@RebelNobody93 I did. I’ve reached a point of zero tolerance for bullshit. Unlike in years past, I finally know my worth, and I won’t be stepped on.
@RebelNobody93 I’ll probably tell you about all this shit in-depth sometime. The last straw was the shit Shelby and Taylor were saying on my campaign posts—not because it was criticism, but because of their rotten attitudes even on the very first post; I actually liked others’ critical replies.
@RebelNobody93 This was not unusual behavior for them—those two NEVER reached out to me except to bitch at me. I’d known them since 2012-2013, and I cannot remember an instance where they just wanted to chat or see how I was. Maybe once each, if that.
@RebelNobody93 I think on some bizarre level Taylor means well, but Shelby and husband Donovan are just ill-tempered bullies. I see that now, reflecting. I’ll go more in-depth about Shelby and Donovan another time. But yeah, that was all pretty characteristic behavior, and I finally had enough.
@RebelNobody93 @RebelNobody93 I will probably end up ranting to you via voice message sometime. We’re talking years of bullshit that I was too blind to recognize until my dear @allyhardesty96 helped me learn my worth. I’ve been babbling about that a lot lately, and that’s because it is huge.
@RebelNobody93 @allyhardesty96 For years I was quick to apologize & accept being in the wrong just because someone chewed me out. This may partly explain why most of my Facebook friends don’t seem to take me seriously. I just didn’t want friends to be upset with me. (I still don’t, but I no longer just submit)
@RebelNobody93 @allyhardesty96 I HATE being at odds with people I care about (gets my heart thumping and I feel awful), and in the past I’d desperately try to smooth things over. I now see that this made me a whipping boy. Live and learn, I guess. @allyhardesty96 This is why I’m so afraid of pushing you away.
@RebelNobody93 @allyhardesty96 I’ve been pushed around for years by people who couldn’t figure out how to handle my issues, so they’d bottle shit up (that’s also because they’re all reclusive types) & later blow up on me for everything it turned out I was doing wrong. I’m fucking autistic—I can only do so much
@RebelNobody93 @allyhardesty96 I struggle with reading social cues, and now in addition to possibly misreading something, I have a shitload of anxiety about possibly misstepping. This is why I often ask you for reassurance, @allyhardesty96—I’m terrified of doing wrong by you & not knowing until damage is done.
@threadreaderapp Unroll this too, please.
