Thread by @owenbroadcast

been having the craziest dreams since ive been thinking about things more. have never had a part of my life where my dreams have had more of an effect on my waking hours than now. about half of it is weird powerful symbolism and half of it is memories and feelings i forgot about

today i was at work and someone mentioned cleaning up blood and i remembered this dream where i got a new book, i think it was the bible, and it had this beetle on the edge so i crushed it with my hand and all this blood came out of it and stained the edges of the pages.

in the dream i was really concerned that id ruined this new book. i was also like, "what the hell this beetle is full of blood... is that normal...?". the image of the blood stained pages is what i really remember

ive noticed that in my own dreams, dreams with poisonous or venomous animals are usually symbolic and more significant, theyre typically "set apart" from my dreams that are obviously just random mental detritus from my day floating around

half of them have been symbolic like that, the other half have been me back in situations that remind me of things i used to do that were, frankly, bad, especially things i didnt think much of at the time but in retrospect im really ashamed or even surprised by

i had this dream last night where i was at a party at my parents house (common occurrence) with a ton of people and i really wanted to smoke and drink but i had no weed or alcohol and i was just acting like a fucking fiend about it, just being so weird about it.

everyone else had these comically large bags of weed, but they kept incidentally or intentionally smoking with one another while i was in another room or something, and i was just being like totally consumed by this desire to intoxicate myself (which i no longer do)

it just made me really reflect on times in my life where i really let me be addicted to things affect my behavior and relationships, ive had other dreams where i replay things ive done that im too embarrassed to mention outright here (immoral things, not like being awkward)

things where at the time i either justified it to myself or thought it was normal but now that im more clear headed i wake up like "wow what the hell is wrong with me, i literally cannot believe i did that", and ill think about it all day.

its just interesting because this has only been happening since ive been watching these videos about and thinking about everyone being a sinner and how no one fully lives up to gods laws and how we need gods grace to, redeem us basically... you know the deal

really makes me wonder if part of my subconscious or something external to me is kicking up these memories when i dream that ive completely buried to reinforce certain ideas or to get me thinking about things more clearly even if its painful to do so

thoughts for the mind

also, people ask me about analyzing dreams a lot. ill expand more on this but imo the key to understanding a dream is how u feel in the dream, not the overt symbols. ur mind creates the dream based on the feelings it gets from ur subconscious, its "reasoned backwards" basically