SO yesterday, and today, are the first times I am genuinely considering leaving comics. I just am not tough enough to be successful out there, nor are the pathways I see towards success any fun, or drive me forward. I've lost the drive.1/10
I never make rash decisions, so I'm here for awhile, wanna see Jack #2 finally get to it's amazing supporters, there are tons of talents who are linked up with me, who deserve the best I can do, but really, I have to redfine "why" or nope out..2/10
The path I've tried to walk doesn't seem to lead towards growing success, so I am letting down the folks who, in this ridculous endevour, lended their support and efforts, and, I am just heartbroken in so many places, at my failures, and at the choices I am left with. 3/10
I just don't know what to do anymore. Depressive spell? YUP. So it may pass, but the realizations and the hopeful illusions I have used to prop myself up till now are gone forever. The movement forward, i thought was slow, was shown to be a spinning wheel with no traction. 4/10
This has nothing to do with our current crowdfunder, but entirely to do with what it takes to stay afloat, as an Independant Creator, in this landscape. Endless oppurtunities, sullied COMPLETELY by tribalism, none of which lets me be myself and still succeed at this time. 5/10
Folks with sterner stuff then me, can and will succeed out there. Hell, Jack has almost reached a point where I can call it's campaign a success, but really, I am not a fighter. You HAVE to fight for your dreams to succeed, and fighting takes courage, and high risk efforts. 6/10
AT this point in my life, I am clinging to everything that matters to me, as it continues to fade and slip away, leaving a distinct scent of the crushing totality of the loneliness of existence, but in doing so, I may only be stifling and killing my own efforts at growth. 7/10
Life is tough. Art is even tougher, so making your life art, would take someone with more strength, then I am currently capable of. I'll take my time, and mull everything over, but when everything loses it's magic, all you are left with is truth, and the truth is cruel. 8/10
Thank you all for your patience, support, and engagement with our work, and I will do my best to move forward even thru all this, but man.... 9/10
Without the fun, with the demands of business and money, with the choked awareness of the work, and with the paths forward so damn distasteful to me, I just, am not sure what i got left in the tank anymore.
Love ya all, I'll be around, just not much today. 10/10
Love ya all, I'll be around, just not much today. 10/10
