Dear God,
I have a few questions which I would want You to answer. I do not want to rely on scriptural quotations, I do not want to listen to a priest or a pastor preach, I do not want to listen to a proverb or a quotation that relates to my questions.
I have a few questions which I would want You to answer. I do not want to rely on scriptural quotations, I do not want to listen to a priest or a pastor preach, I do not want to listen to a proverb or a quotation that relates to my questions.
I want to have a direct conversation with you. I want to know the plans you have for me. I want to know the right steps to take today. I want to know if I am making the right choices. I want to ask so many questions and I want the answers to come directly from You.
I do not speak out of disrespect or doubt. I do not speak out of frustration or rebellion. My faith in you is not weary and I have not lost hope. I simply long for the conversation that will guide me today and lead me on the path for tomorrow.
I want to be able to close my eyes while I open my ears to hear your voice telling me what to do. I know questioning You is frowned at and we were taught never to do so but I am in need of your words of encouragement to help me through this difficult period.
In the past I have had to search through scripture looking for biblical references that would go with my predicaments. Other times I have had to search for homilies and preaching which would calm the tensions within. This time around I just need to hear Your voice.
The world may see my smile and hear my laughter but deep down the rage of pain and agony blows like a blizzard. I have learnt to bottle up my misery because my close family and friends turn to me for support and I do not want to disappoint them.
If I break down they may not be able to bear my weight. My heart is weary and my knees hurt from the pain I am carrying. Please speak to me, let your words take away my pain, let your hand of mercy touch my heart and remove this hurt.
It is the last thing that I think about before I go to bad and the first thing on my mind when I wake up. I strut around town like everything is going to be alright but when I return to the silence of my bed I am struck with depression like lightening during the raining season.
In the middle of my darkest tunnel I still believe in you, I believe you have a plan for me and that plan will be good. I have listened to many sing your praises and speak of your goodness. I am sure that very soon it will be my turn.
One day that ray of light will hit my eyes and I will find the strength to walk out of this tunnel. And when that day comes, when that moment finds me - I will sing unto the Lord a joyful song. I will praise You with a loud cry.
I will rejoice like no man has ever rejoiced. I am very certain that day will come and for that singular reason I want to say Thank You for yesterday, for today and for Tomorrow.
May your name be praised both now and forever more.
May your name be praised both now and forever more.
"Those who leave everything in God's hands will eventually see God's hands in everything"..... Amen.
