Thread by @StphanieTheBest

I've been feeling real low and having a lot of problems coping and I know it's the snow but it's hard to remember that external things affect me really hard sometimes.

I have to keep reminding myself to be gentle with myself.

I feel like I already do so little right now that when I can do less, it's absolutely devastating for me.

I wish I knew wtf was wrong with me.

Cn: disability feelings

Sure would make getting disability easier.

I'm so terrified that this is going to be the rest of my life.

That I'm just going to struggle to get by forever and not be able to take care of myself.

It's really hard to not feel like all my problems are made up and I'm just faking my way through life but then I'm like, Who would do this to themself?

I hate living like this. Working wasn't my favorite but damn if I don't need a purpose to thrive. And people around.

Not being able to work takes away my purpose, people to bounce ideas and thoughts off of, money to get those needs fulfilled elsewhere.

I don't even know how I'd be able to deal with working right now. I fall apart over every little thing. I can't deal with basic conversations.

I hate it. I never used to be like this.

My competence was part of my identity.