk said determined.
"Jeongguk..." Hoseok started. "Jeongguk is right he put you through too much."
"I'm not letting this
They left for BigHit in Hoseok's car, Jeongguk and Taehyung pressed closed in the back seat because Taehyung didn't want to leave Jeongguk alone.
Once they were inside, Jeongguk's managers took him to a meeting
Lost in the comments, he didn't hear the fancy car stopping in front of him.
"She knows I am coming." Jimin explained.
When they entered the elevator, Taehyung realized how expensive and posh the building she lived in was, he wasn't surprised though. Her parents were chaebols.
"She's working for a fashion magazine now."
"Good for her I guess?"
Roséanne opened the door, beautiful as always. She smiled upon seeing Jimin but her eyes widened when she saw Taehyung.
"Hi Chae." He replied.
"I don't... Can I offer you something to drink?"
Jimin and Taehyung looked at each other, questioning whether they should play friendly or not.
"Do you happen to have tea?" Jimin smiled.
"Yes, I'll be back."
"Not that I am complaining, you've been avoiding brunch Jimin. And Taehyung.. I never thought I'd see you again. "
"Well after you blocked my number and told me not to talk to you
"Yeah.. I was stupid I'm sorry."
"Are you really?"
"Guys please. Tae, not the momen" Jimin pleaded.
"What do you need me for?" Roseanne finally said.
"Oh... yeah I saw something funny about her high school years. It gave me tons of followers. Is that why you're here?" She raised an eyebrow.
"Yes. What you tweeted, it harmed Jeongguk, terribly."
"I have no compassion for people
"He doesn't deserve that."
"Maybe, honestly I don't care."
"Chaeyoung, please, delete your tweets. Say you were lying, he can loose everything because of that." Jimin said.
"Why do you only think about yourself?" Jimin asked.
"As if you weren't the most selfish person too. You used people."
"I.. I changed."
"Your loss. I won't damage my reputation for an idol."
"Chaeyoung...It goes beyond
"At least they know the truth now! Seriously stop." She raised her voice.
"He's never been like that. More than half the things you knew
"How would you know that? And why do you care so much?"
"Because I was his boyfriend. In high school. And now we're friends. That's why I care." She looked at him as if he grew a second head.
"What ? Oh my god
"Is that the reason why you despised him? Because he dated your crush?"
"Roseanne no, please." Jimin pleaded.
"What?" Taehyung asked."What do you mean?"
"You never told him Jimin?"
"No. Please don't he doesn't have to know."
"What are you talking about?"
"About something Jimin kept hidden. Do you know he used to be the one spreading the rumors about Jeongguk? It was all fun but now I get it Jimin, you wanted him to hurt."
"Aren't you too doing things to hurt him?"
"I am not!"
"Are you trying to concince yourself or me?"
"Please stop arguing.." Taehyung was feeling hopeless. How was he going to convince Chaeyoung to delete the tweets
"Alright Jimin, you know what? If you think you're so clear, if you tell Taehyung AND your parents the truth about you, then I'll delete, say I lied and apologize."
"I won't be the only one losing something then."
"What do you have to tell Jimin?" Taehyung asked.
"I- I can't"
"Then poor Jeongguk will suffer. You're so selfish."
"WHAT IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?" Taehyung exploded.
"Jimin? What is it?"
"I.. You will hate me."
"Don't I already?"
"Oh so? You guys parted ways? Poor Jimin. Did everything to have Taehyung for himself and ended up alone."
"What? Jimin please."
"Do you want me to delete the tweets Jimin? Jungkook is losing fans and money, you must act."
"I... I was in love with you. Still am. I- Didn't know what to do."
"What the fvck?" Taehyung was in disbelief.
"I was in denial because I didn't want to be gay and... I loved you so much"
"It's true! I-"
"Yeah it's true. He always whined about you when you weren't there." Chaeyoung said.
"I did everything I could to prevent you from dating anyone but you did with Jeongguk and at first I really hated him that's why I... ruined his image
"Jimin.. What the fvck."
"He was proud of it, if I
"You ruined...I- What the.. Oh my God. Because you loved ME?"
"I did... Taehyung I'm sorry."
"That's why you feel guilty now? Want to have a clear conscience?"
"No I'm genuinely sorry..."
"What did you do next Jimin?"
"I'm the one
"Why? Oh my.. Jimin."
"I am sorry."
" STOP SAYING THAT."
"So Jimin? Is Jeongguk worth losing Taehyung again?"
"Personal satisfaction. It annoyed me to know you were still close and his plan worked. Plus Taehyung, you didn't really deserve what happened to you."
"Drop it Taehyung. Delete the tweets." Jimin said.
"I am not done. You need to come out to your parents as well."
"No! They'll drop him. He can't!"
"I don't really care. Your parents might drop you. I might lose my job. So?"
"But they will leave you, like they left me."
"It's fine, I'm an adult. I can survive by myself. I- will call them."
"Jimin... No one should tell you when to come out
"You never had a choice Taehyung. I participated in making your life a living hell, Jeonggk's too. I decided to get help you know? To stop everything, it's fine really." Jimin said. He didn't seem fine bur he dialed
Taehyung was feeling so awful. Jimin... Jimin loved him. Jimin was jealous. Jimin did the worse things to Jeongguk. But Jimin was crying, Jimin didn't hesitate to help. Could he ever make up for what he did?
"Why not? I told you, I got plenty of new followers and ton of attention, my company values this kind of media presence."
"You're not getting the good exposure
"Mmh. Right, but still."
"I was angry, I used to be. But it was five years ago and honestly I'm tired of living with hatred, even more now that he's basically losing his family."
"Maybe, maybe not, I'll talk to him later. He's doing everything you asked, so do your part now."
"Chill, I will." She said grabbing her phone. "So I delete, apologized, said I lied and photoshopped the picture?"
"They won't fire me for a Twitter incident, plus it's not like I need to work anyway, I'm an heir. I got something way better, I never thought I'd see Jimin this devastated." She laughed. Taehyung's heart dropped.
Jimin came back, his eyes red and his nose running. Tae was going to speak but Jimin shook his head and sat down silently. His hands were trembling and his breathing irregular.
"Good, we're leaving." Taehyung said, tugging Jimin's arm. Jimin got up without a word and left the flat. Taehyung wanted to follow but Chaeyoung grabbed his wrist. "Wait."
"What is it? We've done what you
"I wanted Jimin to suffer because of everything he's done, not you."
"You hurt the one I care the most about. You made me suffer too."
"But Jimin has been nothing but a-"
"I wasn't talking about Jimin. Either way, you had no right."
"Stop this bullsh*t, you decided to cut ties, don't put the blame on life or fate. We were friends but I was blind to your real persona. I saw it tonight."
"Jimin is a d*ck, he deserved it."
An angry old man™️ huffed and asked "And how are you so sure of that? The stocks are STILL dropping. -16% in an evening!"
"The dating scandals are going to, Jungkook isn't dating anyone at the moment so the
"Did you forget that Golden boy was a drug addict and a fvcking criminal?"
The legal team employee was about to talk when the CEO came to Jeongguk's defense.
"Stay respectful please. He isn't a criminal, his record
"Actually there is no need to prove it."
"What do you mean sir?"
"The root of the drug rumor, the tweet from the former classmate, has admitted her lie, deteled everything and even praised Jungkook and apologized. Now, it needs to reach the general public."
"Will we ever get the public's appreciation back?"
Jeongguk was nervous. They managed to convince the witch to delete and apologized, but at what cost? Who in their right mind would throw themselves in the lion's den by admitting such a thing?
"We should go all out. A press conference would be good and get us some coverage, but we need to stop completely Jungkook's artistic activities.
"But I am already on hiatus!" Jeongguk spoke for the first time.
"We're cutting everything Jeongguk. You're not allowed to publish anything on your SNS anymore. You won't have any gigs.
"What? No! I said okay for the music but... I have to stay on social medias."
"It will only fuel the anger. No."
"But my fans! I can't... They will forget about me. They will abandon me."
"But I need to interact.. I need them too." Guk said softly.
"I think we should stick to the plan right now, and maybe reconsider it according to the public's reaction? Surely it won't have to be
"We will, Ms Kim. Jeonggukie, it's going to be okay, we're going to make the rumors disappear. But you have to be more careful with ylur relationship and the way you announce them in the future. Mina's CEO was furious, the dating scandal was a loss for them
"I- I know, it's.. I'm sorry." Jeongguk got up and bowed at 90° for all the people in the room, repeating sinceres apologies. Those people, he owed them his life right now, and he fvcked up. But he was going to listen to them now
"You can get out Jeongguk, we have to organize the press conference, go write a written apology. It will be your last Twitter post." Jeongguk nodded and went to the door. When he got out and ended up
The only person who wasn't talking was Jimin,
Namjoon was talking to Jeongguk now anyway, taking Guk's attention away from him.
He was a bit stressed because well, they weren't THAT close. They met several times and they really hit off well, she was nice and funny and Jeongguk liked her a lot, but she was intimidating too.
"Jeongguk! Hi!" She said directly.
"Hi Wheein, how are you?"
"Pretty good, you?"
"I'm good too." He said.
"Any reason why you decided to call in the middle of the night?"
"Uh.. yeah. Sorry for that, I guess. Yeah sorry. Uh. It's about Tae." Jeongguk confessed.
"I don't want to bother him, he must be busy."
"Why would he be busy?"
"He told me Bogum planned something..."
"Planned what?" She asked, curious
"That's what I need to know, what.. happened tonight?"
"Taehyung said Bog had to tell him something and he hasn't texted me ever since so I figured"
"You're right, but I think he would've liked it if you called him."
"Things didn't go that well tonight Guk, I can't tell you more
"What? Is he okay? What happened?"
"He's fine it's just that things are going to change, seriously I don't know what I can tell without invading his privacy it's frustrating. You should ask him directly." She hesitated.
"Guk, if I'm sure about something, it's that you would never ever bother Taehyung. Okay?" She said with fond eyes. "But if you want to confess you might want to wait a little bit, he's still confused and well, he still has a boyfriend.
"How-how do you know?"
"Know what? That you have feelings for him? I'm not blind, it's the way you act Jeongguk. I saw you fall for him with my own eyes these past months."
"He doesn't know, of course not. Things would have been different otherwise. But.. you did well Jeongguk. I know he means a lot to you, and seeing him with someone else must have been difficult but you didn't do anything against it.
"Okay wow. I might tear up. But.. did.. did he break up with Bog?
"Call him tomorrow Jeongguk and pick him up from the airport. He's still technically with Bogum but as I said, he needs some time." She smiled softly. "I need to hang up, I have an early shift tomorrow.
"I will, goodnight Wheein, thank you."
"Anything for you."
"Oh God... what" she answered with her eyes closed.
"I think.. wait no I AM SURE Jeongguk likes Taehyung. Or even loves. I don't know but he has
"What?" Hyejin opened her eyes and stared at a smiling Wheein.
"Yes!! he told me, he just called. he wanted to know what happened between Bo and Tae, I obviously didn't tell but oh my god"
"Did he really..."
"That's.. that's so romantic. How didn't I notice?"
"You're dense, you didn't notice my own feelings for you for like.. months."
"Are you ever going to drop that? I thought I was straight!" Wheein laughed.
"Alright I'll stop. But for real
"How do you even know Taehyung will reciprocate Jeongguk's feelings?"Hyejin asked
"It's just..I don't think Jeongguk ever left Taehyung's heart
Why couldn't Taehyung realize it before?
"Nice to see you Jeongguk!" Bogum said to the younger.
"Nice to see you too... hyung." Jeongguk said as Bogum whispered something in Tae's ear. Which he could perfectly hear.
"Why is he here?"
"What? No you didn't."
"I did hyung. Look... I promised."
"But we just landed, why can't we go both home and rest?"
"I am perfectly fine hyung, I missed my friend, so I'm going to spend some time with him.
"He thought I'd follow him after we land"
"Why didn't you?"
"Because you said you'd pick me up?" Taehyung asked confused.
"No buts, I missed you. I want to spend time with you, and he
"What do you mean by especially now?"
Taehyung bit his lip.
"He's.. leaving Seoul."
"He's going back to the United States."
"For how long? Are you leaving?" Jeongguk felt his heart beat in his chest, was Taehyung
"He's moving for good. And no, I am staying here Gukkie, you aren't getting rid of me this easily." Jeongguk finally breathed again.
"Fvck don't scare me like that again Tae. I thought you'd leave me."
"Sorry.. But I am not leaving you, never again."
"Yes never" Taehyung chuckled. "I'm staying here, I've never wanted to leave. It's home."
Jeongguk saw Taehyung looking at him fondly, and this, this made something warm erupt in his chest.
"I- do you want to go eat somewhere ?"
"Sure. Pick the place though."
"Tae, I have something to ask you."
"What is it?" the dancer asked with his brows furrowed. "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah it's just...
"Oh my God really?" Here it was, Taehyung's boxy smile, the one that made Jeongguk smile too.
"Yeah" Jeongguk laughed. "I'll be starting to work on the songs and concept soon."
"Guk that's amazing, it went by so fast."
"It is. Thanks to you though."
"What is thanks to me? You're the one Korea loves dummy."
"No I mean..
Taehyung hesitated for a split second before he grabbed Jeongguk's hand on the table and squeezed it.
And where was Bogum in
Tae saw Jeongguk seemed conflicted. He finally raised his head and looked at the dancer in the eye.
"Sorry I went over the top with my love declaration but.. I don't want you to be surprised, I'm really not kidding when I say that I want to stay in your life."
"Oh.. uh. Well you know I always work on my albums, concepts songs, designs and dances personally. And i want this one to be genuine, to be about me. No over the top fantasies. And uh.."
"Can you do it with me? Can you help me pick
"Jeongguk? Wh- Why me?"
"Because you're the one who knows me the most, who.. who loved you for who I was and I wan- I need to do this with you."
also i'm sorry i haven't been updating i was unwell
but apart from that do you guys like how the story unfolds? you can give criticism on curiouscat.me/suraneize 🥺
"Hi baby" Bogum said happily, squeezing Taehyung's hand in his own. It made Tae even more nervous.
"I'm great! How about you?"
"Great.. too. It's nice to be home."
"Yeah, I cleared my office today, and sent some stuff off to America."
"How the moving going?"
"Nicely. Everything is arriving and our flat will be ready by the end of the week."
"Bo.. you know I am not going right? You can't say 'our' like that."
"I know.. But I still hope you'll change your mind. I promise, Chicago is extraordinary. You'll love it there, plus even if you stay, you'll visit me often right?"
"Hyung I don't think it's a good idea."
"I don't think I can do it. The long distance thing. I don't think it's the solution."
"What... are you saying?" Bogum looked hurt. Congratulation Taehyung. You once again hurt someone.
"But Tae.. We could. We- We don't have to do this."
"Hyung, you made your choice and I made mine. Let's just break up and stay friends."
Taehyung saw Bogum swallowing and
"It's not just the distance, isn't it?" Bogum talked, weakly.
"What do you mean? Of course it's the distance."
"No... Like. Maybe you're just not attached to me enough? Is it it?"
"Liked? Do you even still like me? Because I love you Taehyung. I wanted us to build something." Ouch, the topic of love.
"You never asked me if I was okay
"You haven't answered me."
"You don't like me anymore?"
"I still do Bo,
"You can't love me."
"I can't. I'm sorry."
"Yeah... communication is key, as they say."
"You know I felt you slipping away ever since I told you the news but I wanted to be blind for once."
"Don't Tae, you've been honest and respectful, don't be sorry. It's gonna take me some time though. I honestly want to cry right now but we're in public so.."
"Nah it's fine. Just.. I'll leave. And for the friend thing. not now Tae, maybe when I'll get
"I couldn't give you what you wanted Bogum,it's not-"
"Taehyung, it's not your fault either. You were a wonderful boyfriend, you're an amazing person. The person you'll fall in love with
Taehyung chuckled sadly. Bogum was looking at his fingers, and his eyes were starting to get wet with unshed tears. He spoke again.
"I should go, you're in the middle of your shift. I'll- contact you. Later. Yeah"
"Bye Tae." Bogum hugged his ex boyfriend, stared at him for a few seconds and left the café in silence. Taehyung looked at the door
"Is he okay?" Wheein softly asked.
"He will be, I hope he will be." Taehyung felt guilty for breaking the other man's heart and their relationship, but somehow relieved. Bogum could leave in peace now.
"I can't, we're working, I- can I go to the staff room?"
"Yeah go, sure, go." She said, understanding.
She really did bring new shoes to try to cheer the other boy up, since they shared the same love for fashion. Jungkook didn't really say much to her, just that he just broke up with his boyfriend
She didn't question why Jungkook was not here already, even though, the two have
She bit her lip until Taehyung opened the door, surprised to find the idol.
"Jennie? What are you-"
"I could sense your sadness from miles away."
"Jungkook told you already?"
Taehyung laughed, he liked Jungkook's best friend.
"Do you want a coffee or something ?"
"Yeah actually, but only if you sit with me."
"Oh wait before we leave I have this for you!" She handed him the white bag, and he gaped when he saw the
"What the fvck?"
"Open it!" She said excitedly, showing off her gummy smile.
He did so, not wanting to make her wait. Gucci loafers. Expensive, beautiful and fancy Gucci shoes. The one he's been eyeing ever since they watched together Gucci's last fashion show.
He knew she wasn't just here to
"So... the tweet. What was it about? What did Gguk do?"
"How do you know it's him?"
"We both onlt know one dumbass Tae" she giggled.
"True. Our dumbass."
"Mmh." She smiled knowingly.
"Yes he did"
"Oh my God how did you take it?"
"I.. pretty bad at first, I was going to apologize..."
"But you barged in
She said as she regained her composure.
"Or should I send like a simple Haha? or haha. Or a ㅋㅋ?"
"Taehyung why are you asking me advice like a teenager
"Hey..." Taehyung pouted at his two friends.
"I think you said something too close to home Jen, didn't she Tae?" Wheein said.
"What? Uh. No! No."
"I-. No. I don't know. Jen I just got out of a relationship don't tease me." He pouted.
"Fine big boy. I'll just bother Wheein instead."
"You can't, I am happily and steadily married." She replied while making a cappuccino.
"Yeah... I feel lucky to have her."
"Gross." Jennie scrunched her nose. "Both of you found your soulmates at a young age a-"
"What do you mean both of us?"
"Exactly what I said Taehyung!"
"Seriously stop talking about Jeongguk that way it's really no-"
"No one said anything about Jeongguk Tae." Wheein cut him mid-sentence.
"Yes you did!"
"Nop. I didn't." Jennie and
"Speaking of Jeongguk, are we going to reply to his text or..?" Wheein asked after she served a client.
"We?" Taehyung cackled.
"Totally. So.. judging by his tweet about you he absolutely didn't mean any harm." Jennie spoke confidently.
"Yes he did. He always does. On his private account dummy, which I - just realized you have no access, and I might have screwed up." She said covering her mouth with her hand, her eyes almost popping off her head.
"It's a small account, to have a place to rant privately, I have one too... Maybe because he talks abour his fee- uh his very private emotions?
"But what.. does he say bad things? Did I do something wrong?"
"No! No fuck Taehyung no. It's all good things. Honestly he doesn't shut up abour how much you mean to him. Really. He'd even
"You bought me 3.000.000₩ shoes because of a tweet?"
"It's not about the price Tae,
Taehyung hugged her without hesitation for this.
"Thank you.. I'm so happy he has you
"Likewise" She said giggling as she tried to escape the boy's embrace.
"So.. what do we reply?"
"I vote for *Ok dumbass send me your @ on twt or I'll pout" Wheein said, laughing.
"He might actually do anything to avoid you pouting Tae so that might work!"
"Dude the haha is a big fat no. Don't." Wheein said as Jennie nodded.
He decided against it, and called Taehyung to tell him to meet him here instead
He started to clean his living room, even though it was already spotless.
"So, what are we doing?" Taehyung said as he threw himself on the couch.
"I don't know..." Jeongguk said as he sat down. Then got up.
"No I- I no" Jeongguk said as he sat down again. Just as he was about to tell Taehyung that they could think about a concept for the comeback, Doggy started whining. He wass locked in Jeongguk's room
"Nothing." And another bark could be heard.
"It's a dog." Taehyung said excitedly.
"It's the TV!"
"Then go turn it off!"
"Uh- yeah okay." Jeongguk stood up again.
He let his eyes wander around, he was used to the room but something on the coffee table intrigued him. Next to the laptop and a few music sheets was a black leather notebook,
"I did not know you had a dog Jeonggukie. Why didn't you tell me? I thought we were best friends." Taehyung said while rubbing the puppy's belly.
"What's his name? Or Her name? What do we have here?"
"He. He doesn't have a name yet."
"Why? You need to name him."
"I can't, he's not mine."
"Oh my god whose dog is that? Gukkie you didn't steal a dog, did you?" Taehyung was concerned
"You said you were sad and lonely and you're always saying how much you miss your parents dog so... It's too much isn't it?Oh sh"
"He is mine? Guk really?" Taehyung's mouth was wide open.
"You're welcome Tae, I'm.. happy you like him."
Taehyung got out of the warm embrace to look Jeongguk in the eyes. "Like him? Guk I adore him. I've wanted a dog for so long. Oh my God
Jeongguk's cheeks became redder by the second. Taehyung was so close, so happy, so beautiful. It wasn't fair.
He raised his hand, carefully, but he cupped his cheek instead. Taehyung didn't really understand, why was
"Gukkie.. what are you doing?"
"I- We should find a name. For the dog. I mean. Yeah a name."
Jeongguk said as he finally sat up, still shaken by what he almost did.
"Actually.. I've already like.. Tried to find names for dogs in case I ever had one."
"Really? Tell me."
"Yeontan. I think it's pretty. What do you think?"
"So do you like your name? Tan-ah? Do you like it?" Taehyung asked the puppy directly, who was finally happy with the attention he was getting.
"Seems like he does! Look Guk!"
"He's such a good boy, do you think he knows any tricks?"
"I don't know Tae, try some" Guk chuckled.
"I think I need to leave now..."
"What? why? You can stay here!"
"I have an early class tomorrow. I don't have my-
"No no don't apologize for that. You'll stay another time okay?"
"Yes obviously !"
"I need to give you Yeontan's papers and his stuff, I didn't get to buy him everything but maybe we could do that this week?"
"Thank you again Gukkie, it's the best gift ever."
"Better than Jennie's Gucci shoes?" Guk said teasingly.
"Yes, but don't tell her!"
"Noo don't worry. I value your head, I don't want her to cut if off"
When he looked for his lyrics book, he realized that he... gave it to Taehyung with the adoption papers. He was screwed.
In a way it would prevent Jeongguk from having to confess face to face.
Because let's be real, he just broke up with his boyfriend. He couldn't have feelings for him now, maybe not yet.
But... the songs he wrote for Taehyung, thanks to Taehyung for 5 years. They were so raw, so personal.
Taehyung could read each words he wrote about him, about his eyes and his laughter, the sound of his voice and the gold of his skin. He could know exactly when each one of them
He would read the last song he wrote about him, tonight. He would read the precious words he set down on the paper, while his heart swelled in his chest. The sweet *I love you*s he finally accepted to feel.
He was too tired to read anything about the dog for now, and it couldn't be anything too important. Jeongguk gave him some food, at least for today and tomorrow. So he just placed everything
The notebook he found earlier in Jeongguk's room. The one who had his name on it. Why was it here? Was it about Tan? Or.. ? He hesitated but grabbed it slowly. The leather cover
It seemed too old to be about the 6-month-old puppy.
Immediately, Taehyung grabbed his phone and opened his message thread with Jeongguk.
"Gukkie... I don't know what I should expect from this at all and... I don't know what is going to happen and I'm honestly really stressed right now. So.. what is it? Why was it with your guitar
"You sure have a lot of questions." Jeongguk said, smiling because Taehyung looked so cute right now.
"It's the book where I've been writing all of my songs a-"
"But you have other lyrics books Gguk!"
"Let me finish, it's...
"You- you wrote songs about me?"
"I was pretty fond of you, if you didn't realize it." Jeongguk chuckled. He's really doing this right now.
"Open the first pages."
Jeongguk tried to study his face, his reaction. The pages he was reading now were the ones he wrote at 17, when they started dating. It was clumsy, maybe not that good and exploitable for a song.. but it was
Jeongguk saw Taehyung's eyes getting wetter with each words he read, and he couldn't help himself but cup Taehyung's cheek and catch a tear in its fall.
"Don't cry baby."
When he read the date he froze. The day he broke things off with Jeongguk in the worst way.
Taehyung swallowed the lumo in his throat and read more. For a few pages, he could read heartbreak,
When Jeongguk saw what Taehyung was reading, he didn't try to make him stop crying. He let his tears flow, because he felt himself starting to cry. He never liked seeing Taehyung sad.
"I'm sorry" Taehyung whispered, sincerely and quietly.
Even though they grew up, their hands still fitted perfectly together.
With a shaky breathe he turned the pages more. There, the intervals between each dates were longer. The songs became sentences and the
There were a lot of questions asked to Taehyung directly.
Wasn't I enough? Why did you break my heart? I would've changed for you. Are you finally happy now?
Reading this, dated a little less than a year ago, Taehyung could see that Jeongguk didn't feel anything
He came back to reality when he felt a pair of lips kiss his knuckles.
"Keep reading, Taehyung."
He kept turning the pages and reading until the date he waited for. When they reunited, a few months ago.
It wasn't resentful, it wasn't harsh. It was forgiveness and understanding. It was apologies
As he turned the pages, Taehyung couldn't believe what he read. It was friendship at first, songs about laughter and mutual affection.
Songs about confusion, because I have her but
Then it was loneliness, songs about feeling left out, then jealousy, with poems about how...it hurts, but Taehyung you seem happy with him.
Thankfulness then, because Taehyung, you helped me, saved me. You were always here for me. Taehyung thank you.
"J-Gguk.. what does it mean?" Taehyung's thoughts were
"Keep reading Taehyung. We'll talk after I promise but if you don't read it yourself, I don't think
"Tell me what?" Taehyung tried to look at Jeongguk but the latter was focused on the book. The book.
He turned the page. He recognized the date. It was.. during his trip to Jeju with Bogum. It didn't look like a song anymore, more like a page from a diary. Or maybe that's what the whole book was since the beginning.
Taehyung, stop leaving, please. Taehyung stay.
*Taehyung, I'm so happy you are back, I missed you so much.
Tonight. It looked so much like a date.
Taehyung, I think I like you but don't be mad, I can't really resist you.
It must sound cheesy
Taehyung was really trying to prevent himself from sobbing at this
It was songs again, about soulmates, about hearing bells and red strings of fates. How sometimes, you could only love one person all your
He arrived at today's date but he didn't even notice.
It was a few verses written shakily. Because Jeongguk wrote it sat on the sofa, the notebook on his knee, watching Taehyung play with the puppy in the living room.
A verse about a soul so beautiful, it could heal any broken heart, even the most damaged ones.
A verse about heart so big you couldn't help bit fall for it,
There was a small sentence written at the bottom. Less shaky than the rest.
*Taehyung. I am so scared but I am sure of myself now. I am in love with you. Again.*
When a tear escaped Taehyung's eyes and fell on the paper, it spilled the not-so-dry ink.
Taehyung couldn't really believe what he read so he read it once more, twice more, until he was sure he didn't imagine it.
He could hear Jeongguk breathing a little bit
Taehyung gathered the courage to look at the boy next to him. This beautiful boy, this perfect boy. The one he fell in love with five years ago, who loved him back, the boy whose heart he broke. This boy was in love with him now.
"Tae.. I understand if- no I understand that you don't feel the same. I get it it's normal, you're probably still like.. you know, not over Bogum but I- you needed to know. I'm really sorry honestly it's just-" Jeongguk struggled to find his words
Those eyes, so round and full of stars. Taehyung loved them so much, but his gaze
Stop doubting, Taehyung.
"Jeongguk.. please kiss me."
"I- Are you sure?" He asked.
Taehyung didn't answer. Instead, he tilted his head and leaned in, closing his eyes.
When their lips finally touched, Taehyung stopped worrying.
Then he closed his eyes too, and their lips started moving in sync. Jeongguk raised his free hand to cup Taehyung's cheek and deepened the kiss.
When they parted to breathe, they made their foreheads touch
"Guk.. I don't know what- I just." Taehyung was panting.
"You don't have to say anything Taehyung.I'll give you some time to think.. later. Can I kiss you again?"
Jeongguk smirked and pushed Taehyung on the bed, so his back collided softly with the matress. He heard the book fall on the ground but that wasn't his first priority right now.
He hovered above Taehyung and kept him close, between his arms.
Jeongguk laid on his back and tugged Taehyung so he could rest his head on his shoulder.
"Really?" Taehyung said as he hugged Jeongguk tightly.
"I don't think I'd have the balls to make you read that oh my god."
"You're honestly really brave. I would never have been able to do that."
"Confess to y-"
"Confess what baby?" Jeongguk smirked, even though Taehyung couldn't see him.
"Uh. I might. Like. Like you too. Not might. I do like you too."
"Mh?"Jeongguk hummed.He was so happy right now he could cry. Tae had feelings for
"I know it's not an I love you, but, it's.. not an I love you yet. I.. yeah."
"You're cute you know that?" Jeongguk said as he bumped Taehyung's nose.
"You're cuter." Taehyung muttered.
"You wrote songs about my smile so yes, you are cuter."
"Oh my God." Taehyung hid his face in the crook of Jeongguk's neck.
After a few seconds though, he started talking again, his voice a little muffled.
"What is going to happen now?"
"What are we,Jeongguk? I- don't
"Tae?" Jeongguk said as Taehyung left Jeongguk's warmth to sit up. Was he...?
"I know it's been a rollercoaster
Jeongguk sat up as fast as he could too. Holy Sht.
"Yes" Taehyung pouted.
"Yes Taehyung, I want to be your boyfriend." Taehyung surged and hugged him happily. But suddenly Jeongguk felt nauseous.
"What? what is it?"
"I really want us to be dating but..."
"But what?" Taehyung said, worried.
"I won't be able to give you what Bogum gave you. I.. will need to hide you, you know? I can't be dating someone in public, at least not yet. But
Taehyung looked at him softly.
"Don't apologize for that Gukkie, I don't care at all. As long as it's you and me, I don't mind. Don't compare yourself with
"But it will be difficult to go on dates outside and you won't be able to post anything about me and-"
"You want to take me on dates?" Taehyung smirked.
"Of course I want to! I want to go everywhere and
"Why are you giggling?"
"Because you're just as romantic as you used to be"
"Well it's your fault. Deal with it."
"Gladly Gukkie." Taehyung circled his arms around Jeongguk's neck and rested his head on the
"I don't mind not posting cheesy Instagram posts or having to wear a mask and a cap if we go out.I don't mind any of these because they're just details.I just want to be with you again."
Jeongguk circled his arms around Taehyung's waist.
"I want it too."
"What is it?" Tae giggles softly.
"Look, about my twitter account, I really couldn't give it to you!"
"Mmh really? Why is that?"
"You would've found out about my crush on you in a way
"What? Wait! Did you plan this?"
"No... Well I was kinda hoping we would even get closer if we prepared my album together, and I would like sing for you dramatically or something. Tonight was totally not in my plans."
"You can totally still serenade me.
Seeing Jeongguk's mortified face, Taehyung burst out laughing.
"No way. Oh my God and Hoseok hyung and Jennie never told me this!"
"Joon hyung and Yoongi hyung too..."
"They were the ones I was whining to when you were out with Bogum hyung..."
Taehyung kissed Jeongguk's cheek, hugged him tigher and said:
"We're still preparing that album together. And you're still accepting my follow request, baby."
"Anything you want."
"Aren't you tired?" Taehyung said, panting.
"Nop,I'm too excited to be tired." Jeongguk said smiling, but when he looked at his boyfriend through the dance studio mirror his smile vanished."And you? Are you okay? Is it your knee?"
"I'm fine, I just
Jeongguk turned around and was going to open his mouth but Taehyung beat him to it, kissed him quickly and reassured him.
"I'm going to sit, do the routine from the beginning I wanna watch."
In the back, Hoseok was leaning on the wall
"Is it.. always like this?"
"Let them be, they're on the honeymoon phase it's normal." Yoongi said furrowing his eyebrows.
"We didn't say anything!" Hoseok replied.
"Sure. Now go work you're the choreographer."
"I think Tear belongs on the setlist." Taehyung said, sitting on the kitchen counter.
"I'm kinda insecure about this one. I've never rapped in a track let alone with the hyungs."
"That's exactly why it should be in the setlist. my man can spit bars."
"Gguk, if you don't want to it's fine, but... It's a raw song, it's so powerful and beautiful. I love it, even more because it's about your deepest feelings, the realest ones. Your fans will love it too."
"And you said that you wanted to share, with this album. It's not about stupid love songs, it's about you and what you went through. The bad, the good, the black and the white.
"Sap." Taehyung giggled.
"Your sap" Jeongguk grinned. Taehyung shook his head and.. well they kissed.
That's how they picked the setlist, together.
"What are you doing here?" Taehyung said, surprised, as he climbed in Jeongguk's car, parked in front of his University.
"I missed you."Jeongguk pouted.
"You had some time to miss me? With all the work you have?"
"Yes." Jeongguk said as he leaned to kiss his
"I can't believe we've been together for a month already. Life with you goes by so fast."
"I feel the same, I've been so happy lately Tae. Honestly we should've
"I was such an ass five years ago, please"
"You weren't an ass baby, just a little bit too ... nice and naive?"
"Talking about asses, If I could I would've gone back in time AND kicked my own ass."
"What is so funny?"
"You're right. It feels good." Taehyung whispered.
"Not that I don't appreciate this but what ar-"His cheeks got pressed between Taehyung's palms, who grabbed his lover's face
"Jeongguk, I love you."
Jeongguk could only grab Taehyung's waist and deepen the kiss.
They were in love.
"Babe you've been saying since for hours."
"I didn't know it would make it to the cut! Seriously."
"You're the best of couse they would make your scene appear in it."
"It's gorgeous. I never knew I needed you licking a candle's wax off your fingers until now." Taehyung laughed as he drove around.
"Oh I know you like it when I lick things."
"You're a menace."
"It's honestly amazing. It fits the song well and the visuals are stunning. They WILL like it. Plus the whole rich goth vibe? I'd sell my soul to the Jungkook in the MV."
"You wouldn't sell your soul to me now?"
Jeongguk dared to puff. But Taehyung knew he was trying to calm his stress. the comeback was in three days, his grand return after his several scandals and hiatus. Jeongguk went through so much these past month, but he was still fearing rejection.
"Mh?" Jeongguk hummed, still a little pouting.
"You're going to do great."
"And not only because you have an amazing fanbase who will support you
"So you know how music shows work now?"
"What did you think? When you saw me perform."
"On TV or in real life?"
"On TV, like, for the first time."
"Uh... to be honest I don't know. I was shocked and I went through a panic
"Not your fault dummy. I developed these after my parents left me."
"You don't seem to have them these days though... are you better?"
"I am Gukkie. You make life better. I still have them from time to time
"But what if they didn't forgive me?"
"You're too good at lifting my mood up."
"It's my car!"
Jeongguk smiled and got closer to his boyfriend. They kissed above the console for too many minutes.
Jeongguk was pacing in the living room, while Taehyung was watching him.
"Gukkie please sit, relax!"
"I can't relax. The album is out in 22 minutes, oh my god."
"Love this isn't your first album... it's going to be fine."
"I know I just... Oh God."
"I'm at the company or taking a nap, since they're released at 6pm."
"Why aren't you at the company ?"
"I wanted to stay with you."
"Right answer, now come here let me play with your hair. You're
"Okay" Jeongguk didn't hesitate before he rested on the sofa with his head on Taehyung's lap.
"I just... I loved making this with you Tae. I love this album so much and I want everyone to love it just as much."
When he logged on Twitter and Naver, he looked for reactions and felt relieved when everyone loved it. Like Jeongguk deserved.
"Welcome home, love"
"Mh?" Jeongguk asked, half asleep.
"Are you happy?"
"Why are you asking that?" Jeongguk said nuzzling Tae's hair.
He felt his shoulder getting kissed.
"It tickles Tae"
"I love you. And I am happy with you too. You know, sometimes I really feel like I'm meant to be with you"
"We ARE meant to be baby."