It has been a day. The realization hits him hard and suddenly Jungkook stopped tapping his feet on the ground.
It has been a whole entire day since Secretary Kim quit.
He had arrived at the company on time as usual, going about his morning with the routine of phone calls, brief meetings, files and such. By the time he got back to his office it was almost noon but he still desperately needed a cup of coffee.
That’s why every morning, at 11:45 there would be a mug of fresh coffee sitting patiently on his desk for him to enjoy. However, when he reached for the mug yesterday morning, all he felt was air.
That was the first sign something was wrong.
The first time being him riddled with the flu and a high fever, the second being where he had to visit a friend in the hospital and so on.
It was sealed neatly with his name written beautifully in cursive on the front.
It was from Taehyung.
Taehyung started off mentioning how he tried to tell Jungkook he was submitting his two weeks a while ago but Jungkook completely brushed him off.
At the time, there was a project that was failing and needed funds so he instinctively pushed the thought to the back of his head.
Jungkook stopped again because he wanted to scoff at how much of a liar Taehyung was. If he really regretted it then he wouldn’t have put it on his desk for him to see.
Go? Go where? That was something Taehyung never mentioned and it peeved him.
That’s when Jungkook actually stopped reading.
Taehyung will show back up to work tomorrow and he’d definitely scold him for being so immature.
But another part of him knew that Taehyung never acted like this and that he might actually be leaving.
So here he was, arms crossed and lips pursed while glaring at the envelope on his desk, the gaze sharp enough to burn holes through the paper.
''Friendly, energetic- are they kidding me?'' He yelled in exasperation
His eyes looked at the pile of submissions that were thrown everywhere on his desk and how unorganized it looked. Wow. A week ago, this was spotless and now it's a hot mess.
Much like him.
''Still, haven't found your Taehyung 2.0?''
''Listen, it doesn't matter how hard you try, you'll never be able to find someone like him in this lifetime.
Jungkook wants to reply with how he's wrong but he's not.
But what else can he do? Taehyung has declined all of his calls so was he supposed to wallow in despair? Or was he
No thanks. He might not have a secretary, but he still has his pride.
Life moves on and he'll just have to settle for a downgrade regardless of how pathetic it makes him feel.
Too often, he had relied on Taehyung's sense of duty to complete all of the assignments given to him and now it's come to bite his ass.
Even if he's not used to his departure yet, he will be sooner or later. He'll manage...hopefully.
But it was tedious and difficult and the more Jungkook looked at the applications, the more he's reminded of how hardworking and perfect Taehyung was.
Jungkook doesn't know when or how, but he grew accustomed to having Taehyung there to keep him on track.
Jungkook had just fired his second secretary in three days and he was about to be on his wits end.
Everything was going wrong and he couldn’t seem to make it right. There was small bags under his eyes and he really just wanted to sleep his worries away.
Taehyung took care of issues before they even became issues and Jungkook never knew how much help that was
They carried the work together with both of their will. Now the helping hand vanished and it all came crashing down on him.
That feels all so foreign now, something that passed him by like a stranger on a crowded street.
It was pathetic, really.
What he missed more was the companionship Taehyung offered, all the late nights where he’d work overtime and there would always be someone there for him to tell him that he’s not alone.
It was about the level of trust they had in each other because in the back of his mind, Jungkook knew that even if all else fails, Taehyung would have his back.
Honestly, Jungkook feels a little betrayed, his back open and vulnerable.
But he also feels lonely. It’s just him by himself now. All alone.
Those quiet moments where he’d miss him had nothing on the times where it’d be just him in his office after everyone has already gone home and he’d hear some rustling nearby.
It’d turned out to be the air conditioner or just a random glitch and Jungkook would remember all the times he called for Taehyung and he actually responded.
He already told himself it was for the best for the both of them and Taehyung wanted to move on. Yet he continues to miss him and wishes for Taehyung to come back.
At least for him to properly say goodbye, please.
It was time for him to move on.
School was easygoing and relaxed and college was a
He never studied or put in extra effort yet everything came to him like they were his property.
There was the long hours and the stress and the humiliation he endured while the wealthy old crooks mocked him for his stupidity.
He was naive, they would say, laughing right in front of his face and the worst part was that he had to smile right back.
Life had been too easy on him and he got carried away by the gentle stream that always patted him on the back for doing the bare minimum.
He continued to make mistakes and didn’t know what else to do and how he could possibly fix those errors.
It messed up his brain and just when he was going to give it all up, Taehyung came into his life.
That was the turning point.
While Jungkook ran around trying to get everything done, Taehyung organized all the documents and took over his schedule to ensure that everything was done at a specific time and done by
While Taehyung managed the office, Jungkook met with clients and got investors for the company.
They worked well by each other’s side, a compatible match that made everything easier and Jungkook is forever grateful to be able to find someone like him.
School was easygoing and relaxed and college was a
But it never made him feel accomplished or happy that he was able to do something because that was always the expectation.
Jungkook was proud of this achievement and felt fulfilled working to improve himself even more. And he was also happy that he had a friend to finally confide in.
They were always joking, having fun
Jungkook would usually shoot back a snarky remark on how he’d fire him for being so annoying and Taehyung would stick his tongue out at him, challenging him with his deep, brown eyes.
Taehyung’s arrival picked him up while he was on the ground, it pushed him forwards and allowed him to become the person that he was today instead of wallowing in his pool of sorrow and self pity.
“I don’t want to talk about it right now.”
How could he answer that question when he doesn’t even know the answer himself?
Jungkook doesn’t know why he even has hope anymore, why he continues to have faith in their friendship. It’s been 2 weeks and he’d call him almost every day but Taehyung never picks up.
Not even once.
Taehyung was cutting off their ties.
Hard to swallow and difficult to breathe.
‘’Thank you, Hoseok hyung but I think this is for the best. Jungkook...he can live without me
‘’What do you mean?’’
‘’I saw Jungkook earlier, my god Taehyung he looked so broken and so different. I could barely recognize him and I’ve known him for ten years. I dont think he knows what he’s doing without you.’’
‘’But I’ve been hurting too.’’ Taehyung whispered and the other line fell silent.
‘’I’m 27 now.’’ Taehyung looked up to the ceiling as he spoke.
In this industry, those that were at the top looked down on those at the bottom. It was cruel, for the beginners to look at the successful people in awe while
He remembered that it was raining that day, the tires from the cars driving by splashing water onto their shoes and dirtying the bottom of their pants. He didn’t know how Jungkook handled it because he wanted to cry even though they didn’t even say anything
He didn’t know what it meant before, but he figured it out eventually after spending so much time with Jungkook over the years.
‘’I’m 27 now. ‘’ He repeated. ‘’I’ve ran through 6 years of my life and I don’t know how many 6 years I have left to wait for him.’’
‘’That’s what I thought too, I thought that maybe my feelings were returned but that was just wishful thinking.
‘’But is moving away really the answer you want?’’
‘’Besides, it's not like I really have a choice to stay. I’ve already bought the plane ticket and I’m leaving tomorrow-
Hoseok tried to say something else but Taehyung hung up the phone before he could.
He took the photo with Jungkook on his birthday 6 years ago and it has been saved his phone ever since.
Taehyung's thumb caressed the screen a few times as he tried to think of any sort of answer but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't.
It looks so strange, the screen changing after he's accustomed to the same one for so long but Taehyung'll try to used to it.
He has to.
If he was to move on, then he has to let all of it go.
That's just how life works.
All he heard was Hoseok yelling Taehyung’s name and his ears naturally perked up towards that direction by instinct. That was just something he couldn't control and it just happened.
It was Taehyung's voice.
He hasn't heard from him in so long and his feet became glued to the ground unconsciously.
Honestly, that wasn't surprising at all but what came afterward was something that he didn't expect.
How could he possibly be able to think at a time like this?
There was nothing he could think about because there were too many things to think, all the words crossing over
When the call ended and Hoseok exited down the other end of the hallway, he felt all of his strength leave him. When he was sure Hoseok was gone, Jungkook's knees buckled underneath him and he slid down the wall he was against.
There has been a war raging within him for the past couple of hours, scorching his insides. It’s almost midnight now and he still doesn’t know which side is going to return victorious but either way, it won’t be good for him.
It wasn’t like he didn’t care for Taehyung, Jungkook will always have a special place in his heart for his partner of 6 years. However, he was ignorant to the things the other was trying to convey to him no matter how desperately he cried out.
Or Taehyung wanting to speak with him and he'd avoid it by giving a shitty excuse. These things happened frequently, sometimes smaller, sometimes bigger and amplified but Taehyung endured it all while Jungkook never faced it head-on.
That was the reasons then. Now it just looked like awful excuses to cover his own ass so basically, he was just too scared to take the initiative to meet Taehyung halfway.
Taehyung was like a pillar that helped him be able to stand and walk, being there for him every step of the way. He was patient, gentle and loving. Only an imbecile like him would push someone like him away.
Jungkook was the one who pushed him away.
He was the one that coldly rejected the bashful, innocent Taehyung that looked at him like he was the entire galaxy and Taehyung was a man who saw the stars for the first time.
Not only did Jungkook realize that he didn’t deserve Taehyung, Taehyung realized that too. So he decided to move on and it’s only his own fault for being left in the dust.
However, the scenario was different, or rather, the dimension wasn’t the same.
The dream was just him at first, being confused about why he was wearing a suit and how he got here in the first place.
Jimin, Hoseok, and Yoongi sat in the front row to the right. Namjoon and Jin was standing for a while before they sat down as well. His coworkers and other
As the bells rang again, he felt a small poke in his back, gentle and light. Time paused when he turned around-his footsteps splattering against the floor- facing aTaehyung who was beaming at him with the most beautiful smile on his face.
There was a brief silence where none of them moved before Taehyung mouthed the words “I love you” just as the priest came between the two of them.
It was like a yank that pulled him by the hairs on his neck and if it wasn’t for the fact that he was in shock, a scream would’ve ripped
When he came to again, he was in the same exact place, except that his position in the scene changed dramatically.
The story was altered.
His heart was flying before but now it’s in the bottom of his stomach.
“If any of you has a reason why these two should not be married, speak now or forever hold your peace."
Jungkook looked over to the priest that was at the center
His lips parted as the priest searched the room for anyone who was going to speak up.
It started off as a whisper, him uttering “No.”
Then he repeated the word with more determination and assertion.
There was an interval before the wedding continued and when
He ran with all his strength but somehow his destination moved further away just as he was inches away from touching Taehyung
Not when the person standing there wasn’t him.
And then Jungkook sat up in his bed, chest heaving rapidly, a hand reached outwards and his eyes wide open.
The clock by his nightstand just ticked to 5 am as he did so, the sound assuring Jungkook that this was no longer a dream.
His eyebrows were furrowed together as he bent downwards, a feeling of suffocation washing over the night.
He loved him too.
Jungkook loved Taehyung.
He lifted his face from his hands as his eyes widened again.
It took you damn near long enough, Jeon Jungkook.
Through his complicated and mixed emotions, a bubbly excitement came to life because he knew he loved Taehyung and Taehyung loved him too.
Jungkook suddenly experienced the drop from heaven down to the ninth level of hell as another realization dawned on him.
This thought clawed its way through his newfound euphoria and resulted in a massive collusion that spelled out an ugly truth.
Taehyung doesn’t have the time to hear his stupid confession when his flight is tomorrow-
Jungkook looked at the clock showing the time and shot up, throwing his blanket to the floor.
No, Taehyung was leaving today and he didn’t know what time his flight is scheduled.
He couldn’t lose Taehyung, not right now, not ever.
It was too early in the morning for him to deal with this and all he wants is to
There were the constant disturbances of crowds walking past the area, the loud chatter of the people and the occasional announcements that irritated him to no end.
It was Jungkook.
He doesn’t remember how many times he’s hit decline on these calls. Taehyung wanted to cut himself out of Jungkook’s life so he resorted to ghosting him but now, looking at
He was at the airport and 30 minutes away from boarding his flight anyways so
Taehyung hesitated. The ringtone repeated itself for a further amount of time and just when the request was coming to an end, he pressed the green button and placed his phone to his ear.
“Yes?” Taehyung replied after an uncomfortable amount of time they spent in silence, neither of them knowing what to say.
“Don’t say you’re sorry.” Taehyung interrupted coldly and Jungkook fell silent again.
There was a barrier between the two that prevented them from sharing their actual thoughts and it limited them to a hostile conversation. Taehyung didn’t want for it to
The wall was firm and steady and neither of them knew how to get over it.
Taehyung didn’t expect to hear that from him at all. He had to check to see if the number actually belonged to Jungkook and sure enough, it did but that wasn’t something that he would normally say.
Jungkook didn’t give him any
“Did you miss me? Like at all? Even if it’s just a little?” It felt like Jungkook was holding his breath through the phone and Taehyung had to take a second to absorb it all, the mixed feelings, how he should respond and
What was the point of all of this when it’s useless and unnecessary? They’re already going in their separate ways and there’s no middle road to go back to where they were before.
“No.” He stated, wanting to end this conversation.
“No. I don’t understand why you have to force yourself to pretend like you no longer care about me when you do. I know you do and I care about you too, Tae...in a lot more ways than I thought I did.”
“What do you even mean by that?”
“I love you.”
“I love you,” Jungkook repeated, more firmly this time to get his point across.
“Stop. Don’t say these things now.” Taehyung rubbed his temples and closed his eyes
He doesn’t know why this outburst came out of nowhere and it was... problematic.
That was the only phrase he could use to describe this situation.
He ignored how Jungkook knew
“I don’t really see how worthy it is to stay.” He stated, biting the inside of his lip until the taste of iron filled his tongue.
“Then let me show you.” Jungkook responded after a brief pause.
“And how exactly do you intend to do that?
At that second, his phone slipped from his fingers and he shot up from his seat.
He doesn’t know how to put it in words but it just doesn’t feel like him. This was a side of Jungkook that he has never seen before and it stunned him.
It seemed like he was in a hurry as well and the vulnerable state he was in made his heart ache a little
Taehyung parted his lips in another attempt to say something but Jungkook prevented him from doing so by surprising him with a kiss.
It completely threw him off.
At this point, his eyes were wide open, his
Yet his body didn’t want to listen to his rationality or his reasoning and remained as still as a statue.
He could feel the warmth from the others body and the faint heartbeat that resonated throughout their touch. Unconsciously, his fingers traveled to Jungkook’s
A million things poured into his minds and suddenly, he isn’t so sure about
He was too caught up in the happiness and shock that Jungkook came all the way here for him that he forgot why he was here
His hand froze in mid air and then it was shoving Jungkook away, the sudden turn of events almost knocking the other off his feet.
“What the fuck, Jeon.” He yelled, furiously wiping at his lips.
It stung a bit.
It was all too confusing and all too much and now he felt nauseous. He doesnt know what to do.
Taehyung glanced at him but didn’t pull his hand away, a
Taehyung knew this and as much as he didn’t like the confident, yet worried look on Jungkook’s face, there was still a little part that wanted him to stay. What’s the worse that could happen?
That was when Taehyung remembered he still had a ticket tucked in his pocket
“I’ll be whatever that makes you stay.” Jungkook responded matter of factly and that made Taehyung’s heartbeat quicken a little. It was the simplest reply but it had a wondrous impact on him.
“When I realized that you were my world.” He whispered, pressing their
“I love you, Taehyung.” He said these words earlier on the phone but he wanted to say it again. This time, in person and face to face.
There was no further actions that needed to be done and no further words needed to be said. All they needed was each other.
Taehyung was what showed him all the wonderful things in life and helped him keep going. Now that he got it back he never intends to let it go ever again.
That’s a promise.
"Tae, baby don’t you think we should take it easy on your first day back?" Jungkook used a hand to prop up his chin as he leaned on his desk. Meanwhile Taehyung gave him a bewildered look as if he’d just seen a ghost.
"Take it easy? Jungkook, there’s so many things that
"Relax a little, we'll get to it." Jungkook had to interrupt him again to prevent Taehyung from panicking about catch-up work. He had forgotten how much of an perfectionist the other was, always on top of things and ready to work and even
The older cocked a questioning eyebrow at him as he waited for Jungkook to
There was a sharp click as the drawer closed once more and Jungkook cleared his throat before opening the folder.
Jungkook used a finger to trace his placing as he announced his self-made plans out loud.
12:30: Lunch with my baby
2:00: Cafe date, if Taehyung wanted coffee
4:00: Catch a movie together
4:10: Pretend I have to stretch but I'm actually just going to use that an excuse to hug Taehyung
6:30: Watch the sunset together
It was Taehyung who interrupted Jungkook this time, crying out Jungkook's name with his face turning into a blushing mess as he hid his cheeks behind his hands. However, it was useless because Jungkook could still see the redness of his cute little ears.
"7:00: Walk around Seoul and enjoy the stars and city lights
8:00: Take Taehyung home but walk slowly so we have more time to
8:30: Kiss Taehyung goodnight as his doorstep but staying longer so I get another goodnight kiss." With that, he closed the folder and smirked at Taehyung.
"Now isn’t this schedule way better than the last?" Jungkook put the folder down and got up.
"Well," Taehyung started after a moment to take in all of this information. "...If we want to get through that entire list we need to start now." His face got redder towards the end and Jungkook couldn’t be happier.
"Then let’s do it." He stretched a
First item on the list: hold Taehyung's hand.
Taehyung's heart tingled and fluttered as they laced their hands together.
"Let’s go." He said softly as they made their exit out of the office.
That’s all I'd ever want. You.