Liban slept 8.5 -9.5 hours. This is a little bit too much. ‘ I will aim for 7-8 hours’ he said. ‘ I think getting those many hours is giving me headache now’ he added. For three hours after he wake up, Liban worked on his journal, and took care few things.
Long time ago Liban analyzed free association speech of student in counseling class, and was able to learn a lot: after he turned the speech into text. Since then Liban loved to do that for himself. He learned that he was tired and he was presenting headache. He ate painkillers
Liban also learned that free association presents disjointed information, but he could always ‘cupture the main gist of the speech or the predominant inclination’ he said. ‘ I was tired, felt pain too, for instance, and I did not want to clean, yet I did not want to rest either’
‘this is an example of paradoxical impulse that needs to be noted and corrected’ he said. ‘ I am resting now and soon I will clean and more’ he said. ‘ Reflection on experiences helps me learn and learning allows me to direct my experiences to more rational and efficient way’
Tiredness, for instance, is a problem, Liban said. How will you deal with it? He asked. One way is to sleep. This is not the best way because it decreases your desire to sleep at night. Another option is meditation, tai chi or yoga. These activities tend to solve the problem.
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For the last hour, Liban could not freely associate due to running out of things to say. He started cleaning, and then checked sites now and then responding to them; it appears that emptiness was resistance to free association, and a chance to engage in distractions
For the last hour, Liban could not freely associate due to running out of things to say. He started cleaning, and then checked sites now and then responding to them; it appears that emptiness was resistance to free association, and a chance to engage in distractions
Similarly, resistance to account for time use may also be an irrational impulse to cover misuse of time. It takes the form of tiredness: I cannot do it. Twice hourly reporting will be sustained.
Liban responds angrily to ideas that may work, such as imagine students in classroom and you are lecturing to them on problem solving skills needed in their environment. It is also possible that free association unlocks stored psychic energy that may be tapped now .
1514, Liban also did some cleaning and cooking. ‘ I do not like to freely associate neither do I like to read scholarly materials and then gather most curiosity arousing materials and then share them with the rest’ he said. ‘ I like to do nothing or browse for pleasure’ he added
‘ I do not like to research old materials, I need to gain access to current information of what is happening, insider information’ he said. ‘ I do not know how to get that information’ he said. For this reason, Liban said, ‘ I will do nothing since I lack access to intelligence’
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Liban slept 17 minutes, and then he started researching covid-19. He has collected information about it and he will publish it. Liban recognizes that he has to work with information he has, since information is expensive and governments pay a lot of money to get them.
Liban slept 17 minutes, and then he started researching covid-19. He has collected information about it and he will publish it. Liban recognizes that he has to work with information he has, since information is expensive and governments pay a lot of money to get them.
Liban prepared lecture on covid-19 and politics of Somalia. He felt ‘ out of it’ to continue the lecture, after an hour and 30 minutes. For the last hour, he spent time responding to comments, browsing the net also while telling himself to quit and start updating his journal.
Second hour about to finish. Liban spent last hour updating materials. However, most of the time, he was browsing the net. He felt a little bit of pressure around the throat, and feeling of shortness of breath. He will notify his doctor. It is very subtle one, not obvious.
‘ if I am given another day’ Liban wrote ‘ I would have used most of the time more usefully, working on subjects that are important to me’ he said. ‘ I would have given zero time to anything else or at least to frivolous things ’ he added.
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