because the system gets in your brain and your body and you believe in it.
god, I have been so hurt and betrayed by churches and religion and people who don't affirm my sexuality. but I can't but love them, deeply and desperately, love them enough to hope they change.
Peter, cutting the ear off a servant.
the disciples refusing to let the little children come to Jesus.
Judas wasn't the only one who didn't quite grasp what Christ was doing.