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Stephanie Fantastic she/her @StphanieTheBest
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All the withholding of affection made me into a person I really never wanted to be.

I don't chase people. It's exhausting. But I was chasing them and they just couldn't hit the buttons that I needed.

I felt so strung out.
I kept singing this Everclear song in my head.



"I don't wanna be wasted
I don't wanna live inside this daydream anymore
I just wanna be happy again
I don't wanna be wasted
I don't want to be blind."
It's really hard for me to ask for help or ask for the things I can't provide for myself.

I feel like my life has had a lot of key moments involving me asking so hard for what I need and not being able to get it.

Thank god for therapy on Monday.
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If you wanna be my love, you gotta get down with the revolution
FOH cops
Fuckin typo but honestly it's realer for me that way.
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Hey.

Today is already a shit day to be a fat person on the internet (haha, so it's a day ending in y) but I want you to know that you are valid and gorgeous and your health is no one else's fucking business.

You deserve to be treated with respect and dignity.
You deserve to buy clothes that aren't marked up 3x the price of straight size clothing and you deserve to be paid the same fucking money as straight size people for the same work.

You deserve love and acceptance from the people in your life.
You deserve great sex (if you want it) with partners who are enthusiastic about your body.

You are not worth less than a thin person.

You are not something to be tolerated. You are something to be celebrated bc you are the only you that exists.
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Do people who think showing a fat model is promoting obesity also think that showing a disabled model is promoting disability?
And since Tess Holliday is very outspoken about working out, maybe the idea that people are worried about showing "unhealthy" people as role models is really just thinly veiled bigotry and ableism.
The argument is so flawed. Why would not being in perfect health be something we had to hide from people anyway?

Health isn't linear. People get sick. People become disabled. Some people recover and some people don't but neither is morally superior???
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Partition line was drawn by an Englishman called Cyril Radcliffe. The great book ‘The Shadow of the Great Game : The Untold Story of India's Partition.’ by NS Sarila describes the story in detail

India was given Gurdaspur district, which was India's only road link to J&K in 1947
Why is NS Sarila a good Source?

Narendra Singh Sarila was the Aide de camp (ADC) to Lord Mountbatten, India's last viceroy in 1947-48. Boundaries of India and Pakistan was already planned by the end of 1945.

Britain was almost bankrupt after World War 2 (WW2).
Sir Radcliffe’s line of 1947 which was supposed to have been done in 5 weeks is very much in sync with the 1945 planned boundary.

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Really weird moment playing the cowboy game where my cowboy was wading up to his waist in mud and I had a momentary flash of deep worry that he'd get his phone wet
Further cowboy adventures: after stabbing a bear to ribbons, the cowboy became obsessed with selling its skin. He rode the land in an increasingly anxious search for a vendor, refusing to carry wounded people to safety as he did not value their lives as highly as that vile pelt
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At dinner, I learned more about corruption + racism built into society by our masters. A book we discussed (Zinn) was used as part of this "Left" resource's bibliography. I had to share. [A thread]

@BlackSocialists - thoughts on this resource?

historyisaweapon.com/indextrue.html
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People are justifiably sick of the whole "MY WoW story starts in Vanilla" because it reeks of gatekeeping and status seeking, an attempt to say you love WoW best because you were there when it started. I understand that sentiment.

I started playing WoW because of my wife
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People, including Trump last night, have been joking about Melania’s disappearance, but I don't find it funny. Maybe you’ll understand why if I tell you about a time that I disappeared against my will.
From ages 5 until 17, I lived part-time in a stunning hilltop house in Palo Alto with a clear view of Hoover Tower. When I was still a toddler, my abuser wrangled Mondays and every other weekend from my mom.
This arrangement lasted until middle school, when family court considered me old enough to have my own opinion. Like many men who treat women as property, my abuser felt ownership over my opinion. He was ready to coerce me by any means necessary into flipping the arrangement.
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1. I am no longer at @RNS, and that's about all I can say. It was an honor to lead such a dazzling news team. @lmarkoe @AMBankstw @kjwinston11 @YonatShimron @jackmjenkins @emmillerwrites @ayshabkhan @kitdoyle et al have made me a better person over the last 2.5 years.
2. They are great people and all incredibly talented journalists. And @RNS is a news organization unlike any other, founded more than 80 years ago by the visionary Louis Minsky. I am so grateful. It's been a fabulous experience.
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